Title: Dear Mulder

Author: Dana_Maru

Summary: A letter from Scully to Mulder, when he is abducted.

Disclaimer: Sadly, Mulder and Scully do not belong to me (nor do Skinner and Doggett) but to the talented Chris Carter...if I did they would have been together long ago!

Dear Mulder,

You were taken from me only two days ago, like I was once taken from you. Skinner and I have been warned not to mention the word 'Alien' in the presence of the man who leads your search - Special Agent John Doggett. But how can I keep quiet when he implies that you have staged your disappearance and gone one step further to find 'your truth'. Doggett won't believe; he is way too skeptical, more so than I was when we first met. He is completely unwilling to believe anything to do with the paranormal. He refuses to believe what you - what we believe - every single thing.

No one listens to us when we try to explain that they will not find you the way they are trying. They went on a hunt for Gibson yesterday and they found you. But it wasn't you, Mulder, and only Skinner will listen to me when I say so. Doggett looked at me like he though I had gone nuts when I told him it wasn't you.

I know it wasn't you, it can't have been, not if you had fallen of a cliff so high and lived to tell the tale. I know we have encountered someone who could fall from such a height and walk away but you aren't so lucky. I mean, if you were those Bounty Hunter bastards would never have taken you and subjected you to tests worse than my own. I know of these tests because of my dreams. But they're not just dreams, are they? They come from a connection between us - one that I am finding difficult to cope with. I can't stand to have these visions of you with all the metal things in your skin, in your handsome face.

Doggett is trying to tell me that I don't know you at all. But I think that sometimes I know you better than you know yourself as you probably know me. And I know that the only reason you didn't tell me of your illness is because you didn't want me to worry. But finding out about it second-hand hurts, Mulder, it really does. Especially when I see Doggett giving a smug smirk as if to say 'I told you so'. Why couldn't you just have told me? I know I would have been worried sick, but it would have been a bit better than the surprise arrival of the tombstone with your newly added name. You can't die on me, Mulder, you just can't! I couldn't cope on my own, without you in my life. Hell, I'm finding it hard enough, no matter how hard I try to make myself believe that you'll be okay and you'll come back to me soon.

There is something I didn't get the chance to tell you - you had gone before I knew myself. Skinner is the only one I've told; I haven't even let my mom know yet. I'm pregnant. I'm finding it hard explaining it or even believing it, myself, but it's true. I'm afraid, Mulder, I'm afraid of the questions in my mind. How can I be carrying a child when I am supposed to be barren?

I am writing this letter to you, knowing that I will never let you read it if - no when you return. I just wish I could be certain that you will be returned to me. It hasn't been long but I miss you Mulder. I miss walking into our dingy basement office and seeing you sit at your desk. I miss the way you laugh and I miss your crazy theories. I miss seeing the empty sunflower seed shells scattered on your desk. I miss everything about you, Mulder.

With all my love forever,

Scully xxx

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I have absolutely no idea why I decided to write this, I suppose that watching 'Within' may have had something to do with it. Anyways, let me know what you think.

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