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She can't remember him.
She can't remember anything, anyone, not even herself. She can't remember if it's normal to not remember things. It can't be normal, though, because he remembers. But then she thinks maybe he's the abnormal one, and normal people don't remember.
That doesn't seem right, though, so she forgets about it.
Once she forgets it, though, her mind wanders to why she can't remember. That leads to a brick wall. She can't remember anything, much less a reason for not remembering.
He remembers, though. He remembers and he told her, and the witch gave them a way to find her memories again. She wonders if she knew there were other worlds before she lost her memories, and it conforts her a little that maybe she isn't relearning everything, that she's learning some things she didn't know before.
It still hurts that she can't tell the difference.
Not as much as it hurts to not remember him though.
She doesn't think anything can hurt as much as that, though of course she can't remember, so doesn't really know. Still, she has a feeling she's never suffered that much.
Maybe she could rely on that feeling a little more if she didn't think that it came from the idea that she was a princess, and that princesses were to be protected. She wouldn't even know that if he wasn't always protecting her. She can't remember if she was protected.
In her head, though, she knows she was protected. Probably by him, too. And that brings it all back to focus.
She can't remember him. She can't remember who he was to her, she can't remember who she was to him. Sure, he's told her, but her personality can't have changed that much with just a memory adjustment, can it? Right now, she can't be just a figure to someone who gives so much to protect her. She wants to be his friend.
Whenever she asks about her past life, as she's begun to refer to it in her head, he gets this pained exprecion in his eyes, and she thinks maybe she really did change.
She must have been truly mean before she forgot, and maybe she deserves to have forgotten.
But then he tells her a little about her past, and it doesn't sound as if she changed.
There's some things she can remember now, but not him. No matter how many feathers she gets back, it's never a memory of him. Every time, she wishes for a memory of him, a chance to see him as she knew him before, but every time she's dissapointed.
If he wasn't so incredibly loyal to her she'd swear that he hadn't actually met her before her memories went.
Whatever happens, though, she suposes she can make new memories. What she really wants, though, is to make memories with him as her friend, not just her servant. He fits better that way.
But, acording to him, that's all they ever were.