Chapter one
"Never again"
"Come on, it wasn't that bad." Isabelle joked with a light smirk on her face whilst throwing her athletic body on to my bed. I was small and cute whereas she was all legs and height. Simon should be thanking the stars for her picking him. Oh angel Raziel as if double dating wasn't bad enough Isabelle had brought someone who I clearly had no interest in - a random Shadowhunter friend clearly only there for the free publicity. It was awkward and the group looked mismatched. The guy was a creep who knew too much about flirting and playing footsie under the table. Nobody could replace … or fill the hole in my heart he left.
"It got you out of the house, didn't it? Move on Clary. It's time to have some fun after what happened with …"
"Jace is his damn name. Don't you get it? We loved each other for what seemed like forever and that doesn't go away easily"
"Well it did in his case" She simply didn't get it. How was she supposed to understand how I was feeling? She had safe, sweet Simon and they were perfect. No destruction, pain or heartbreak. Why was I going all green eye monster – I am not attracted to those geekly sweet guys (so cliché but isn't everything by now), I wanted more than a safe guarantee and found Jace Lightwood. People were wrong: the stars did not shine upon Morgenstern it shone on Jace and our love radiated like the sun bringing destruction to Valentine and Sebastian. I can't believe I just thought 0f it like that. It sounds so corny and straight out of Magnus' mouth.
"Look I'm just stress about the runes. Are your sure about it?" I can't believe we were going to do this, just like many had already done. Just another rite of passage for us shadowhunters. Just another thing cementing my transition from mundane to demon killer. Through all of this I had found me and who Clarissa Fairchild really was. Lies, lies and yet more lies (Thanks Valentine and mom) had led to the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Sound likes a politician's motivational speech. "Breathe would you? It's just a natural process. Alec did it." She used a sophisticated, persuasive voice like that was all she needed to sell her point
"Listen here. A- It is not a natural process that's the water cycle. We inflict this upon ourselves without ever knowing what the future may hold for us. B- Look how this worked out for Alec he sooo happy about his experience."
"That's kind of the point of this is that you are jumping into the unknown with that one person you trust as much as yourself. Also keep your voice down what if he hears you, he'll go mental. You know he hasn't coped with this as well as other has. God Jace, you really screwed us over."
"It's time for us to go to the institute, grab your stuff and go. Don't forget the stele."
"Wouldn't dream of it"
"We cannot be late to this ceremony. Have you got the red gear otherwise we'll be dead meat, darling"
"Call me it again and forget the silent brothers – I will mark you myself!"
"You kid of course."
"Clarissa Adele Fairchild you know me so well so will you do me the honour of being my Parabatai"
"Why not?"