When I saw Jacob Black my head betrayed my heart. Or my heart betrayed my head... I felt so many things for him it was inexplicable!
I felt the love of a brother, a brother I would never have...Jacob was more much more than that. I knew he wasn't really my brother and he wasn't anything like any of my family he was so different, like me!
He was the best friend that would never do anything to make me think twice about telling them my deepest darkest secrets! BUT lately I couldn't tell him any of my secrets I couldn't! Because lately my heart skipped when I saw him and I paid too much attention to those lips when he spoke.
'RENESMEE STOP IT!' - A snap came from the other room. Eurgh it was my dad.
'Sorry Edward!!' I sung sweetly... I knew another growl was coming
'what have I told you about calling me that?!' he raised his voice just a touch.
'I know I know but mom calls Grandpa Swan Char...'
'RENESMEE just don't!'
I tutted ... I had better things to do than argue with Edward today! me and Jake were going out for the day it was the weekend which meant NO SCHOOL!
My dad is never normally in such a huff it's just that my mom's gone shopping with Aunty Al! Well Aunty Al dragged her shopping and my father's sort of home alone he always seems on edge whenever my mother his comforter leaves... I knew that later he would be his usual self when they had their sloppy over bearing reunion that we would all have to be witness too!!
Anyway back to the matter at hand Jake, well I knew I sort of had these feeling for him that were a bit more than before. I wondered what he thought of me? he loved me more than anyone else I had seen him with; he never had a girlfriend never. I opened my wardrobe it was a modest collection of what more I had in Aunty Als huge closet. Jeans wouldn't do, Skirts were so not me... it looked like it was going to be a fair day... perhaps mom would be back sooner. My hand ran across the rail and it stopped on a red summer dress it was very flashy.
'NO RENESMEE! ... I don't think so!' Eurgh what's the point!
I reluctantly picked up my white summer dress with yellow details at the bottom... I didn't get a rude reply so I assumed it was suitable. I quickly got changed my bronze hair fell down past my waist which was quite annoying but approaching the subject of a haircut with my Aunt Rose was simply a heinous crime.
I heard Jake approach my heart started fluttering faster and I hid behind the door. my father looked at me and looked away 'Edward get over it!' I snapped in the smallest of whispers. he huffed and puffed in his chair staring into the blue green flames of the driftwood that smoldered in the fire... smoldered like jakes eyes... those big gorgeous eyes.
One knock as per usual...the door opened and Jake walked in looking beautiful as usual. He was wearing a green shirt his sleeves were rolled up it was unbuttoned and he was wearing a white vest top... his jeans were never totally clean looking hung nicely from his waist he looked understated and amazing as always.
Edwards's eyes snapped to meet Jacobs he didn't say anything logical he just kind of muttered something to quick and too low. My dad turned his head to stare out the far window. I could tell he was just staring back through the pane at me and Jacob.
I stepped into few and Jacobs face lit up as it always did, like a flash light blindingly beautiful. his hands found my waist and he spun me around out into the forest.
'Hello Pretty Lady!!' he husked. I smiled and his heart stopped for that instance.
'Good morning Jake'
'What's wrong with the leech?' I punched his arm playfully. We both laughed.
'Moms out... I was thinking things he didn't want to hear!' I touched his nose with my finger giving him a play by play account of the previous events. of course it was heavily edited. of course!
I paused slightly showing him the sexy red dress I had wanted to wear and his eyes met mine.
'Nice...' he almost squeaked I laughed again.
'So what do you want to do today?' I asked so blasé like I hadn't shown him anything.
'urm I don't know... what do you want to do today?'
'I don't know what do you want to do today?' I repeated him.
he laughed. I laughed. we caught each other's gaze. it lingered and was beautiful.

We were running out of forest, we walked so quickly we hadn't even realized. 'Want to go grab a bite to eat?' I asked. He grinned
'Nessie I thought you would never ask.... I have the perfect place!'

We were running out of forest, we walked so quickly we hadn't even realized. 'Wanna go grab a bite to eat?' I asked. He grinned
'Nessie I thought you would never ask.... I have the perfect place!'
He took my hand and we launched off running toward La Push, it was amazing how actually fair the day was and I hoped Jacob had somewhere a little bit more private in mind.
I had completely gotten over my aversion to human food in fact with Jakes enthusiasm of the stuff I actually quite like it my favorite was anything Chinese which is pretty random I think.
No amount of prodding Jake and winding him up would he reveal he just kept sniggering flashing that smile that could cause a train wreck.
Jake stopped us at the top of a cliff... I had heard all about the time my mother had decided to rebel and jump from cliffs I wasn't really into reliving her experience. Jacob stood in front of me his face in my face my heart fluttered wildly... ok I would jump off the cliff... I would jump off every cliff!
'Nessie you trust me right?' he smiled a smile ... oh my! I couldn't really speak without embarrassing myself my tongue was in knots! so I nodded my curly hair bounced and flickered wildly in the wind.
'ok so you'll jump with me right?' I nodded... what was going on... I thought we were going to eat... I didn't want fish!
'well when we are' he pointed towards the waves. I nodded. 'just keep a hold of my hand ok... I have somewhere I would like you to see' I nodded and smiled at him. he took a few steps back I mirrored him 1, 2, 3 he launched us off his warm hand burning into mine.
The water hit taking both our breathes away he didn't make us resurface he just pushed us down further into the water one hand curled around mine the other feeling the face of the cliff. a cavern in the cliff face emerged he pushed me through it.......what was going on!
we swum up slightly and we surfaced. we were in the middle of a lagoon in the middle of a huge cave. it was black and silver and shades of grey it was breath taking. ... wow.
'Jake where are we?'
'in our underwater cave Nessie...'
'how completely convenient' I noticed something on the shore the black pebbled shore. it was lanterns four of them in a square with a large blanket in the middle with a picnic basket in the middle... whoa how planned! How perfect... how dare I say it... romantic?

Once on the shore Jake noticed me involuntarily shivering… stop it my inner monologue screamed Jacob bit his lip anxiously … then pulled me into a bear hug I noticed his arms and face were dry and his hair was almost there… I stood there pathetically dripping! He pulled me towards him and rubbed my arms muttering apologies… Jacob basically leapt to the basket and pulled out a large and warm looking blanket which was astonishingly bone dry. He wrapped it round me twice and his arms lingered around me as he made sure it was tight…
'A Nessie Roll…' he laughed huskily at his own humor, I started with more passion than necessary or right into his eyes, his eyes lingered on mine then snapped away quickly he almost looked scared. We sat down on the picnic blanket on the pebbles.
'Jake, how did you get all this down here?' I asked completely shocked as he pulled out a flask which when opened steam came out… then he brought out little boxes of Tupperware which again were filled with hot foods… my favorites by the look of it, spending time with Jake a healthy desire for human food was more than expected saying as he ate more than a horse!!
'Let's not get into technicalities…' he smiled. Pulling out what smelled like Chicken Curry with cheese!! Ok… I said I liked human food more than I used to but I didn't say I liked normal human food!
'But Jacob you know how I simply adore technicalities…' I smiled at him flipping my useless wet hair over my shoulder, he looked at me and sighed try as he may Jacob would never be able to keep anything from me!
'Well Paul did it for me… he owes me a few favors he did marry my sister last spring… let's just say it's amazing what yards of plastic sheeting and a length of rope can do!' He smiled offering me a little tub of green jelly with tuna…
'Aw Jacob – I'm not really worth all that trouble! 'I smiled at him again I was genuinely touched by his efforts I really didn't deserve someone like his he would do anything for me, me a chicken to scared to reveal my absolute devotion for him.
He looked deep into my eyes with what looked like passion his lips pressed together then parted as if he was at a loss for words he raised his hand and moved a dying stray strand of hair from my face his thumb skimmed my cheekbone and I almost shivered again.
'Nessie, this is nothing, this is a drop in the ocean compared to what I would like to do for you, I would give you anything take you anywhere – I'm going to live forever for you, so that god willing…Renesmee willing I can see you smile everyday- so I can make you laugh and keep you safe, you are my very first thought on a morning I wonder if your awake, if you've slept well then on a night the last thing I see before I sleep is you, then you stay with me in my dreams… Honest Nessie… I know I sound psycho but never ever think that anything I do for you is too much trouble… nothings trouble if it's for you…' his eyes never left mine and the sincerity with which he spoke burned on his husky voice…I had never heard anything more beautiful I had never seen anything so beautiful than him right now, I had never felt anything so beautiful than what I did in that very second.
I slowly leaned forward – I had never done this before – he stayed frozen like he didn't know what I was going to do… I touched his cheek asking very subtly for his permission to give him a kiss. He moved his hand to my neck gently guiding me forward he kissed me so gently and a million butterflies burst from there cocoon and sprung and fluttered desperately trying to escape me, I let out a slight gasp and he stopped I pressed my lips against his harder my hands tangled in his short gorgeous hair his hand gently pulled me away. I looked at him wildly what was he doing!
'Nessie, one thing I have to make absolutely crystal clear to you Hun, - no matter my feelings for you I never want you to feel obliged to feel the same, you can love whoever you want I'll always want you to be happy….'
'Jacob, I am not done kissing you yet…whoa…wait you love me?' I choked the butterflies diving around crazily
'Nessie, of course I do where have you been all your life!' he smiled a smile totally capable of shattering a thousand hearts…
'Obviously living in some kind of deep denial….'
'Crazy, deep!' We both laughed, and then he looked at me almost expectantly… I couldn't reply to anything he said in the same beautiful words he used
'Jacob Black… of course I love you too…more than… anyone has ever loved anything…'
He grinned so widely and I responded like a mirror smiling back gob smacked at the afternoons…not so shocking revelations…
He leaned to me in the same instant I leaned to him and kissed me in a way that would crumble ancient civilizations, God this little piece of right now was perfect…
Now for telling the folks… and Edward.