A/N: angst warning.

i.

Dear Finn,

If you're reading this, then I've officially become Rachel Hudson-Berry.

We're married, Finn! Can you believe it? You're my husband, I'm your wife, and we're going to be together for the rest of our lives, and I'm going to make you so happy.

I promise.

I know you're laughing as you read this, because that's what you always do. And I'm probably beside you right now, blushing, because that's what I always do when you laugh at me. You can be mean, you know. But it's okay, because I love you anyway.

I wonder where we are. Are we in bed? Or somewhere else? That doesn't matter. Nothing matters as long as I'm with you. Because love is all you need, and between the two of us, we have all the love in the world.

I love you, Finn Hudson. Forever. I just wanted you to know that.

xoxo,

Rachel Hudson ;)

ii.

Dear Finn,

Where are you?

I wish you would call, or even text, just to tell me that you're okay. I worry about you. Kurt says that you're fine. That maybe the army doesn't allow phone calls or mobile phones.

But I miss your voice, and your face, and everything about you, and I wish you would call.

xoxo,

Rachel

iii.

Dear Finn,

I changed my Facebook status today. I'm in a relationship now. With Brody. My boyfriend, Brody. Sometimes when I introduce him, I have to catch myself before I say your name out loud.

Stupid, right?

Kurt tells me that you're happy. He said that you're really happy there, and Tina tells me that you're better than Mr. Schue, she says that you listen. I'm glad, you know. I'm really happy for you. Really.

You're in Lima and you're happy, and I'm with Brody.

But sometimes I wish that you could have been happy with me.

Stupid, right?

xoxo,

Rachel Berry

iv.

Dear Finn,

I wish you had never put me on that train to New York. I wish I had never gotten on it. I wish you had stayed here when you came. I wish I never left Lima that night. I wish we could go back and do it, get married and stayed in Lima for a year so that you can find your dream, before coming here for mine. Just like we planned, right? We're endgame, right?

We're meant to be together. You told me that, and I believed you, with all of my heart.

I wish you'd never taken me to that train station.

Because maybe then you'll still be here. Maybe then, we can be happy.

Is this my punishment, for wanting too much? Is this my punishment for wanting everything? Because all I want is you. Just you just you just you.

Dear Finn, please come back.

v.

Dear Finn,

You're always going to be the one I love the most.

xoxo,

Rachel Berry.

xxx

Dear Finn Hudson,

Welcome to New Directions! As you well know, my name is Rachel Barbra Berry, future Broadway star, and also glee's charismatic female lead.

This is just a little email to welcome you to the club. I notice that your voice, although wonderfully raw with talent, could use a little more professional training. I am more than happy to provide you with vocal lessons. We sound perfect together, don't you think? Mr. Schuester definitely found the perfect male counterpart for me.

Again, welcome to New Directions, Finn!

We're going to have a lot of fun together.

xoxo,

Rachel Barbra Berry *