New fanfic......Yay? Sorry. I write very depressing stories. I'm just not that cut out for a good happy story. I'm not really surprised that I am not a popular writer.....*huddles in corner*
I'm sure that a bunch of people have read a story like this. Its seems kinda my style'ish of writing, tell me how this turns out...(*mumbles* terribly) This might be partially a songfic...
Italic is for thoughts.
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~*~*~*Mikan's POV~*~*~*
I walk into my classroom for another glorious day. Wait, wha? I mean a day full of my lies. Its just another facade of many things. My personality, face, smile.....all lies. I feel my mask cracking under the weight of this insane pressure of being an idiot.
I do my daily idiotic stuff, such as trying to hug the ice queen, Hotaru. Like every morning I get hit with her Baka gun and go to my desk crying FAKE chibi tears.
I felt myself tearing itself apart with this fake crap I've been doing.....I can't take much more of this...
'Should I truly call these people my friends?' I thought as I sat down.
"Ohayo, Natsume!," I practically yelled in my usual happy way at Natsume. And as usual he ignored me.
I waved at Ruka, and he waved back. The one person to actually acknowledge me today. About time.....But then again, he is the only one that actually does say 'Hi' to me in the mornings or wave at me in this case..
Crack.....my mask is falling apart....shit.
I kept my grin in place. And our teacher stood up.
'Oh, lucky me, we have Jin-jin today..' I thought aimlessly.
I hoped that my temper didn't get the best of me. I stiffened as he called on me answer a question.
"Sakura! Tell me the answer to this question!," he yelled as he rapped the board roughly with his carry-around-24/7-stick. His frog croaked as it had a goofy grin on it's face. Much like my fake one.
I knew the answer, but I'm SUPPOSED to be a bumbling idiot with no common sense sooo...
"Umm, uhh, 633 = Z?," I said as stupidly as I could manage.
"Idiot! That's a detention for you Sakura! I don't know who could be so stupid in this entire world!," He yelled.
CRACK.......Ouch....don't break on me now mask...
I tried to look as glum as possible for missing a simple question.
"You should be knocked back into a remedial class, or better yet a preschool class!," Jin-jin continued to yell.
CRACK.....you pushing it, you fucking old bastard....
I felt my mouth twitch into a grimace, or a snarl...
I took a swift glance at Hotaru. I felt like tearing her eyes out as I saw her ignoring the entire thing searching for something. She almost smiled when it seemed like she had found what she was searching for. She didn't care.....
"Honestly! I don't even see how you got into this academy! Your completely worthless-," he went on but I didn't hear the rest.
I ran out of the room, fuming. I ran straight into the northern woods. I didn't care that I was in a deep forest lost. I ran to my favorite spot and sat there. I wondered should I let go of the tears that threatened to spill....
I wasn't about to cry because of a detention, far from it. I'd recieved many detention on many different occasions. No, this time it was because I was ignored, nobody ever stood up with me or for me, not even Hotaru. I felt so alone. My mask was crumbling slowly, I could feel it. My mask of feelings...
~*~*~*Hotaru's POV~*~*~*
I looked up from my invention in front of me as I heard Jinno start to insult Mikan. This was a daily process of course but that doesn't mean I can't get a bit angry over it.
I felt my temper rising rapidly and I casually leaned over to search for any heavy gun or weapon I could use to injure Jinno without hid knowing.
I felt my face brighten slightly as I found my latest model o my baka gun. Only difference with this baka gun is that it also fires at people I hate or want to hurt at the present time. Also whats better is that it also doesn't make the "Baka" sound. Silent and smooth.
Just as I was about to silently shoot the gun at full power when suddenly I heard loud footsteps get up angrily.
I turned to see Mikan with a face that was purely pissed off. She ran out of the room, almost like she wanted to leave forever...
'What just happened? Mikan......' I thought as Mikan stormed out of the room on the verge of tears.
I blinked a few times and had a urge to find her. I wanted to comfort her, but that was never much of my strongpoint and I wondered whether to actually do it.
I sat there, doing nothing. My urge to help Mikan doubled with each and every passing second. I couldn't just sit here right? My best friend is suffering and I am not doing anything to help her?
I lept to my feet after that thought. I couldn't help it anymore. I felt worse when I remembered I had wasted so much time. I glanced at my watch.
'Damn it! Its already been 10 minutes!' I thought.
"Imai, please sit down while I teach class," Jinno snapped.
'Shut up! Your a fucking terrible teacher, your supposed to help your students, bastard!' I thought loudly. Funny thing is, is that the first sentence slipped quite loudly.
Thank god only Koko heard the last part, because as I ran out the door to search for Mikan I saw his smile gone and his eyes wide.
"Imai-san! I'll come with you!," I heard a male voice say. I didn't say anything, it was abvious it was Ruka. Oddly enought behind him I saw out of the corner of my eye I saw Natsume. He had a normal unsmiling face, but his eyes had an odd glimmer. Worry?
~*~*~*Ruka's POV~*~*~*
My mind flared as Jinno insulted Sakura-san in front of the entire class. I made a mental note that I would ACCIDENTLY put a lion in his room tonight.
I tried not to snap a rude comment at Jinno. It was more difficult that expected.
Usagi's ears were down at the sides of her head. She was glaring at Jinno too, that made me a bit happier.
I wonder if I could convince Jinno's pet frog to take a piss on his head....
I clenched the desk's side to keep from jumping up and sending a flock of eagles over through the open window at Jinno...I saw Koko take a quick glance at me, smiling a large goofy smile.
Just then Mikan lept up from her desk and ran at the door, on the verge of tears. Ok, now I admit, I honestly WILLput a lion in Jinno's bedroom tonight.....
I sat there, not doing anything. My mind just went blank. My mouth dropped ever so slightly. I don't know how long I sat like that...until Imai suddenly screeched.
"SHUT UP!!!," Imai screeched through Jinno's lecture.
She bolted for the door, not to run away, but obviously to search for Mikan. I ran after her without thinking.
"Imai-san! I'll come with you!," I yelled. I noticed Natsume get up to follow me.
~*~*~*Natsume's POV~*~*~*
I twitched slightly as Jinno's string of insults began. Hmm.....maybe setting someone's hair on fire other than Mikan's might be fun. I really wanted to, ok, fine, almostwanted to murder Jinno.
But then again, why should I worry about Polka? She is just an idiot.
I felt myself getting angrier by the second as Jinno kept going on about her idiocy and worthlessness....
Mikan isn't worthless!!! If you say another insult bastard I swear I will light that frog on fire later! Dammit!
I felt my jaw clench as another insult was thrown...bye bye froggy....
I looked up slightly as Polka came running towards the door. My face changed to slight worry as she ran by, almost crying. I was about to run after her, before my thoughts stopped me.
"What the hell do you think your doing? You'll be the laughing stock if you follow her! You are Natsume after all!" a voice in my head screamed.
'Shut up! This is Polka! She is a friend that I need to help! I can't just leave her crying somewhere!' I responded to the annoying voice.
"Idiot, think of you reputation, what do you think will happen to it?," the voice snapped.
'Screw my fucking reputation! I don't care!,' I yelled at the voice.
"To give you more of a reason why you shouldn't go after her is that what do you think will happen if Persona finds out that you like a girl? What do think will happen to her?," the voice said slowly.
'Persona......that bastard, he wouldn't try it would he? And I don't like her! She is just a friend!," I growled at the voice.
"Yeah, just keep telling yourself that, meanwhile I'll be leaving," the voice said as it drifted away.
I felt my face relax a bit as I wondered about to go find her or not. At the moment Imai yelled something out at Jinno and ran towards the door. I was about to follow her when Ruka followed her quicker that I did.
I just hope she is okay. If she is hurt I will honestly kill Jinno.
~*~*~*Back to Mikan~*~*~*
I know. I'll finally take off my mask. This is what is best. If I keep hiding my true nature I'll break under the pressure of keeping it up. From now on...my mask will be broken....Torn off and shattered. I could barely keep up the facade for a year, but this is the end of it, I'll let go of te fragments of my old self.
Why should I care for 'friends' that don't care for me? Why bother with people like at? This is where I'll break my ties. I just can't take anymore of this pain and suffering. It will be easier to just be my cold, emotionless self. Less of a strain on this withering body. But then again, what should I expect when I have the lifespan shortening type?
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Sooo.....it wasn't terrible was it? I know there are bound to be a nice amount of typos in this. Please review if you can and tell me what you think. Perferably good things to keep my hopes up but there are sure to be people out there telling me this was their idea....No, I have already read a nice amount of fanfictions with pretty much the same plot.
Here is a little secret, the more reviews I get from different people the more likely I'll post the second shapter faster. I'm easily motivated and un-motivated. What you do will affect what I do to this fanfiction. Sorry to pressure you like that, but its the truth.
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