Here I stood in the rain, my tears masked by the heavy drizzle, after watching the man I adored, through the partially opened door, making love to another woman. I had tried to come here as fast as I could, so that I could tell him that he was the one I loved and wanted to be with forever, but I guess I was too late.
"Make your decision quickly Haruhi! It's either me or him, but you can't continue leading us both on" I remember him saying earlier that week, after all of our clients had left and only he and I remained. That day, I had promised Kyoya that I'd lock the door after club activities were done, but I hadn't been expecting to be confronted by Tamaki. "What are you talking about?" I asked, not knowing where this sudden flood of information was coming from. "Don't play with me" he replied icily, his usually warm, violet eyes, now showing no sigh of kindness as he continued. "I know that you've been seeing Hikaru behind my back" He had been upset at the fact that I kept running from him to Hikaru whenever we argued about something which would leave him taking his frustration out on the punching bag, in his down stairs gym and me, going for a long walk on the beach and thinking things over, which would sometimes end with me at Hikaru's house.
But I never did anything with Hikaru, and Kaoru was my witness on this, due to the fact that he often found me sitting in the living room with Hikaru, discussing our current arguments or sleeping in Hikaru's bed, while Hikaru slept on the couch. I never expected to find a scene like this, while on my way to tell him that I was tired of running and ready to talk this out with him like a responsible adult. But as I ran up the steps, past some maids who seemed really happy to see me and greeted me warmly, and down the hall, towards Tamaki's room, I was met with low moans and soft giggles. "What the hell?" I questioned, slowly pushing the door open, to find a naked woman on top of Tamaki.
"Who the hell is she" I questioned in the back of my mind, as I watched her in complete shock, unable to pull my eyes away from the scene. "This has got to be a bad dream" I thought, trying so hard to deny what I was seeing, but her pale creamy skin, dark crimson hair, smell of her perfume, the way she moaned… no, pretty much purred his name, as she gripped his shoulders and grinded on him, her perfect breasts bouncing and Tamaki continued to grip the sheets tighter and let out a throaty moan, just seemed all too real. It was enough to make me sick. And to make matters worse, she saw me and smiled, pleased with herself, before kissing him and grinding harder, as his eyes remained glazed over with lust. It was as though I was being stabbed in the heart repeatedly.
I couldn't bear to watch anymore, it hurt me too much to stay, so I ran out. Down the hall, past his concerned maids, who only saw my expressionless, yet deeply scarlet, face, as I tripped over my feet, while demanding to go away.
"Miss Haruhi, wait, is something wrong? Are you ok? Miss Haruhi, don't go out there, it's raining. You'll catch cold" some of the maids questioned and commented, but I ignored them, as I ran out into the hammering rain. I didn't care anymore. I didn't care if he missed me, which I knew with what he was doing currently, he wouldn't, I didn't care about the host club or the fact that I was on a scholarship that was a stepping stone to my becoming the best damn lawyer there ever was. None of it really mattered to me as tears spilled down my cheeks, as if a dam had been broken behind my eyes, and I crumbled under the weight and pressure of heartbreak. I didn't care that I may die of pneumonia, or catch cold, Hell, it probably be better if I just wasn't around anymore, then Tamaki would be able to sleep with anyone he wanted to.
I stumbled down the road, my clothes sticking to my small frame as I continued walking, not paying any attention to where I was going. "Dammit!" I screamed at the dark grey sky, cursing the day that I'd ever met that rich bastard. But all the same, I wanted to know why. Why he would do this to me after telling me to choose who I wanted to be with. I mean, Tamaki was the only boy I had adored, since I'd finally figured out how I really felt and now he's with another woman. "I can't believe I actually agreed to move in with that bastard too." I thought, continuing to walk, not knowing where exactly I was headed and not caring, as my thoughts continued "What the hell was I thinking?" then I remembered why.
"Haruhi…. Haruhi, Can I ask you something?" Tamaki asked, as he tried to get my attention, while I entertained my guests for the afternoon. "oh Tamaki, you look so handsome today" one of the girls squeaked, as Tamaki, who was dressed as a male model, ran his long fingers through his silky blond hair and shot the girls a charming look, causing them to squeal and fawn over him even more. This impressed me too, in some ways but I tried not to show it. It was really too complicating and bothersome. He wore a white shirt, which was barely buttoned up, showing off his tanned, toned chest and parts of his rippling stomach, and pair of baggy jeans. "Sure, what's up Tamaki?" I asked, excusing myself from the table and following Tamaki to a nearby window, out of earshot of my and his guests. Of course, Kyoya could hear us, although he didn't seem interested in what we were saying.
"Well, I know that your father doesn't like me and I know he'd never allow this, but I was just wondering….. if it's not too much-" Tamaki said but was cut off, as Hikaru and Kaoru suddenly appeared beside me and pulled me away from Tamaki, while asking me why I wasn't dressed. "Hey, Hikaru, Kaoru, I was talking to Haruhi. Bring her back" Tamaki yelled, but the twins ignored him. "Because I don't want to. I actually like what I'm wearing right now, plus, I know that you guys might've wanted to put me in a dress." I replied, "we wouldn't think of it Haruhi" the twins said in unison, as a sneaky grin slid across their faces. "Although you would look so cute if you let us dress you up" Hikaru added, while pulling a dress out of nowhere.
"You've gotta be kidding me" I thought as those mischievous faces stared back at me. "Not a chance" I replied coldly, while trying to pull away from the dastardly duo, but they held me fast. "hey, hey, don't be like that" Hikaru said, holding me fast. "yeah Haruhi, this'll only take a second" Kaoru, smiled widely as they continued leading me past Hunny, who waved at us, while carefully eating a slice of strawberry cheesecake and trying not to get any on his long plaid shorts and silk shirt. "No. I really don't wanna dress up. Come on guys" I replied, continuing to struggle. "Hey Haruhi, do you wanna join me and bun bun for some cake? " Hunny asked, his sunny blond hair, now slicked back with a pair of sunglasses on top of his head. "sanctuary" I thought, hoping that Hunny would save me, but before I could answer, Hikaru thanked Hunny for his offer then declined, explaining that I had agreed to model one of the dresses their mother prepared for a special occasion such as this.
"That's not t-" I started, but Hikaru quickly put his hand over my mouth and smiled. "Oh" Hunny replied, sadly, then perked up. "Can I watch?" "sure you can" both of those devious deviants replied nonchalantly waving their hand, then smiled at each other, while I squirmed and tried to worm and wiggle out the twin's vice grip. Somehow I managed to escape, between Mori effortlessly picking me up, explaining to Hunny that Tamaki was finally going to ask me "THE QUESTION", which surprised and excited him, and carrying me back to Tamaki.
He was a sad sight to behold, pathetically sitting in a dark corner cultivating mushrooms and rocking back and forth telling the mushrooms that they were going to be ok and shouldn't fight. "Oh, great. That's perfect" I thought, rolling my eyes, thinking that Tamaki had finally snapped, then my better judgment got the best of me and I gently put my hand on his shoulder. "sorry about that Tamaki, Was there something you wanted to ask me?" I asked, giving him the sincerest smile that I could muster, as he turned around, his deep violet orbs, the palest I'd ever seen them as he drew himself to his feet and stared deeply into my eyes. "Haruhi" he blushed as he said my name, then put his hand over his mouth, his hands were shaking.
"Why are his hands shaking" I thought, but ignored it for the moment. "Yes sensei?" I asked, suddenly finding myself lost in the lovely lavender orbs of the boy that I'd been secretly harboring a crush for. "Um… well, I was just wondering…" he replied, his face, now as red as those stupid roses that usually appear out of nowhere. "God, this is getting really annoying" I thought, quickly loosing my patience. "Yes?" I edged, biting back my impatience as he continued to fumble with his words.
"Will you…. Um…. Will you-" "WILL I WHAT? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO ASK ME TAMAKI!?!" I yelled, snatching my hand out of his and attracting the attention of everyone in the music room. I quickly noticed everyone staring at Tamaki and I. "sorry everyone" I apologized, blushing, and then turned back to Tamaki. "Now, what do you want to ask me?" I asked in a sharp whisper as Tamaki began to shake in fright. "I think Tamaki is trying to ask you to move in with him" Kyoya informed in a bored tone, before Tamaki could answer. He walked over, wearing a white, sleeveless button down polo shirt and a pair of baggy light blue, jeans and smiled, which, for some odd reason, made me cringe. He had also decided to wear contacts today, which came as a surprise to me, cause he's never done it before. "Hey" Tamaki replied somewhat angry, then began to sulk "I wanted to ask her, mama" he whimpered.
"well, you were taking too long, so I told her" Kyoya replied, then looked at Tamaki and sighed, before continuing "but if you want to ask her so badly, then ask" "ok. Haruhi, will you move in with me?" Tamaki asked, offering me a pair of keys with a bear keychain on it. My brain quickly went into overdrive with the images of Tamaki walking out of his room with his pajama top open showing of his firm tanned, upper body, as he wipes the sleep from his eyes. That skipped to Tamaki and I getting married in a church and the image of my father bawling like a woman. We exchange our vows, then the big question arises and I'm prepared to answer "Yes" my mind whispered, hoping that my mouth would repeat the decision. But I shook my head thinking the whole idea was just stupid and a complete hindrance to my plans.
"No" I replied blankly, pushing his hand away and walking past him, not caring about how he crumbled into a huge pile as I walked on. "Ooh. Rejected" the twins said in unison then gave each other a high five. "You owe us 30,000,000 yen Hunny- sempai." Hikaru said, as Hunny cried, clinging to Mori's leg, while he wrote the check. "What the hell? You guys bet on whether or not I was going to move in with Tamaki?" I asked, as Hikaru quickly pocketed the check and grinned. "Yep" those two idiots replied in unison.
"Sorry Haru-chan" Hunny replied sadly, clutching Bun-Bun and looking at me with those big brown eyes. "We don't really need the money though. I mean, we are wealthy" Hikaru said, looking bored, as he pretended to clean dirt from under his perfectly manicured fingernails. "Of course, we could give this 30 million yen" Kaoru said, putting his arm around his brother's neck. "But you'd have to let us…. Dress you" Hikaru smiled, putting his arm around Kaoru's neck. "Yeah, then I'd finally be able to buy some giant tuna and some new clothes. Then again, I don't really like wearing dresses very much and the one that they've picked out doesn't exactly fit my taste…. Although, it is very pretty" I thought, considering the notion. "So, what do you say?" Kaoru asked, still grinning like a Cheshire cat.
"Yeah, Haru-chan, what do you say?" Hunny piped up, smiling too, as Tamaki only blushed at the thought… I guess. "No" I replied, which caused everyone to Awww, in disappointment. Well, except Mori, Kyoya, and the twins, who just shrugged and said in unison "oh well, your loss." "Haruhi… but why?" Tamaki asked, following me like a small child, which seemed to entertain our guests. "Why what Tamaki? Why did I refuse to model their mother's dress or why did I refuse to move in with you?" I asked, not bothering to turn around, as I walked back to my customers and sat down.
"Both" Tamaki replied, standing beside my chair. "Aw, how cute, Tamaki looks like a child following Haruhi around" one girl said to another, who giggled in response. "And like a small child, I'll follow you all the way to the ends of the earth, fore, I adore you that much" Tamaki smiled, holding the girl's hand and smiling, which caused them to go nuts. "Oh brother" I thought, rolling my eyes as Tamaki continued making a fool of himself, then returned to my side. "You know how much daddy loves seeing you in dresses at least once in a while. Can't you just wear a dress one time while we're cosplaying? Daddy would really like it if you did" then I snapped, slamming my teacup on its saucer and staring at him. "How many times do I have to tell you, YOU'RE NOT MY FATHER!?!"
"Plus 300 million yen for the tea set and yelling" Kyoya said, without looking up from his black book. "Dammit. Rich bastards" I cursed in the back of my mind and for some reason; I could've sworn I heard him say "I heard that. Plus 800 million yen for potty mouth. should I add more?" "I am too, your father. I mean, why else would I constantly think of hugging you, holding your hand, and just being close to you? Why would I have a special set of gold keys made and ask you to come live with me in mansion #2, if I wasn't your dear father?" Tamaki asked, looking a little hurt, yet outraged.
"Because you're weird" I thought, but didn't bother to say, cause I knew how he'd react. "That might be because you're in love with Haru-kun, Tamaki" a girl with long silky raven hair, whom I'd never noticed before, replied nervously, while playing with her fingers and staring at her lap. At first, everyone in the room, besides the people who had known or had already caught on to this fact, was in complete shock at what the girl had declared. then, all of the customers squealed, except for the poor girl and us hosts, and began chatting about how cool it would be to have not only a forbidden love amongst brothers, but also one amongst the hottest and well known boy, Tamaki, and me, the poorest, yet smartest 'boy' in school.
"He's in love with me? Well, that's strange. I always thought he was in love with himself or something. But this is a surprise. Hmm. What should I make for dinner tonight" I thought, my face going slightly pink at the consideration then tried to push it away, but my heart wouldn't stop racing. "Haru-kun, are you ok?" "Oh my, do you have a fever?" "Should I escort you to the infirmary?" some of my guests asked, bringing me back into reality as I somehow hoped that Tamaki hadn't noticed that I was blushing. "oh, no I'm ok. just a little warm. Thank you all for your concern ladies. Um, would you all like some more tea? Cake? Sweets? Anything?" I replied, then nervously asked, before excusing myself. "He's so sweet" another girl replied. "Maybe we should start a Tama-Haru fan club" one of Tamaki's, many, clients suggested.
"Yeah, if we do, I wanna be one of the first members" one of my clients said, raising her hand. "I'd pay to see that" another replied sarcastically. "That would be a great idea" Kyoya interjected, as he walked over. "And we can have it here in the host club." "Yeah" the girls seemed to all agree in unison
"Oh no Hikaru, our fans are leaving us, I feel so alone" Kaoru cried, putting his hand on his forehead and holding on to his brother as if to keep from Fainting. "I don't know what I'll do without my public" "I know Kaoru, but you mustn't worry. I'll always be here for you" Hikaru replied, holding his brother close, as the girls, who had left their 'presence' and many of our other guests, went to watch the twins engage in their ever famous 'brotherly love'. "Oh Hikaru, I knew you'd never let me down" Kaoru moaned, gently resting his hand on Hikaru's cheek and stared into his brother's eyes passionately. "Kaoru, you should know that I could never leave you. You're my better half" Hikaru whispered, as some girls cried saying "don't worry Hikaru, Kaoru, we'll never leave you.", swooned and applauded.
"I may never get use to that" I thought as watching the twins in slight disgust, then returned to my seat bringing another pot of tea. But I found it occupied by 'the king' who offered me his lap instead. "No thanks, I'll just stand" I replied blankly, as all of our guests protested. "Just one time Haru-kun." "Yeah, please" "I bet you would look really cute on Tamaki's lap" some of my guests implied, while others squealed at the mere thought, as I stood there, glancing at Tamaki and having a mental argument of whether or not, I should succumb to sheer embarrassment. "Ladies, Haruhi really doesn't have to sit on my lap. It's ok, really" Tamaki said earnestly, while turning bright red. I guess he was thinking about how it would feel, having me that close.
"Awww" the girls chorused once more, seeming deeply disappointed. "but never fear, my fair maidens, fore I shall let you all sit on my lap" Tamaki said with a charming smile, making the girls squeal in unison, before Kyoya beckoned me over and said "if you do it, I'll cut your debt by half and write the added charges off as good behavior" "yes. Soon I won't owe anything" I thought, feeling victorious, then Kyoya busted my bubble of victory and sent me plummeting back down to reality. "Of course, this'll mean that you'll have to quit the host club, therefore having to leave your beloved Tamaki and all of your friends" "yeah… that's right" I thought grimly, imagining walking to class with Hikaru and Kaoru.
"Hey guys, I was just wondering…. What's been happening in the host club lately" "well, we'd tell you Haruhi, but" Hikaru would begin "since you're no longer part of the club and that information is strictly classified even to our guests" Kaoru would finish "WE CAN'T TELL YOU" both would say in unison, stopping in front of me. "Oh. Ok, I understa-" I would try to say, but would get cut off "but since you're our friend" Kaoru would start putting his arm around my shoulder "and we love as much as we do" Hikaru would finish, putting his arm over my other shoulder, so that their arms are crisscrossed behind my back "WE'LL GIVE YOU A HINT" both would chorus in unison, stopping once more and grinning like Cheshire cats. "Oh boy, why do I have a bad feeling about this" I'd think, clutching my books tighter to my chest, before they would each grab me by my elbows and effortlessly carry me to a dressing room. "So, what do you say?"
Kyoya asked, looking back at his laptop. "The choice is yours, personally I don't care." "I'll do it, but only on one condition" I replied, wanting so badly to stay. "And that is?" Kyoya asked with a blank stare. "I stay a host for the remainder of my high school career." "Well, I knew you couldn't resist" he replied, continuing to type silently "plus if you had decided to leave us, we'd loose a substantial amount of money. You have been raking in a lot of customers, so it's a deal." "what the heck was the whole 'this'll mean that you'll have to quit the host club, therefore having to leave your beloved Tamaki and all of your friends' if you just said that you'll be loosing a large amount of money because I'm raking in a lot of customers? Isn't that contradictory? Whatever……. Bunch of rich bastards" I thought, after thanking Kyoya and walking back to where Tamaki was sitting. Or at least far enough as to where Kyoya couldn't use his mind reading techniques on me and would instead, catch the elevator music playing in Tamaki's head.
"I'll sit on your lap" I said blankly, making the girls squeal. "Well, it appears that Haruhi has changed his mind" Tamaki said smiling at the girls and running his long fingers through his hair before flipping it. "But know this Tamaki, if you blow in my ear, sniff my neck, can't control your body for some odd reason or hug me suddenly, I'll gut you like a fish. So no funny business, am I clear?" I whispered sharply in his ear, making him stiffen in his seat. "Crystal" he replied with a soft smile as if to hide the fact that he was scared.
So I slipped onto his thighs, feeling as foolish as ever. "the stuff I put up with just to repay my debt" I sighed, feeling like a ventriloquist dummy sitting on Tamaki's knee silently as he sipped his tea and discussed such trivial things with the girls. Yet at the same time, I was so happy sitting there. "I love the sound of his voice and how sweet it seemed to resonate so lightly. Mmmmm, I can imagine those lips, forming the words slowly" "Haruhi" "carefully" "Haruhi" "lightly enunciating every syllable. Oh God, what I wouldn't give to kiss those lips" "HARUHI!" Tamaki breathed, sending shivers down my spine and causing me turn around and send him a death glare, although I really enjoyed it. "What sempai?" I asked icily, making him shrink in his seat.
"I repeat. Haruhi Fujioka, if you're still in the building, you are to report to the chairman's office immediately." The woman's voice echoed over the loudspeaker. "That" Tamaki replied, making me feel embarrassed once more. "Sorry" I replied, with a light blush. "why am I being called to the office" I thought internally, as I hopped off of Tamaki's lap, apologized to the girls for departing from them so early, then walked towards the door, but was stopped by Hunny and the twins. "Can we come with you Haruhi?" Hikaru asked as both he and Kaoru took my hands and smiled.
"Yeah Haru-chan, can we?" Hunny grinned, almost knocking the wind out of me as he threw his arms around my waist and hugged me. "Um... sure guys but I'm pretty sure it's not all that important, plus, who's gonna entertain your guests while you're gone?" I asked looking at all three of them. "Don't worry about that" Hunny replied. "Our guests have already left" Kaoru said "yeah, something about…… wanting to get home before the thunderstorm came through" Hikaru added, tapping his finger on his chin and looking skyward, as if guessing. "But that important so lets get going" both chorused before pulling me to the door.
"Mitsukuni, it's time for your nap" Mori said quietly as he stopped us and pulled Hunny from around my waist" "Awww, already?" Hunny questioned sweetly, obviously disappointed, Mori silently nodded and began carrying him to the other side of the host club. "Well I guess that means I can't go. Oh well" Hunny replied, looking sad, then smiled. "Have fun Haru-chan" "ok" I replied. "Let's go" the twins chorused impatiently, putting their hands on their hips and tapping their feet.
"Alright" I replied, as the twins held the double doors open and I walked through them and down the hall, not waiting for either Hikaru or Kaoru, but they were on my heels. As I rounded the corner and paced down the hall, I noticed that the once sunlit sky, which I'd seen on my way to the host club this afternoon, now had a grey blanket of clouds streaming across it. "Why do I suddenly have a bad feeling about this meeting?" I thought, before pushing the office door open and walking through. "yes dear, how may I help you?" a pretty, young secretary with bright, cat-like, green eyes and long black hair, purred, looking up from her magazine with a smile. "Um… Hi, I got a call to come see the chairman-" I replied but was cut off by the chairman
"Ah, Haruhi, so glad you could make it" the chairman said with a warm smile as he stood in the doorway of his office. "please, come in. Hikaru, Kaoru. How are you boys been? I hope Tamaki hasn't been giving you any trouble" I nodded and walked in, taking in the sight that was the chairman's office. It was huge. The walls were lined with pictures of Tamaki, from the time he was a chubby little baby all the way till the current photo of all of us in the host club, and several awards and plaques for being the best private school in the district. "Please, sit" the chairman said, startling me as he took a seat in his chair and motioned us to sit as well.
"Miss Haruhi Fujioka, I must say, you are an exceptional student. Straight A's in every class…" "Forgive me sir, but was there something you wanted to tell me?" I asked trying to be polite, but quickly loosing my patience. "Yes" he replied, his smile melting into a concerned look as he pushed my file away and became serious "There's been an accident." My heart seemed to stop at the sound. "no. no. no" I thought, not wanting to listen, but found myself unable to move. "Hopefully it's not true" "what happened?" I asked, my mouth going dry as I hoped it wasn't my father, but for some reason, knowing it was.
"There was a robbery at his job" chairman Suoh replied, folding his hands in front of his face. "your father complied with the guys wishes when he ordered him to hand over the money, but when the robber had let his guard down, your father tackled him and they fought over the gun-" "What are you trying to say sir?" I asked, no longer wanting the story of what happened, but to know if my father was alright. "The gun went off and the guy was caught, but…I'm sorry Haruhi." He replied looking as though he were about to cry before he looked away from me. "No" I thought, suddenly getting out of my chair "don't say -"
"Your fathers gone. I'm sorry" the chairman whispered, an apologetic look on his face, as I froze. "Haruhi" the twins softly chimed, pulling me into a warm embrace, as if to comfort me, but I pushed them away. "You're kidding" I said, thinking, wishing, hoping , praying, that I'd somehow fallen asleep on Tamaki's lap and that this was just a really bad nightmare that I would wake up from. But something inside of me, told me it was true. "No, Haruhi. In a matter such as this, I don't joke."
"DAMMIT!" I cursed lowly, balling my hands into a tight fist at my sides and gritting my teeth as the twin's embraced me once more, and got tighter, as if to keep me from crumbling. "You may go to the hospital to identify the body. I'm really sorry for inconveniencing you like this-" "ok" was all I could say as the twins escorted me out of the office and down to their limo, never once saying a word. "This isn't happening" I thought, finding myself unable to cry as I rubbed my nose and found the heavily intoxicating smell of iron. I opened my hand and found I had balled up my fists so tightly, that I now had bloodied crescent wounds in the palms of both hands. "Ow" I thought sarcastically, wondering why it didn't hurt the way it was suppose to, as the warm, scarlet, liquid bubbled up from the hemispherical shaped wounds.
"Hey, Haruhi…." Hikaru started, as if trying to lighten the mood, but caught sight of my blood drenched palms. "You're bleeding" he grabbed two pieces of tissue and lightly placed them in my hands to soak up the blood. "Are you ok?" he asked, looking up at me, his eyes showing deep concern. "No" I breathed, looking away, feeling as helpless and scared as a lost child. "That's ok. If you need a shoulder to cry on, I'm here" Hikaru smiled grimly, wrapping his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer to himself. I still didn't feel much like crying at the moment, so I just rested my head on his broad shoulder, taking comfort in his presence and support. "Thank you" I whispered, as the rain continued to fall, pelting the windows, and sudden weight of sleep engulfed me.
"Where are you guys?" Tamaki's voice blared through Kaoru's cell phone as we rode to the hospital. "We're on our way to the hospital-" "what do you mean 'on your way to the hospital?' did something happen to Haruhi? Is she ok? Where is she?" "She's fine" kaoru replied, not being as irritated as he'd usually be when Tamaki would flip out. "Then why are you guys going to the hospital?" "because Haruhi's father is dead"
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There he lay, no longer breathing, but still warm to my touch, as if… somehow…. still alive. He was stripped of all make up, revealing a pale, handsome, masculine face, his crimson wig and long eyelashes, were now no more, leaving short blond tresses flecked with few grays and short eyelashes, attached to relaxed lids hiding his, once, bright brown eyes. His feminine clothing were now replaced by a white sheet. He was definitely my father.
I reached my hand under the snow white sheet, and gently grasping his lukewarm hand in mine, so glad that rigor mortis hadn't set in, so that I could still hold him. I was also glad that they had decided to wait to embalm him, before gently resting my head on the cold stainless steel table. I always knew that death was inevitable, but I'd never thought that dad would die so soon. I just never imagined that I would be thrust into this position again, only eleven years after my mother died.
"Dad…" I whispered my tears falling softly on the steel table and instantly loosing their heat, as I sat there, so unable to think of anything else to say. So I prayed. I prayed that God would accept his spirit into heaven and that he didn't have to suffer long. What else could I do? So, as I prayed, this is what I heard outside:
"How is she?" Tamaki's voice echo softly. "I… I don't know." Hikaru replied sadly, although he wasn't sure of what to say. "She hasn't said anything since…" Kaoru added mirroring his brother's sorrow, but was cut off by Tamaki "WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'YOU DON'T KNOW'?" Tamaki blasted, as I finished my prayer, gently kissed my father on the cheek for the last time, and proceeded to leave the cold, smelly room. "HARUHI'S FATHER IS DEAD AND THE ONLY THING YOU CAN SAY IS I DON'T KNOW?" Tamaki yelled, as I watched him grab Hikaru by his collar and shake him. "Hikaru" Kaoru cried, I guess, fearful that his older sibling would be hurt "and what am I suppose to say? Oh Haruhi, I know what you're going through? I've been there?" Hikaru asked blankly, as he now held on to Tamaki's wrist, but continued to hang limply, then got mad, slapping his hand away " well I don't and can't, cause both our parents are still living. AND WHY THE HELL ARE YOU YELLING AT ME ANYWAY? I DIDN'T KILL HER FATHER!" "I know that, but why didn't you come to me first, before rushing Haruhi off to the hospital? WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME FIRST?" Tamaki replied sternly then yelled once more. "WHY? WHY? IT'S BECAUSE WE WERE THERE WITH HER WHEN SHE WAS PRESENTED WITH THE INFORMATION, THAT'S WHY! What is it with you Tono? I mean, you always wanna be told everything about Haruhi as though… AS THOUGH YOU'RE HER FRICKIN' FATHER-" kaoru said angrily, but was interrupted by Tamaki. "WELL, IT'S NOT MY FAULT MY CLIENTS LIVE CLOSE TO THE SCHOOL. I AM HER FATHER! And don't use the word fuck in my presence it's uncouth" Tamaki bit back, pushing kaoru. "What do you care Tono. You're always so worried about your damn image. No Tono, you're not her father." Hikaru said, holding on to his twin. "ATLEAT I HAVE A DAMN IMAGE, UNLIKE YOU TWO AND YES I AM!" Tamaki yelled once more. "We don't care about our image." kaoru said, balling his fists "at least we're not bastards like you" "why you little-" Tamaki started, but Hikaru cut him off "Dammit Tamaki, you are not her father so shut the fuck up-" Hikaru said calmly, rubbing his temple. "YES I AM YOU TWIN SPAWNS OF SATIN, SO YOU SHUT UP!"
"YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M GETTING JUST ABOUT SICK AND TIRED OF-" Hikaru started, grabbing Tamaki by the collar, but I cut him off. "Will you guys stop it already?!" I finally spoke up, grabbing his attention, before he and Tamaki went into an all out brawl. "Fore shame Tamaki. Have you no respect for the dead? This is a morgue for God sakes" "Haruhi" Tamaki breathed, trying to hug me. "Please sempai, don't touch me, I'm really tired" I said, walking past him and grabbing Hikaru's arm. "Come on guys" "Haruhi, wait" Tamaki squeaked, but I ignored him.
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The viewing was to be next Friday and the funeral, that Saturday, but it didn't seem to make things easier for me at all. The chairman pardoned me from school, for as long as I needed to get everything settled, although I wasn't sure if dad had anything of value and I didn't want to miss a single day. Kyoya told me that I didn't have to participate in club activities, in fear that I would suddenly break down while hosting, but I came to club anyway, as though nothing had happened at all. The twins kept a close and watchful eye on me, not wanting to leave me alone, during class and sat with me at lunch, although I continually explained to them that I was alright. Hunny, who would usually eat his cake with his cousin, during club hours, now sat with me and once in a while offered me a piece of whatever flavor pastries he was enjoying that day. I would usually decline his offer, then quickly reconsider once the tears began to form at the corners of his large, light coffee eyes. "Dammit, I can't win can I?" I thought, one time, while turning away from the, now, grinning Hunny who was enjoying another plate of strawberry banana cake.
Mori, just gave me a gentle, yet firm hugs, which I greatly appreciated but could honestly do without. Not to mention, almost every host had me staying over at their mansions for every evening, of the week because they were scared that I would fall apart with no one around me. They kept trying to remind me that my father was now dead and that I had to take it easy. I guess they had forgotten that I was accustomed to being alone, since dad use to work really late ever since I was little. I was still trying to deny the fact that he was gone though. as if he would suddenly come waltzing through the door, his hair and dress swaying in the wind, and wrap his arms around me, proving to me that it was all a very bad dream.
The fact that dad was actually gone, came while I was home one evening, listening to the radio. I had tried to urge everyone to leave me alone that late afternoon due to the fact that their presence was starting to annoy me.
"But Haru-chan, aren't you gonna be lonely all by yourself?" Hunny asked, clutching Bun bun and looking up at me with those huge brown orbs. "Yes, but I'm use to it, so I'll be alright" I smiled reassuringly, as I held the front door open. "Are you sure you don't wanna come to our house tonight?" Hikaru asked, furrowing his brows and giving me a concerned look. "Yeah, we're gonna try commoner's pizza" Kaoru included, but I kindly declined, informing them that I had food. "No… actually, you don't" Kyoya, replied informatively, closing the refrigerator door and looking back down at his black notebook, and jot something down. "Smart ass" I thought, gritting my teeth and swallowing the bile that had just risen in my throat and smiled. "Well…. Then…. I'll go pick up something from the market" I replied hesitantly.
"You can't. Daddy won't let you" Tamaki wailed, wrapping his arms around my waist and burying his face in my stomach. "Sempai!" I murmured halfheartedly rubbing his head, touched that he was concerned about me. "Not at this time, you won't. We'll order you some dinner instead" Kyoya alleged, looking up from his notebook once more and adjusting his glasses on the bridge of his nose. "but I'll-" I started, but was cut off by Kyoya who said "no arguments or I'll double your debt by half" his glasses flashing menacingly as I thought of how much I owed, then though of it being raised by 50% and sighed in defeat. "Damn, I can't win with you rich bastards, can I?" I thought closing the door and could've sworn I heard Kyoya say "you really need to watch your language or else bad things will happen Haruhi" as Hunny, Tamaki, and the twins cheered.
Dinner had been a quiet event, beside the cheerful conversation of which cake we enjoyed eating for dessert, by Hunny, who had happened to be eating cake for dinner. Tamaki, on the other hand, kept staring at me, as did Hikaru, who continuously looked away whenever our eyes would meet and would blush, staring at his bowl of untouched rice.
When the boys finally left, an hour or so later after begging them and my debt being raised by ten times more then I owed originally, I lay on my bed listening to the radio. I usually didn't, due to the fact that I found it troublesome at times, but for some odd reason, when I listened in today this is what I heard:
(Hurt by Christina Aguilera)
"Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were But I walked away….
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
there's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I couldn't do
and I hurt myself by hurting you
some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
sometimes I just wanna hide cause it's you I miss
cause it's hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
there's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
to look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
and I hurt myself....
if I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you went away
it's dangerous
it's so out of line
to try and turn back….. time I'm sorry for blaming you
for everything I couldn't do and I hurt myself…
By hurting you"
I listened closely to every word she sang, and cried, remembering my father and how he always seemed to make me smile whenever I had a bad day, or was always there to help me with whatever problems I had and felt like talking about. He never judged the situations I would find myself in without listening to what I had to say first and would always fuss over me like a proud hen. "God, I'm gonna miss that man" I said, my tears now soaking my pillow as I turn on my side and tried to get some sleep.
It rained the day of my father's funeral. The wind howled, as rain and hail pelted the ground outside, causing everything to appear white. The sky mirrored my dark mood, as I dressed in a black pants suit and brushed my short brown hair, all the while, staring out the window. But it was impossible for me to see the world outside, not like I really wanted to anyway. Mori and Hunny-sempai offered to give me a ride to the church where the service was being held, but as I sat there in the limo with my friends, I suddenly didn't wanna go, so I begged them to take me somewhere else. "But why Haru-chan?" Hunny asked, gently holding my hand in his. "Don't you wanna say goodbye?" "yes but" I started, suddenly feeling like a little girl again, standing there, dad holding my hand in his and trying to hold back his tears as I watched in confusion. "I can't" I finally whispered, looking away from Hunny and stared at the floor. That's when Mori gently stroked my hair and smiled. "Too many memories?" he asked, and I nodded, looking up at him. "It's ok. We understand." Hunny smiled, making me feel a lot better, as I looked out the window.
It was not that I didn't love my father or want to meet family members who probably had no knowledge of my existence, it's just that I found it strange. What would they say? How would they react? Would they even accept me? I heard stories about how dad's side of family disowned him all because he was a bi cross dresser, but had they even known that dad had gotten married and had me?
Hunny called the guys and explained to them that we weren't going to be attending the funeral, and then asked them if they wanted to hang out for a while. Everyone agreed, so, we went out to a fancy restaurant and had some breakfast, since I didn't eat due to the fact that I didn't feel very hungry.
The guys arrived in no time flat, sporting their best suits and ties and filing in two by two and grabbing everyone's attention as they walked through the door. Starting with the twins, who were wearing matching black and white pinstriped suits, but Hikaru was wearing a red shirt and kaoru was wearing pink, their hair was parted the same way, as usual. They both hugged me tightly and acted over dramatically as usual, which made the girls and women, who happened to have moved closer to our table, go crazy. "Oh Haruhi" they both cooed rubbing their cheeks against mine. "We hope you're ok"
"I'm fine" I responded dully, wishing they wouldn't make such a scene, but mentally reminding myself that they were rich and this was they usually did. They both sat on either side of me and continued hugging me, although I asked them to stop, Then Tamaki and Kyoya arrived. Tamaki, wearing a white suit with a lavender colored shirt and carrying a bright red rose, which he gave to me, while dazzling the women with his smile. "Oh…" the women all sighed while blushing and fanning themselves, some fainting.
"Oh brother" I thought, looking at my lap somewhat wishing that I could blend into the white table cloth, which was elegantly draped over the round table, but quickly reconsidered. Then looked up once more, as Tamaki argued with the twins about who should and shouldn't sit by me, to see Kyoya, sporting a black suit with a dark blue shirt, carrying his black notebook book, as usual. From the looks of the guys, you would probably assume that they had been planning to go to Easter service instead of a funeral, but as they sat there, I felt as though I was the only one out of place.
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As our meal came to an end and everyone decided that it was best to at least watch my father be put in the ground, Tamaki approached me once more, before getting into his limo. "Haruhi, I know you don't have anyone who lives in the area, and I was wondering if you would take me up on my offer. I mean, you don't have to but …" Tamaki said, his cheeks growing a darker shade of crimsoned as he stuttered, then gave a defeated sigh, when I showed no acknowledgement of his existence. "If you change your mind, you know where to find me"
That's when things seemed to move fast. I moved out of the small apartment that my father and I shared for what seemed like a short time, and into Suoh Mansion #2, with Tamaki.
"That's right. since both my parents are now deceased and I don't know any of my other family members, he took me in…" I retorted softly, looking down at the rain drenched ground as I continued walking "and that's when it happened…."
He began to judge my appearance and stressed the fact that I was a girl, and should wear dresses, even more. At first, I ignored it, as I usually did, but early one morning, I found myself dressed in an old fashioned Victorian gown and wearing a powdered wig. In some ways I wondered how I ended up wearing it, and thought of how it was too fancy to fit my taste, that's when Tamaki walked in and asked if I liked the dress. And this is when the arguments started. Since then, it's been one thing after another.
Like one time, I decided to do my laundry, because it didn't make sense to be waited on hand and foot, when you could do the job yourself. I was down stairs, separating my clothes and putting them in the washer, to Shima's dismay and the maid's objection, when I heard Tamaki scream my name. "I'm down here sempai" I called, continuing to separate my clothes and throw them in the washer, as Tamaki burst into the room and demanded to know what I was doing. "I'm washing my clothes. This is something I do every Saturday and have been doing since my mother passed on." I replied, unfazed by his looks of shock, which quickly changed to regret. "But even with your weekly tradition of doing laundry, you should know that we have maids to do that" Tamaki replied with a weary sigh, running his fingers through his hair and resting against a wall. "I know, but I really wanna do my laundry sempai. It would only make me feel more at 'home' if I did." I replied, taking my light pink undershirt, which was brightly decorated with two elephants holding balloons, from the basket and shaking it out before putting it with my colored clothes, then looking at Tamaki.
CRACK, BOOM, KZZZT
"Huh?" I questioned, looking up at the sky, just in time to see lightning streak across the heavens and illuminate it completely. "Oh God" I whispered, covering my ears and running for shelter, knowing that there would soon be a loud thunderclap, following the bright illumination but I hit something. "Hey, watch where you're going!" A guy yelled, as I looked up into a pair of steely grey eyes, which only reflected a temporary annoyance. "Sorry" I replied suddenly having a bad feeling about who I had just bumped into. "Hey guys, look it's a girl" the guy said to a pair of ugly teen boys, who stared at me hungrily, licked their lips and chuckled darkly. "Hey girly, what're you doing out on a night like this?" the guy who I'd bumped into asked as he and his cronies approached me and I slowly retreated. "Nothing" I replied, continuing to retreat, as they mocked my shaky response and continued moving towards me with evil grins. "is that so? Well It's dangerous for a pretty young thing like you to be out here alone on a night like this" the guy said, faking sympathy for me. "I can manage" I replied, as I came to a stop, suddenly feeling brave, but wishing also, that someone would come save me. "You, can manage?" the two goons scoffed, and the leader laughed "yeah right" "even if you could" the leader spoke up once more " I highly doubt that you'll get far. Say, how would you like to join my friends and I for some fun." "No thank you" I replied coldly, trying to push past them but the guy grabbed my wrist tightly. "Now don't be that way baby. The guy whispered, his breath reeking of alcohol, as his goons chuckled and began to gather around me.
"Come on, I promise it'll be fun." "yeah, for you" I thought, scowling at the fact that this may be my last night as a virgin. And it wouldn't be consensual either. "No" I replied beginning to struggle against his strong, vice-like grip. Just then CRACK, BOOM, KZZZT, lightning split the sky again and I unintentionally hit my captor in the face, and instantly broke his nose as the rain began to pour down once more. "ah. Shit!" my captor yelled, releasing me, as he held his, now, bleeding nose and I broke into a run. "GET HER!" he howled in pain, while holding his injured snout and pointing, as I ran down a narrow path and into a back alley. "Come back here you nasty little bitch" one of the man's cronies called, as I now crouched, hidden beside a trash can, trying to steady my racing heart and catch my breath. "oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God" I thought, as the footsteps of those guys who would only do vile things to me, came closer to my hiding spot.
"Here kitty, kitty" the other colleague taunted as I continued hiding, trying to make myself as small and as unnoticeable as I could. "have you found her?" the crony #1 asked, in a hushed voice. "of course not you dope" crony #2 responded, I guess, hitting the first guy upside his head, earning a moan of pain, before continuing. "she probably went that way" the footsteps began to ascend to the right of me, past a really dirty dumpster and onward. When they were completely out of sight, I rose from my hiding spot and quickly left the alley, so glad that I got away. but That's when someone grabbed me as I was about to turn the corner and get back onto the main road and head off to God knows where. The person quickly slipping their hand over my mouth, so that I wouldn't be able to scream tried to shush me, but I became frantic and began to struggle. "Dammit. I can pretty much kiss my virginity goodbye." I thought, as I struggled against the person's hold, and thinking I was done for sure.
"Ouch. Hey, hey, Haruhi, chill out. It's me" a familiar voice, whispered as I began to calm down and the person removed his hand. "Hikaru?" I whisper, quickly turning to see the tall brunet. standing there, smiling at me. "Hikaru…" I sobbed, throwing my arms around his middle and barring my face in his chest, as he smoothed my hair and told me that everything was going to be alright now.
"HE DID WHAT!?" Hikaru boomed, suddenly standing, as I readjusted my, now dry, clothes and explained what happened and how I had almost ended up getting gang raped. "Hikaru calm down," I pleaded, touching his arm, but he pulled away then stopped as if to keep his anger restrained as he turned away from me. "I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT HARUHI. I mean," he said, his fists clenched as he spoke, then turned back to face me, his auburn bangs hid his luminescent hazel eyes "dammit! YOU'RE A DAMN GOOD WOMAN AND YOU DISERVE TO BE TREATED A HELL OF A LOT BETTER THAN THI-" by this time, I was on my feet, gently stroking his cheek and staring deeply into his eyes. He was crying. "Hikaru-" I started, but he cut me off.
"I love you. I love you Haruhi Fujioka, so please, be mine? I swear I'll never hurt you" Hikaru pledged, as I stood there staring up at him in shock. "oh my…" I thought, as I looked away, unable to say anything while I entertained the thought of being with Hikaru. Making him happy, holding his hand, getting married…. Having his children. I couldn't help but blush, at the thought, then Tamaki's face popped into my head. Those soft, captivating amethyst eyes, golden blond tresses and hard body… I wanted to be with that blond haired dope, no matter how goofy he acted or how much he had hurt me with what he did. "I'm sorry Hikaru" I thought, turning to the image of Tamaki, beaming at me in the sunset, before we would share our first kiss.
But before our lips could even touch, the scene was interrupted by the image of the pleasured look on his face and that…. That… whore, riding him. This made my heart feel as though it was being ripped out yet again. I shook my head to rid myself of that crazy thought. "Haruhi…" Hikaru whispered "Hikaru" I suddenly felt tears stream down my cheeks as I looked into his passionate hazel eyes once more and he kissed me.
It hurt. The pain of having a one sided love that everyone you know, except the person of fascination, knows and in some way is rooting for you, then you walk in on a scene like that… I wanted him to take my pain away so badly. So badly it hurt. Oh God, his lips tasted sweet like cherry jolly ranchers as he pulled me closer and I wrapped my arms around his neck, entangling my fingers in his short, silky tresses. He licked my bottom lip, begging for entrance, which I willfully gave as his hands slid down my back. He kissed me fully, strongly, his mouth devouring mine as our tongues fought and explored every crevice of each other's mouths. Leaving us moaning and grabbing at each other's clothes, our bodies begging for sweet relief, but it seems I'd have to wait. His lips began to deviate from mine, leaving me breathless, but blushing, as he kissed my chin, jaw line, and neck, then nipped my ear, causing me to blush and moan as my eyelids now lay heavy with lust.
"Hikaru…." I whispered, feeling so hot and wet, my body craving special attention that only he could give, as he continued kissing me. "Hikaru…. We should stop" I tried to say once more a few minutes later, as he continued to kiss my neck, but stopped. "why Haruhi? What's wrong?" he asked, slightly confused as he caressed my cheek, his thumb slipping over my bottom lip. "Oh God…… why did I have to say something" the less logical and more sexually aroused part of me asked, as I shuddered to his touch, then tried to clear my thoughts and speak once more.
"it's late and I'm really tired. I just thought that…." I lied, or at least tried to, as his deep, gentle, hazel eyes stared deep into mine, so hypnotizing, as his slightly parted lips drew closer to mine. "yes?" he whispered, making me shudder as he began to kiss my cheek, then jaw line, and neck. "what is it Haruhi?" he said between kisses, as I stumbled over my words. "we should….. Mmmmm…. I mean…. oooooh" I melted, as his lips continued to taunt and torture the soft, nubile, flesh on my neck. "what is it? What should we do, or stop doing Haruhi" Hikaru whispered. "stop." I replied abruptly, pushing him away, somewhat wishing I hadn't. "ok. I get it" he replied calmly. "you can sleep in my room as usual" "thank you" I replied, no longer feeling sleepy, but quickly trudged up to the familiar bed, which was so well made that I regretted messing it up.
I slipped off my boyish, big plaid button down shirt, baggy, yet form fitting jeans, sneakers, under shirt, socks, bindings and sports bra. I then lightly wrapping my arms around my well developed breasts and suddenly thought of how odd I was acting. That is, until Hikaru suddenly knocked on the door, causing me to jump in surprise. "yes?" I asked, wrapping my arms tighter around myself and approaching the door. "I just came by to drop this off to you" Hikaru replied, opening the door slightly, only sliding a hand in to offer me a white shirt. "thank you" I replied, quickly accepting it and slipping it on, then opening the door fully and smiling.
"good night" Hikaru smiled back, gently touching my cheek, a blush creeping across both our cheeks. "goodnight. Sleep well" I replied, trying to avoid his soft gaze and the ever growing need in my loins that needed to be satisfied. "same to you" he replied, then left, closing the door behind him. I trudged back to Hikaru's king sized bed and stared at the ceiling for a while, silently hoping and praying that Hikaru wouldn't hear me as I relieved the ever growing pressure between my thighs. I slowly slid my hand under the elastic of my light blue panties, between my shaky legs and slowly stroked my hot wetness, feeling my cheeks flush a deep crimson and swallowed hard.
"oh God" I thought, slipping my fingers between my sopping wet folds and gently stroking my clit with my thumb, suddenly fantasizing about Hikaru and trying to suppress a moan of pleasure. "More access. I need more access" I thought pleadingly, lustfully grabbing at my panties and almost ripping them off and dropping them on the other side of the bed, before going back to pleasuring myself. I opened my legs wider and lightly teased the sensitive spot between my thighs, as my other hand found itself fondling my breasts and tweaking my receptive nipples. I imagined that my hands were his, sliding between my porcelain thighs and giving me such delicious pleasures that I could only dream about. He would smile as I would squirm and beg for him to give me a sweet release, but he only teased and kiss me tenderly. "Hikaru…" I squeaked, biting my lip and continuing sliding and dipping my fingers into my welcoming vagina, continuing my little game, as my hips bucking and I teased, continuing my lustful fantasy.
He would stop playing with my breasts and move lower toward my burning need. God, I felt so self conscious now, but oh so willing, as I spread my legs as wide as I could and let him taste me. He would lightly lick from my sopping folds to my swollen clit, then pay special attention to the engorged sensory organ as I would moan, lacing my fingers in his silky ginger hair, my eyes rolling into the back of my head. It was strange, yet so yummy to the feel, so I kept it going. Pinching, probing fondling, moaning. "ohhhhhhhh" I moaned, feeling a strange yet alluring sensation in the pit of my stomach. Building and building, like a spring coiling tighter, until…..
"Oh…." I mused, my mind going blank as I saw nothing but stars and felt as though I could touch heaven. my body now hot and slicked with sweat and my hand now covered with my sweet, sticky juices, as I came, then lightly fell back down to earth. Back down to Hikaru's warm feather bed, where I snuggled into his pillow and quickly fell into an exhausted yet satisfied asleep.
I woke to the sound of talking, but I couldn't make it out, although I knew it had something to do with me. So I picked up the phone off of the bedside table and listened in, trying my hardest not to make any noise that would indicate my nosiness:
Tamaki (in his usual frantic tone): Hello. Hikaru, have you seen Haruhi? She didn't come home today.
Hikaru (calm yet frustrated): Yes, Tamaki. In fact, she's here right now.
Tamaki (in his usual freaked out tone): WHAT IS SHE DOING AT YOUR HOUSE? SHE'S SUPPOSE TO BE HERE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HER!? GOD! I HOPE IT'S NOTHING PERVER-
Hikaru (sharply yet calmly): Tamaki quit the crap! You and I both know exactly why she's here.
Tamaki (sighing and sounding remorseful): so she saw, did she?
Hikaru (slightly outraged): is that a rhetorical question or are you serious? Of course she saw. How could you do that to her?
Tamaki: do what? All I did was tell her to decide who she wanted. Me or you-
Hikaru (cutting Tamaki off): that's not what I mean. I mean, she was only coming to tell you that she chose you, when she walked in on you while you were sleeping with another woman. Tamaki, she loved you and you broke her heart.
Tamaki: I'm sorry
Hikaru (letting out a stressed sigh and replying in an icy tone): you shouldn't be apologizing to me, you should be apologizing to her. In fact, it seems to me that she's been coming over here a lot lately.
Tamaki (somewhat freaked out again): what?
Hikaru (chuckling evilly): yeah. Maybe she should just move in.
Tamaki (going crazy): NOW SEE HERE HIKARU HITACHIIN, I WILL NOT ALLOW MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER TO STAY WITH SOME RUFFIAN-
Hikaru (cutting Tamaki off with a really bored tone): ruffian? now that's a new one. What happened to "SPAWN OF SATIN" and "LITTLE DEVIL?" it seems to me that you're going soft Tono. Or do you just hate the fact that she's always running to me when you two fight.
Tamaki (seeming speechless): what? No that can't be-
Hikaru: it is
Tamaki (accusingly): you're lying!
Hikaru (coldly): I'm not. I've watched her struggle to stay awake in class, after staying up, crying because she misses her father and you do nothing to comfort her. I've also watched her go from a size eight to a size five, because she can't eat and you constantly argue with her about her appearance. But you never noticed. It seems to me that she would do anything to make you happy, even if it means killing herself but, my God, you're so much of a damn narcissist that you can't even see it. So I'm gonna make her mine. Tonight!