Author's Note: I want to thank everyone that read/reviewed/favorited/followed my Dear Willow story! The Other Side Of Sanity requested a sequel so here it is! I know this one is a lot shorter than the first one, but it was really all I could come up with. Because to tell you the truth, I really don't know how Willow feels about everything. And, I don't even know if Jerome still has feelings for Willow, but I still have faith in them. Willome forever! :)
Dear Jerome,
I could say that when I read your letter I broke down in tears. But, I didn't. I could say that I felt bad for you. But, I didn't. You were right when you said you didn't deserve to be forgiven. You broke my heart Jerome. And, I broke yours. I guess it would be childish of me to say that we're even. And, I guess it would be silly to say that I thought you were "the one". But, I did think that at one point. I used to believe in soul-mates. But, after we started going out I realized that you were not my soul-mate. You weren't as weird as me. You weren't as upbeat as me. But, I thought that was okay because I loved you. I thought it didn't matter if we were soul-mates, I thought it only mattered if we loved each other.
I guess I never got to tell you I loved you either. But, I'm telling you now. I loved you Jerome. And, as stupid as it may be, I still love you. I wished I didn't because I would never go out with you again. You cheated on me and if we got back together who's to say you wouldn't do it again? I'm trying not to love you. I really am. That's why I'm with Alfie. And, if it makes you feel any better, I don't love him. It's wrong of me, I know, to be doing this to him, but I don't know what else I can do. I'm not trying to please you by saying all this. I'm not just saying this because I want you, and even though I do want you, I'm saying this because it's the truth.
I don't even know why I'm writing this because I made a pact with Mara that I wouldn't let you get to me ever again. But, I guess I broke the pact then, yeah?
And, the worst part is; I forgive you. I forgive you for the crap you put me through. Because I love you. And, I don't hate you. I should and I wish I did, but I don't.
I will never forget what you did to me, Jerome. I want you to remember that. I want, for the rest of your life, to remember what you did to me. Remember that you crushed everything, crushed our chances of having a furture together.
But, I guess you've already fallen for Joy now. As much as I hate to admit it, it's true, I'm jealous. Jealous that you've already found someone else. Jealous that we will never be together again. And, I think about you. A lot. You plague my dreams at night. Dreams of what could've been. And, I guess that is all you'll ever be. What could've been. I know it's wrong to think of you the way I do. I know it's wrong to have the dreams I dream.
And, I'll tell you a secret Jerome. You were my first love. My first kiss even. My first crush, if you must. You were my everything. And, excuse for my language here, but you fucked everything up.
I guess this is sorta a goodbye letter. So, I can maybe get a little closure of some sort. And, I hope in time, my feelings for you will subside. So, far they haven't. I don't know if my feelings for you, Jerome, will ever go away. Because like I said, you were my everything.
Goodbye Jerome.
Forever and Always,
Willow Jenks
