Dear Diary,

I was naïve and stupid. Really Stupid. I know that I made a mistake, but I had to forget about that and focus my attention on what the mistake led to. A baby. I mean sure that baby wasn't going to be here for awhile, but I had to get prepared. I only had three months. Even though I'm trying to forget I can't help but think. I mean he was ay experienced. He was the kind of guy that should automatically know to use protection. Yet with me, Amy Jeurgens, he didn't. I mean he slept with every girl at school. I was just another one to add to the list. I fell for him. He doesn't know that and if I have it my way he won't - ever. I mean falling for him was a mistake. It got me knocked up. I know it just ain't his fault that I should let him take responsibility, but I just can't take the risk of him leaving me. I have Ben now. He loves me and this baby despite the fact that Ricky's the father. And I love having him around but….

-Amy

She stopped reading what she had wrote, wiped a single tear that was running down her cheek, closed her diary, and put it in her drawer. She got up to look at her growing figure when there was a knock at her door.

"Can I come in?" Ashley said.

"It better be important." Amy said.

Ashley walked in, shutting the door behind her.

"Ricky is here." Ashley said.

"What does he want?" She asked hatefully.

"I don't know. Mom's going to get the door."

"Oh. I wi wish he woulddd jus t drop off the fff ace of the earth."

"Amy, I'm your sister I know when your lying you stutter remember?"

"I have no idea what your talking about."

Ashley goes to open the door but before she does she says, "Just face it Amy, you like or maybe even love Ricky you just don't want him to leave and hurt you again so you pretend like you don't care." She opens the door and there stands Ricky about to know on the door smirking.

"Did you hear that?" Ashley asked.

"Hear what? That your sister likes or loves me but is scared I'll leave her again so she won't admit it?"

"Ashley's 13. She has no iiidea whhat she talkkkking abbbbooouuuttttt." Amy stuttered.

"Yeah. I have no idea what I'm talking about." Ashley said.

"Okay. Whatever. I need to talk to you Amy. Alone." Ricky said.

Ashley left.

"Is your sister right?' Ricky asked after a few moments of awkward silence.

"Of coouuurrrrssseee," Amy paused. Ricky smirked, "She isn't." The smirk went away.

"But anyway what do you want Ricky?"

"I need to talk. We need to talk. I know you probably don't want to and you blame me for all of this and you have to take some responsibility too. You were different from all the others Amy."

She stared at him for about five seconds and said, "And how was that by not using a condom?"

"Uh.. No. You weren't a slut." She stared at him as of he was calling her a slut now. "You still aren't a slut."

He leaned in and tried to kiss her, she pulled way.

"I have Ben." She said.

"But do you love him?"

She bit her lip.

"That's what I thought. You love having him around."

"Don't tell anyone. I'm trying to love him."

"I won't." He said as he was trying to kiss her.

"I I can't do this!!" She screamed.

"Okay I understand, but if you need anything here's my number call anytime day or night."

"I'll try."

She layed down on her bed and fell into a deep sleeping having dreams about what happened at band camp.

A/N: This was my first fanfic, so I hope you liked it. If you did please leave me a review saying what you think. Please and thank you!