Hey guys, this is my first glee story but i had this idea in my head for long time. I hope you enjoy this first chapter i'll try to upload frequetly. I really enjoyed writing it. Hope you enjoy it too !

I do not own Glee !

Happy Readings (:

Chapter 1

"Life is the only art that we are required to practice without preparation, and without being allowed the preliminary trials, the failures and botches, that are essential for the training of a mere beginner. "

Rachel Berry. Who was this person anyway? Before today, I'd tell you she was this perfectionist who knew from the very beginning that one day you'd see her name shinning in the bright lights of New York. I'd tell you that she knew her life plan since the time she began talking, she was confident and very trustworthy and you might very well add sensible to that list. That other Rachel Berry, the one who got lost in the way from there to now, wouldn't ever find herself in this situation, because that other Rachel Berry knew how to make decisions and most definitely knew that underage drinking was inexcusable and out of the question.

So why am I here right now, looking at this pregnancy test, wondering how the hell I got myself in this situation and at the same time trying to figure out who this stranger is… I mean I'm not stupid, I remember that night very clearly. A very stupid Rachel who still couldn't get over her infatuation with one Finn Hudson, found herself going to one of those Jock parties. Yes, those parties with limitless amount of alcohol and idiotic teenagers with active hormones ready to take action. Everything was going well, I decided to wear a very short Gucci dress along with the highest pair of heels I had ever seen. I thought I was on cloud nine because people were looking at me differently, guys were doing double takes, people were being kind of nice to me ( if you can count not treating me like a freak than yeah) and Finn's jaw had very much dropped the moment he laid his eyes on me. I knew that he and Quinn were together, but I also knew it was a lie. He didn't love her, at least that's what my mind thought.

So I went. And I may have had a couple of beers…and vodka…and some other things. And Finn did too. Apparently Quinn was being a total bitch to him so he decided that he'd hang out with me for a while ( I mean seriously how pathetic can I get? The guy only comes to me when he fights with his cheerleader) . So the casual drunken hangout ended up in both of us having sex in the guest bedroom. I woke up in the middle of the night all alone and with a headache the size of America. I cried all day after that. not only did I give myself to him, but it was not supposed to be like that at all. So I decided that I'd move on with my life, move on from Finn and his fake golden boy personality. But I never knew that this would be right around the corner, I was too naïve…thinking that I'd be able to get out of unsafe sex completely unscarred.

One month had passed since that night, I tried my best in faking all the hurt I was feeling constantly putting on the best show face the school had ever seen. Finn went back to Quinn of course, and didn't even bother to say hi to me when I saw him in school. I got a text from him the next day apologizing and that we shouldn't have done it because he had a girlfriend and that it was best if we didn't talk to each other anymore. A text. I gave my virginity to him for crying out loud! So one month had passed with countless types of humiliation from the usual people, including Finn's poor excuse of a girlfriend and no contact with him whatsoever. So here I'm right now, 17 and pregnant from a guy that didn't even want to look at me in the face. So I cried, and cried…and cried. Hell, I think I cried a century worth of tears. What was I going to do? My fathers? My future? Glee? Life was about to change completely, and not exactly for the best.

After my internal battle in the morning deciding whether or not to come to school today and after throwing up every existent liquid in my body, I decided it would be best to at least try to live life normally for now, counting on the fact that soon everyone would know about my situation things would be far from normal. I've already thought about the telling Finn thing, but just for now I'd rather keep it to myself…I don't need more rejection from him than I already had.

So here I'm walking to the choir room towards glee after a very tedious day. People were looking at me weird, I'm assuming its not the pregnancy because they cant possibly know yet but maybe because I've stopped wearing knee socks and played skirts and animal sweaters all together. I know it might seem weird but discovering I'll be a mom has changed many things in me, and it just doesn't seem right for a mom to look like a school girl, I'm trying normal jeans and t-shirts for now.

"Rachel?" Came Kurt's voice from the chair behind me.

"Yes Kurt?"

" Is something wrong? I mean you haven't talked like your annoying self does since you walked in" I know I shouldn't feel offended by that but really you might as well blame it on the hormones, so I just counted till 10 and shrugged.

"And why are you wearing jeans? I thought your bad taste was unchangeable?" he is really starting to annoy me now. Kurt was not my friend and he made that very clear everyday by siding with people against me just to make my life a living hell.

" Its none of your business what I wear Kurt" I didn't mean to sound so snappy, but I just couldn't help it. And that's when Quinn bitch decided to speak.

" Hey man-hands, don't talk to him like that, what happened? You realized you're dying 40 and a virgin?" she should have known not to play with my very hormonal mouth. If only she knew…

By now mostly everyone except Finn were in the choir room watching as the seen unfolded. The fact that Quinn just called me a virgin when her actual boyfriend took mine…life is very ironic indeed.

"Quinn if I were you I'd keep your mouth shut" Rachel Berry is not taking crap from her any more. Oh no.

" What are you going to do Rupaul?" we were both facing each other in the middle of the choir room like two rivals in the arena. The popular cheerleader and the school freak, very cliché may I add.

" I don't know I might just go crazy and kill you"

"Listen up Man-hands, I'm tired of how much of a freak you are, honestly, don't you just realize that nobody likes you in this school, we all just endure you because we have to. And do I really have to go on about how pathetic you are going after my boyfriend? He would never want you, put that in your head" as much as I know how much that stung, I was about to answer to her when Finn decided to walk through the door with a slushy in his hand.

"Oh Finn, I was just telling Rachel how an amazing boyfriend you are, thank you for bringing me a slushy" and then she kissed him. Right in front of me, and I felt sick and humiliated and I really feel like I could throw up because they boy kissing the cheerleader in front of me is my baby's daddy. Everything was just wrong, and I'm tired of it.

" Quinn, why don't you just ask your amazing boyfriend how he cheated on you with me?" there. I said it. Everyone froze, including the Blondie. You couldn't hear a crack in the room and the tension was obviously almost tangible.

" Finn is that true? Please tell me this freak is just having another one of her psychotic delusions" everyone was facing finn now.

" I..Uhh..of course not Quinn, you're my girlfriend…I wouldn't cheat on you with Rachel" the whole time he said that he was looking at me, a look that was almost pained. But honestly I don't care if its painful for him to say that because he already said it and I feel like the tears are going to start at any second. And then there's that feeling in my stomach.

" of course you wouldn't, who would want a loser like Rachel? Now, to prove to everyone in the room that you're faithful to me, throw that slushy at Rupaul. Come on Finn, its all I'm asking and then we can go on normally with our lives. Because we love each other right?"

Would he do it? I'm sure that if Finn threw that slushy at me many things were going to change. I know that the baby has nothing to do with our relationship and that even hating me Finn would love this baby, I just wouldn't want my child to be raised by a insecure little boy like him. Before he decided to ignore me and go back to his girlfriend, he did say he loved me and we did have sex. So how can he act like it meant nothing to him right now?

"Uhh.. Quinn I don't think that'd be a good idea, I love you but you know I don't slushy people" he looked very uncomfortable with the whole situation.

" I don't care if you don't, just do it. I have to be able to trust you Finn, how is this relationship going to work if I have doubts that you're cheating on me with man-hands? I have to know you have no feelings for her, so come on, do it"

And suddenly, some players from the football team that were passing by the choir room noticed the commotion and decided to stay to watch. Next thing I know they started screaming "do it ! Do it ! Do it!"

I feel sick. Very sick. Not just the humiliation sick. All this fighting must not be good for the baby. So maybe I should run. But before I can even think about anything else, cold corn syrup is dripping everywhere in my shirt. And I cant see anything, I can just hear their booming laughter echoing through the choir room. And then I can just feel my tears. Tears for what Finn did to me. Tears for my unborn child. Tears for what's become of me. Just tears.

I looked at him right in the eye, and I can see sadness there, that only I could see because I truly knew Finn Hudson, and he only did it because of the damn reputation. Peer pressure. doesn't change the fact that he did it all the same.

"Well done baby, now I know you want nothing to do with treasure tail" she kissed him one more time. The glee kids were all quiet by now and the football players were gone. It was just me facing Finn and Quinn in the center of the room. I cant really find my voice at this point.

"Rachel?" came arties voice. " are you alright? Ignore them, you're better than that you know"

Artie has always been nice towards me, even when most of the glee kids were just rude. but I cant really answer him right now because all I can do is look at Finn in the eye and hate him for what he has done. And cry. I'm a mess.

"What's happening here, who did this to you Rachel?" great. Mr. Schue decides to only walk in now.

I still couldn't find my voice though, so Artie decided to answer for me.

"Finn did"

"Finn, why would you do this to your teammate? What's gotten in to you?

I really wanted to hear what he was about to say, but suddenly I was hit with a huge amount of pain in my stomach. so much pain. Oh my god. it's the baby. Oh my good. I'm losing it aren't I?

And the most surprising part of it was that it was Finn who came to my aid. he just humiliated me in front of everyone for crying out loud! If I wasnt in so much pain and so damn scared Im sure I would have told him to not touch me ever again.

"Rachel? Rachel? What's wrong? Rachel?"

Everyone was crowded around me now, but I couldn't talk. I just couldn't. the pain was becoming unbearable. And I'm sure I'm losing my baby and I don't know if I should tell him or not because this will change everything but then again I just don't care anymore. My life was a mess, what's a little bit more of it?

"T-Take me to the hosp-pital.. NOW. I'm pregnant. I'm losing my baby. Hospital. NOW. please!" that's all that left my lips. And it's all it took to make the glee club freeze. From the haze that were my eyes I could see Finn turn pale, but that really was the last thing I saw before everything just blacked out.

Hope you liked reading that.

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Love, Jane.