Hey! Well, this is my first fanfiction. I'd like to ask you to guide me through your reviews. This is basically a Jacob / Bella story. Bella finally sees that Jacob is the one for her. But imprinting will be on their way. How will they deal with it?It's not a regular imprinting story, I can tell you that (that's what my reviewers said to me on chapter 8). Give it a chance.

There'll be just a little bit of Bella/Edward at the beginning, just because I didn't want to rush things too much. Bella wouldn't notice how perfect Jacob is towards her until she almost let him go. She can be really dense.

I really need a beta reader. My native language is not English, but I chose to write in English so I could practice. Please, forgive me if I use some strange expressions (sometimes I use expressions that are usual at Portuguese andI don't notice it) or if I make grammar mistakes, like using the wrong prepositions. Well, I hope you all enjoy this. I made a prologue, but I don't think it's good enough…so I'll rewrite it…

I hope you enjoy it! Let me know!

1– Welcome back, my love

The flight back from Florence was restless. Edward kept kissing the top of my head, my hair, my cheeks in attempt to calm me down, but I kept clinging my hands to his shirt. I was scared that if I closed my eyes, he would vanish. It would be cruelest nightmare I had ever had.

I also avoided sleeping because I knew I'd have nightmares if I did. The screams, the red eyes, the hunger they showed. It was beyond everything I imagined. I looked over Alice's and Edward's peaceful faces and wondered if they could even be considered the same species. Of course they were, but the difference was atrocious. Even though the Volturi were, in a general way, considering they're vampires, well-mannered, somehow civilized, the cruelty behind those eyes haunted me. Would the crazed lust for human blood last in me after the initial years? How much of me would be lost to the change?

I won the fight against my heavy eyelids. When we arrived, all the Cullens were waiting for us. Esme and Carlisle thanked me for saving their son. Rosalie was sorry about her part in all this mess, In her own way. Alice looked at me as if I was a freaking heroin, however, how could I have left him to die? Edward was my life too. I couldn't imagine a world without his crooked smile and his immense beauty.

Edward was anxious. I didn't have to be an empath like Jasper to feel that. I was a wreck. Besides the lack of sleeping, I was waiting him to tell me that I wasn't enough to him. I was already feeling the pain all over again. My eyelids were winning the battle over my willpower. It had been practically 36 hours since the last time I let my body succumb to the slumber. Right then, he stopped the car in the road abruptly.

Suddenly, I felt like I was having the best dream I had in the last eight months. Could he be real? Did I sleep and dreamed about the vampire mafia, dark tunnels, that evil little girl? Oh god… Did I die? Did I drown? What did I do? All the last events were jumbled in my head, and his intoxicating presence did nothing to help, creating a heavy cloud of haze in front of my eyes.

Although he couldn't read my mind, I bet he saw perplexity written on my face.

"What's bothering you, Bella?" I kept my eyes focused on reading his lips, not trusting my ears when I heard my name being said by his velvety voice.

"I'm trying to wake up… but I can't… Am I dreaming?" I asked a little befuddled.

He chuckled. "I understand that what I did to you is unacceptable. Is it true that there aren't any good memories of me in there, none at all and for that I look like a nightmare?" He asked in an amused tone, his crooked smile begging my hands to reach out to touch it.

"Nightmare? I had the worst nightmares in the last months. This is nothing like that…no one is leaving me, no one is in danger… and you are…are you really here?" Having him there really messed up with all my coherent thoughts. His marble skin felt as cold as I remembered, but my memory did no justice to his dazzling beauty.

"Yes, I am. And if you accept me back, I'll be here forever. I'm deeply sorry. I feel like an idiot. I thought that I was putting you in danger… but Victoria…well…you're a magnet … I lied terribly when I said I didn't love you, when I said you weren't enough for me. How could you believe that Bella? How could you have so little faith in my love for you? I'm the one who's not enough for you! But I'm selfish … I need to be with you… I was losing my mind. I was lost without you. I can't even think about existing in a world that you're not in…" He ranted boring his topaz eyes on mine mundane brown orbs with such intensity that made me shiver. His words were everything I needed, everything I wanted, still, the wound he inflected on me wasn't healed. Every second that passed, I was waiting to see him vanish again. Only his ice cold hold on my hands convinced me, at least temporarily, that he was there.

"Edward, don't you ever dare doing anything like that again! Do you hear me? Do you have any idea how you made me feel? And what about your family? Did you even think about that? You're right Edward. You're selfish." I felt the anger building inside of me. He left me, he hurt me. But not only me. He hurt the most kind and loving creatures I've ever met. But really, who was I kidding? If there was one of us who was selfish, that would be , with not doubts, me. I wanted him, wanted all of him. At the expense of the happiness of others, I knew. Renée. Charlie. They would be devastated when their daughter died in a random car accident, her body burnt beyond recognition.

"Please Bella, I know that. I guess years of experience is not necessarily a synonim of being wiser. Now I know better. Please, forgive my foolishness. I love you so much Isabella Swan." He was looking so intensely that it was enough to melt me. I could see love pouring from his eyes and it was a vision I wanted to have for the rest of my life. Or existence.. How could I say no to this creature?

"Even if I had any pride left, I wouldn't be able to say no. I love you so much." He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me fiercely, his lips pressing against mine with not so much care, but still hiding his sharp teeth and tongue inside his mouth. His fingers tangled my in hair and he pushed my face to his with one hand and my back with the other.

"You don't have any idea how much I wanted to do that in the last hours," he said.

We continued our travel back to Forks. During our way home I was trying to fabricate an excuse for Charlie, otherwise I'd be grounded for sure. Forget about it. I'll be grounded anyway when he sees Edward, since he's not fond of him at all. When we arrived home, I didn't see Charlie's cruiser, which meant I had some more time.

But the giant russet skinned boy sitting on my front door steps made my throat become dry. I'd have preferred Charlie at the moment.

I stepped out of Edward's Volvo and Jake came running to hug me. I noticed his despising looks towards Edward, but it only last half a second. The rest of the way, his eyes pierced into mine.

"Oh God Bells, do you have any idea of how worried I was about you? Are you ok?". He kept asking me, checking my arms and neck at the same time. I couldn't find my voice because I was absorbed by the fact I had forgotten we almost kissed before I left. I considered seriously giving him a chance. And, at that instant, I knew things wouldn't be the same between us. I felt sick by the fact I left him here that easy. I had lead him on in hope of finding a solution to the emptiness that was devouring me. It should have never gotten this far. I caught his face between my hands to look at him properly. He was smiling at me. My smile. He put his hands on my waist. And then I felt a pair of cold hands on my back pushing me away from my best friend. Jake was growling and Edward was hissing.

"Bella, step back. He's dangerous." Edward said to me, placing me behind him.

"What? Jake dangerous?" Jake was already shaking.

"You don't know who…what he truly is." Edward hissed between his teeth. It didn't take me long to realized he was inferring to Jacob's ability to turn into a oversized wolf.

"I know everything there is to know about him." I said trying to have a calming effect on both of them.

"You've got to be kidding right? I'm not the one who has to restrain myself to not suck her blood. Back off leech. Do you have any idea what you put her through?" Jake's eyes shot daggers.

Edward's face went blank and suddenly, he was looking sick, as if he was about to vomit if he could. I looked at Jake. It took me a moment to realize what was happening. I've told him about Edward's mind reading. What was he thinking? Oh… he probably showed him how I was after Edward left me. I was not proud of my zombie period at all. Jacob didn't know yet the reason for Edward's leaving.

"Jacob, stop that right now!" Jacob's eyes bored into mine, looking almost apologetic. Almost.

"It's ok Bella. I deserve this. It's just difficult to see.. All I wanted was to make you safe. I thought you were better without me…" Edward said, clearly disgusted with himself.

"Edward, shut up. What's done is done. I do understand you now and I forgive you." Jacob was outraged. I could see his skin turning into a darker shade of red.

"What? You forgive him? Just that easy? Come on… "Jacob half pleaded, half growled.

"Jake… please, understand him…he left me because the thought I'd be safer without him. He wanted me to have a human life..." I said, trying to placate his anger.

"Oh yeah I do! He was damn right about being a danger to you! He shouldn't even have let you get in this relationship. Any wrong movement and he would have killed you!" He said, his husky voice almost bordering a snarl. His fists were tense by the side of his body, trembling as he restrained the wolf inside him.

"And I can say the same from you!" Edward hiss, his lips draught upwards, showing his teeth.

"Bella, if you want me to stay away from you, just say it…" Jacob said, looking at Edward instead of me. How could he think that? He was my sun! I interrupted him before any more of those twisted words came out of his russet lips. I knew what kind of game he was playing and I wouldn't disappoint him by falling for that trap.

"Jake, shut up…you know I'd never want this… you're my best friend…. You're more… you're…" I catch a glimpse of sadness in Edward's eyes. My heart constricted at the sight.

"Bells, I know you love him… but I love you… and I know you feel something…we almost … if he hadn't…" Again, I was cutting his speech shorter putting my index finger on his lips. I loved him as my best friend. What we almost did before was entirely my fault. I knew what would happen when I turned and planted a kiss on his warm shoulder. But would I have done it if I knew that Edward still loved me?

"Jake… I'm sorry…"

"Bells, I was here. Come on… I know how you feel…honey, ... shit…forget about it… I see now that I'm worthless to you. You didn't even look back Bella… And you, bloodsucker, you better stay away from her. If you hurt her in any way, I swear I'll rip your head off…I …" he couldn't utter no more words. He was shaking so violently, that I was sure he was about to phase. Before I could blink, he was running toward the woods.

"Bella, can't I leave for an instant and you attracting mythical dangerous creatures?" Edward asked me, with a smile that didn't reach his eyes, but still had an ironic glint that was unwelcomed.

"Jake is not dangerous. He would never hurt me!" How dare he talk like this about my Jacob? Jacob was anything but the most gentle, selfless person I've ever met. Even though he had the potential to hurt me, he'd never do it.

"That mutt is a hazard!" My temper flared at this. For someone who had a lust for my blood, he really had nerves to say something like this. Anger was boiling inside of me. And this was an emotion I had never associated with Edward. Frustration, heaps of frustration, yes.

"Well, that guy over there was the one who patched me up when you left me in pieces. He was the one who brought me back from the half dead zone I was immersed. He was the one who made my days brighter. He was my sun. Do you get that? You're the one who hurt me, Edward." I spat the last words. I didn't know what hell was happening to me. I instantly regretted my harsh tone.

He was speechless after my outburst. If he thought he was going to find the weak Bella, who was carried everywhere to be protected, he was wrong. Jacob taught me better than that. I would never dishonor him by listening to this without saying a word. Edward's concern was genuine, but completely hypocrite.

"I'm sorry my love. I overreacted. You should see his thoughts about you… he loves you more than a friend is allowed to love… I saw you two together at the beach in his mind...I just lost it…I'm sorry." He apologized, holding my hand between his cold ones.

"Fine. Just go. I need to sleep and think of a plan to deal with Charlie." I tried to look confident about my last sentence. I would not show him right now how desperately I wanted him to hold me during the night, no matter how cold I'd feel. He deserved at least a brief cold shoulder, even though my insides begged me to ask him to come in and hold me until was body was numb.

"May I kiss you?" He asked sweetly, clearly afraid of what my answer would be. Definitively I was mad, but I couldn't feel like this toward him for very long, especially when he asks me something like that. I felt my insides melting and my brain became liquid, incoherent. I really wanted to look like a tough Bella. A new Bella, whom he would never have to leave so she could be safe. But again, I could not fight my urge to feel his icy marble lips on mine one more time. All that mattered at that moment, when his cold hands rested on my arms and his intoxicating sweet breath was only some inches away from me, was the love I felt for Edward, screaming inside of me.

"Since when did you have to ask for that?"

Re-edited 02/02/2013