Disclaimer: Uhh….I don't own Teen Titans…but I wish I did….

A/N: Hi, my first teen titan fic…review please, flames are accepted here!! besides I need to know how am I doing so far... So hope you like it!!!

Chapter One: Without Me in the Picture….

"I can't believe were going to the park" Raven said bitterly as she got in the T-car with her I-don't-really-wanna-so-go-don't-force-me tone. "Don't worry Raven, It'll be fun" Robin replied. "Joy…" she said, sarcastically.

"Friend Raven, do not be such a killer of the joy" Star said to her as she sat next to her.

Raven scoffed killer of the joy, ha!, "Actually, I think I do…"

"Ignore her…sooner or later she will be eating her words" Cyborg said, smiling slyly to Star.

"What you planning Cyborg?" Raven sneered at Cyborg.

"Dude!! Will you drive already?!?! I'm starving and you'd better have some tofu in that basket!!" Beast Boy said, getting impatient.

"I love picnics" Star exclaimed as she hopped out of the car.

"Let's go find a spot near the lake..." Robin suggested.

"Great idea, dog" Cyborg agreed.

"Can we eat now?? Can we eat now??" Beast boy said, repeatedly.

They followed Star which was now practically hopping to the lake leaving Raven alone by the T- car.

Raven groaned…this was definitely not her day… why can't they just eat lunch at the tower and leave her alone.

"Hey…" she heard a familiar voice behind her, this voice…her inside practically jumped, exactly the person she wanted to be with…

"Speedy…" she murmured as she turned around and smiled at him, as both of them hugged.

Cyborg, Beast boy and Robin was eating their lunch while Starfire curiously dipped her head in the lake to "get a better view" of the fishes.

"Looks, like Raven's having fun…" Cyborg commented as he spotted Raven with Speedy approaching them, he gestured towards Raven and Speedy with his head, Robin and Beast boy looked at them. Robin's insides squirmed, "Lucky Bastard.." he uttered under his breath. Unfortunately, Beast boy had heard him. Robin hated the fact Speedy had got to Raven first, just coincidentally after he broke up with Star. Both of them were very competitive, when it comes to video games, their gadgets and moves...But Speedy had someone that Robin knew that he couldn't have the guts to have and that was…….Raven.

"Dude? What did you just say???" Beast boy asked "I need some more mustard!!" Robin quickly said, pointing to his hotdog bun heating up with embarrassment. Cyborg and Beast Boy glanced at each other uneasily. "Okay, Rob but you don't have to too hot about it" Cyborg said, handing him the mustard. "Thanks"

Robin watched Raven and Speedy cuddle each other by the lake, he felt really pissed just by watching them, "How did Speedy know we were in the park??" Robin asked Cyborg. "Well, I called him, I couldn't stand Raven be so…so left alone…so I invited Speedy. He's usually the one who makes Raven so happy" Cyborg explained. "Just look at her, Rob, I've hadn't seen her so happy ever since they met…you know" Robin knew that Cyborg is like really Raven's big brother and he's really concerned about her. But every time, he saw Raven with another guy, he felt so angry and the same time so full of regret. Raven was always special to him, she was his best friend, she knew about his past and his secrets and she was the one who understood him. Robin felt really happy when they got closer as friends but when Speedy came into the picture, he felt so held back with being close to Raven, and she was too preoccupied with Speedy.

"Robin, let us borrow a boat and watch the swimming worms!!" Starfire said to him, grabbing his wrist, dragging to the boat rental shack. Robin mouthed at Beast Boy, help me. "Can I come??" Beast boy begged. "Sure, the more of it the better" Starfire turned to Cyborg. "Do you want to come too, Friend Cyborg??"

"Forget Cyborg, that tin man could sink the boat" Beast boy jeered. "Yeah, I could, I'll just take a nap" Cyborg said and laced his hands on his head, leaned on a tree.

"Look at that." Speedy gestured his head on a Raven (the bird) sitting by the tree, Cyborg had been lying beneath on. "You know, Ravens are supposed to be bad omens of death" he said to her, tucking her violet hair under her ear. She smirked at him. "It depends…" "On what??" he asked. "how you look at them, maybe you think they're bad omens because you're so superstitious, well, you see a raven and I see a raven, we're not dead are we??"

"No…" he said, sheepishly. "Roy, you wouldn't be able to answer that if you're dying" she said, in her monotone voice. Speedy stared into her amethyst eyes, no girl, could be ever more beautiful, he held her chin up with his hand and kissed her softly, passionately. When they finally broke off from their kiss which seem that lasted forever, Raven smiled at him.

"Nothing beats a first kiss…" he said to her. She chuckled, he gently caressed her cheek with his fingers, "I love making you smile" he said to her as he kissed her again.

"Huh??? Wha—" Cyborg muttered as the quickly woke up from his sleep. "Man, how long was I sleeping??" he asked Raven and Speedy.

"Like about an hour…I guess?" Speedy answered. "It's 4pm…Raven say goodbye to your man coz' we're about to go" Cyborg said. Raven looked at Speedy,she didn't want to go, "Big Brother calls" Speedy smiled, "It's not like we aren't going to see each other again", he kissed her one more time, "See You"

Robin and Star were soaked and so was Beast Boy. They looked like they had a worst time. They climbed out of the lake, shivering madly.

"What happened to you guys?" Raven asked.

"oh, we were unintentionally swimming, A frog jumped on our boat,Star freaked out and she blasted holes on the boat, practically sinking us"Beast Boy said, staring bitterly at Star.

Raven approached Star, "Is Friend Beast Boy mad at me???" Star asked her miserably. "No, Star, he just needs to cool off…"

After comforting Star, Raven headed to the roof to meditate. "I thought you were going to be here" Raven found Robin sitting on her usual spot. "What're you doing here?" she asked. He shrugged, "I came here to enjoy the view."

She smiled, "Do we all? I love this place…" she sat down next to him.

"So peaceful…" Both of them said. Both of them smiled awkwardly at each other, "So, how is your afternoon with Star? You should tell me all about it; we haven't talked in a while since you know…" Raven started to blush, "Speedy"

"Yeah…I guess" Robin agreed, with his fake smile. Come on, Robin, talk about something… "I guess, my afternoon with Star was fine…But I've had my eyes on another girl for awhile…" He said to her, Raven didn't really know that Robin was referring to her was really HER. She smiled slyly, "Riiiight…But I still think you and Star would go well together…Why did you guys break up??"

"I think the two of us needed some time to think...besides Star was a little withdrawn from me a few months"Robin shrugged as he stared to the dramatic sunset view

"Tell me when you two get back together, it's like you and her were destined for each other"

"You know it's funny, it feels like we're not" Robin replied. Robin stared at Raven, she stopped talking and had begun meditating. He leaned, his arms supporting his weight and stared at Raven, she looks so beautiful, her black leotard was tight around her, showing her voluptuous curves, she smelled like a bouquet full of jasmines and lavender and how the wind blew her hair...Oh God, Rae, I don't know why I'm falling for you, because I really can't help it and I'm trying to stop it...Your're so happy with Speedy and your my best friend and I can't the fact is that I'm beginning to want you more and more for myself everyday... and the more I know that it's impossible to have her the more I crave for her to wrap her arms around me, making me feel that I am the one who she could trust and could find solace in. I care for her, I don't want her to be upset even when it hurts deep down...