Silent Night

Authors note: a song fic, set in the future, from the point of view of William Adama. Lyrics are from Damien Rice's Silent night.

Disclaimer: not mine, never will be, I'm just playing.

Silent night, broken night

They came. And they broke. They broke life it's self. The Cylons. Cancer.

All is fallen when you take your flight

I wanted to fight. You wanted to run. You didn't want to fight anyone, Not the Cylons, Not the cancer, Not me. But you always stayed until there seemed to be no hope.

I found some hate for you

Screaming at you. Telling you you had to stay. You couldn't run away from a good war, You couldn't run away from life, You couldn't die on me.

Just for show

Inside I was broken. I'd come to love you. As a president, and a friend, confidant, lover. But I had to look strong. For you.

You found some love for me

Thinking I'd go

You tried to put make up on, Get out of bed, You were telling me to leave; it would be better in the long run. You thought I wouldn't be able to cope with a dying wife.

Don't keep me from crying to sleep

I needed cope. I needed to see your pain. So that when you died, I would be happy that you were peaceful.

Sleep in heavenly peace

"Lords of Kobol hear my prayer, Take the souls of thine sons and daughters lost in these years. Especially that of Laura Roslin, into thy hands."

Silent night, moonlit night

It's prayer that I say every night. So that you will be safe.

Nothing's changed

The universe keeps on turning, The fleet keeps on moving, with a new president at the helm.

Nothing is right

You're gone. You're not by my side, disagreeing with my military ways, or telling me to eat and sleep properly. Everything is different.

I should be stronger than weeping alone

But I'm not, I'm the leader of this fleet, and I cry, every night alone. Lee doesn't know. He never will. I've got to look strong. Even if I'm not.

You should be weaker than sending me home

I wanted to die with you. You knew I couldn't, you knew people needed me. You should have begged me to be with you for eternity. But you're better than that.

I can't stop you fighting to sleep

I had to let you sleep. You were so tired. Tired of fighting.

Sleep in heavenly peace

"With a heavy heart, I lift her body up to you, o Lords of Kobol."