Feels Like Home
Sara Sidle sat on the bench in the locker room contemplating the events of the last few days, the explosion, her asking Grissom out to dinner and his rejection of her. Something about how she felt over Grissoms rejection was bugging her and had been since he turned her down. Why didn't she feel sadder that he said no? Sure she was upset that he'd turned her down like anyone was when someone they asked out said no it was kind of humiliating but that was all she felt stupid and humiliated not the sadness she should be feeling. She'd thought she was in love with Grissom thought he was the big love of her life but if she had been then why didn't she feel more crushed about the whole situation, shouldn't my whole world be falling apart by now she wondered?
Sara was so deep in thought that she didn't hear the locker room door open. "I thought I was in love with him," Sara whispered. "In love with who?" Sara gasped and looked up to see Nick standing in front of her, obviously he'd asked the question and was waiting on an answer. Sara just looked at him she didn't know what to say how could she tell Nick about Grissom he'd think she was mad. "No-one Nick it was nothing" Sara stuttered. "It's okay Sara you don't have to tell me" Nick smiled instantly making her at ease. Sara smiled back. "So Nick who's your hot date this weekend" Sara asked. "Well since you were busy I'm just gonna sit in" Nick replied laughing. "You see I'm just so in demand can't date all the good looking guys" Sara said smiling, then thought Oh my God did I just say that. "So you agree I am good looking then" Nick teased her. "Yea well don't let it go to your head Nick it's big enough already," Sara laughed. "So seriously Nick who are you going out with this weekend?" "No-one Sara quiet weekend at home, you know you shouldn't believe all you hear about me contrary to popular belief I don't have a new girl every week" Nick said. Was it just her imagination or did Nick actually look hurt that she might think that about him. "Nick relax you know me I don't gossip and I don't listen to it" Sara smiled. "Well as long as you know," Nick said looking her in the eye. "I know" She smiled up at him. "Well Sara much as I love you to flirt with me I gotta go meeting Warrick at the gym in 10 minutes so I'll catch you later" Nick laughed and began walking away. "I so do not Flirt with you" Sara called after him. Nick just smiled but he turned before he headed out the door and said "Sara for what it's worth whoever he was he was an idiot to turn you down".
Sara walked to her car thinking about Nick and what he had said, he was probably right but even if Grissom had said yes she'd begun to think it wasn't what she really wanted anyway. It seemed to her Grissom had been an infatuation rather than love which explained why her world hadn't come crashing down around her. As Sara climbed into her car she thought about Nick and how he had this ability to put her at ease and make her laugh, he made her feel good about herself, even when he was teasing her about flirting with him. He was easy to be around but there was something else there she just didn't know what yet. He was a really good friend the best.
As Sara turned on the engine she searched the radio for a decent station, finally she found one a song began to play, she hadn't heard this one before but it sounded nice.
Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light
As Sara listened to the song realization dawned on her, this was how Nick made her feel safe and like she had come home, she could be herself around Nick and he accepted her for who she was and he made her feel good, when she was with Nick she felt like she belonged.
If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
As the song ended Sara wondered does this mean I'm in love with Nick? She already knew the answer was yes, the feeling she thought she'd had for Grissom had been getting in the way of her realising her true feeling for Nick. Now the question was what to do about it. Tell him? He might not feel the same I mean I'm hardly his type and I don't know if I could take rejection from Nick. But if I don't tell him how do I live with it now I know.
TBC - What do you think should I continue or not? Reviews greatly appreciated! The song is Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk.
Sara Sidle sat on the bench in the locker room contemplating the events of the last few days, the explosion, her asking Grissom out to dinner and his rejection of her. Something about how she felt over Grissoms rejection was bugging her and had been since he turned her down. Why didn't she feel sadder that he said no? Sure she was upset that he'd turned her down like anyone was when someone they asked out said no it was kind of humiliating but that was all she felt stupid and humiliated not the sadness she should be feeling. She'd thought she was in love with Grissom thought he was the big love of her life but if she had been then why didn't she feel more crushed about the whole situation, shouldn't my whole world be falling apart by now she wondered?
Sara was so deep in thought that she didn't hear the locker room door open. "I thought I was in love with him," Sara whispered. "In love with who?" Sara gasped and looked up to see Nick standing in front of her, obviously he'd asked the question and was waiting on an answer. Sara just looked at him she didn't know what to say how could she tell Nick about Grissom he'd think she was mad. "No-one Nick it was nothing" Sara stuttered. "It's okay Sara you don't have to tell me" Nick smiled instantly making her at ease. Sara smiled back. "So Nick who's your hot date this weekend" Sara asked. "Well since you were busy I'm just gonna sit in" Nick replied laughing. "You see I'm just so in demand can't date all the good looking guys" Sara said smiling, then thought Oh my God did I just say that. "So you agree I am good looking then" Nick teased her. "Yea well don't let it go to your head Nick it's big enough already," Sara laughed. "So seriously Nick who are you going out with this weekend?" "No-one Sara quiet weekend at home, you know you shouldn't believe all you hear about me contrary to popular belief I don't have a new girl every week" Nick said. Was it just her imagination or did Nick actually look hurt that she might think that about him. "Nick relax you know me I don't gossip and I don't listen to it" Sara smiled. "Well as long as you know," Nick said looking her in the eye. "I know" She smiled up at him. "Well Sara much as I love you to flirt with me I gotta go meeting Warrick at the gym in 10 minutes so I'll catch you later" Nick laughed and began walking away. "I so do not Flirt with you" Sara called after him. Nick just smiled but he turned before he headed out the door and said "Sara for what it's worth whoever he was he was an idiot to turn you down".
Sara walked to her car thinking about Nick and what he had said, he was probably right but even if Grissom had said yes she'd begun to think it wasn't what she really wanted anyway. It seemed to her Grissom had been an infatuation rather than love which explained why her world hadn't come crashing down around her. As Sara climbed into her car she thought about Nick and how he had this ability to put her at ease and make her laugh, he made her feel good about herself, even when he was teasing her about flirting with him. He was easy to be around but there was something else there she just didn't know what yet. He was a really good friend the best.
As Sara turned on the engine she searched the radio for a decent station, finally she found one a song began to play, she hadn't heard this one before but it sounded nice.
Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light
As Sara listened to the song realization dawned on her, this was how Nick made her feel safe and like she had come home, she could be herself around Nick and he accepted her for who she was and he made her feel good, when she was with Nick she felt like she belonged.
If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
As the song ended Sara wondered does this mean I'm in love with Nick? She already knew the answer was yes, the feeling she thought she'd had for Grissom had been getting in the way of her realising her true feeling for Nick. Now the question was what to do about it. Tell him? He might not feel the same I mean I'm hardly his type and I don't know if I could take rejection from Nick. But if I don't tell him how do I live with it now I know.
TBC - What do you think should I continue or not? Reviews greatly appreciated! The song is Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk.