Never realised it was you
Chapter 1
It was another routine morning, Santana had to get up and get dressed, make her way to school and try not to kill anyone. It was a bright morning which made her smile, she loved going to school in her short cheer outfit. She bounced out of bed and hopped into the shower. She turned the dial and let the water trickle slowly. With every beat of the water droplets she became more relaxed. She always found herself at her happiest when she was around water, it somewhat calmed the hot tempered Latina. She pulled herself out of the momentary daze and proceeded to get washed.
She stood in the middle of her room with a towel wrapped around her middle whilst she did her hair in that high pony that sue made mandatory. She pulled herself over to the dresser where the cheer uniform was and let her towel fall at her feet. She had just picked up her uniform when her bedroom door suddenly swung open. She bent down as quickly as humanly possible and wrapped the towel around herself, only to see Brittany make her way to her bad. "Jesus, Brit. How many times have I told you to knock before you come into my room, this is like every day this month?" "I always forget and what's the problem, you have an awesome body" with that Santana brought her uniform into the bathroom and got changed.
The girls had made their way to school in less than 5 minutes, they lived close. The school was packed as per usual, but not one soul dared to get in the way of the head bitches plus they knew Santana would attack them , not to mention Quinn has a sharp tongue which even left the teachers in fear, all bar sue. Thankfully it was a Thursday, which meant only one more day to go then pucks annual Friday night party was there. Puck was infamous within the school. It could be said that the Santana circle of friends ruled the school. Thursday was an easy day for Santana, first period was cheer then her and Quinn would ditch and go to Quinn's house until 4 then they would go back to pick up Brit.
"Come on you bags of jelly, I can't stand to see you all jiggle anymore, hit the showers!" sue had a way with words. Santana and Quinn fell back behind everyone and headed to the bleachers, they both made their way behind them and found their bags that they had stashed there before practice. They took them and made their way slowly off the field to Quinn's car. Quinn unlocked the boot and the girls discarded their bags before they climbed into the car. Once Quinn pulled out of the parking lot Santana switched the radio on only to get a glare from her blond bombshell of a friend "fine, no radio" Santana turned her head and starred at the passing buildings. "San" , the pet name came as a whisper, Quinn knew that would grab her attention. Santana turned her head slowly before her big brown eyes met hazzel ones "yea" the short answer came out with a shaky breath of air. Quinn kept her eyes after that focused on the road as she spoke "so, are we going to speak about what you did last night ? Or are you going to ignore everything again as usual." "Ughhhh" Santana really hated this "you know what happened I told you already" Santana couldn't help but bring her mind back to that moment
Santana had just fucked puck even though she is supposed to be faithful to Brit, she had tears in her eyes as she walked down the street at 3am. She pulled her sleeve down a little and wiped her mascara from running. She knew what she was doing was wrong but she couldn't help herself. With a quick move she pulled her phone out and dialled Quinn's number. She listened to the calling dial for a moment until she heard a sleepy yet comforting voice. "San?" Quinn listened for a response but all she could hear was muffled crying "what's the matter? Are you okay" Quinn was starting to get worried however it wasn't the first time that this had happened. "Quinn, I fucked up" Santana could hardly breathe let alone string a conversation together. "I...I...I did it again, I know I shouldn't have but I can't help myself Q I just, I don't know I guess I'm just fucked up Q I really don't know." Santana had to stop speaking so she could gather her breathing but once she stopped Quinn started. "San, calm down, where are you, do I need to come get you? San hello ?" "I'm sorry Q I'm at my house now, can we forget about this, I'm going to bed. Night" Quinn hated to see her friend in such a state but she had no idea how to help.
"No, we gave to talk about this properly. Now get out" the girls had already pulled up to Quinn's house. Santana hung her head and got out slowly so that she wouldn't have to wait on Quinn to unlock the door. She slammed the car door and dragged her heels on the ground, making her way in doors. Once she was through the door she made her way to Quinn's kitchen and came back out with a bag of chips and chocolate, Quinn followed behind her with two ice teas. "Okay, sit" Santana did as she was told.
" Look at me and tell me you love her" Santana looked Quinn in the eyes and said in a whimper "I..I love" then her eyes shot back down to her bag of chips. Quinn let out a heavy sigh. "San, you can't keep doing this, puck is only using you and Brit loves you for fuck sake. You are destroying yourself" Santana had tears forming. "Don't you think I know that, that I'm a bad person, completely heartless and don't you think I fucking loath myself for doing this to her to him to you. I just can't help myself and I don't know why I do what I do but I sure as hell can't stop and that's the bit that makes me want to die." Tears had started to roll down Santana's face. "I know you san, I sure as hell know you have a heart, and don't you remember all those nights you sat with me and let me cry on your shoulder. When you cried with me, when you saved me from myself. I will help you through this but you have to start being honest with me and yourself". Tears where now rolling from both girls eyes. "I will Q, I will" both girls fell into each other's arms and sobbed quietly.