L...Interrupted

The young man sighed heavily as he stared laboriously at the computer screen in front of him; it had been over 30 days since he'd been chained to the Detective in charge of the Kira case, in which he was the main suspect. He was tired; physically tired because the pale gaunt man whom he had been chained to never seemed to sleep, mentally tired because this same man with eyes that seemed too big, too black somehow, was constantly watching him, suspecting him, testing him and emotionally tired; because as much as he fervently denied it, as much as he was disgusted at the thought of being accused of being such a monster, some small part of him questioned.

Could I have been Kira? I mean is it even possible, to have such specific memory loss? Could I actually kill someone? Could I wish death on everyone in this room including my father? Could I...?

This was what tired him the most, for he had always thought himself to be Light Yagami, a man of morals, a man of justice, a man of the law, hoping to follow in his father's footsteps, and yet a sickening rotten twisting whisper within him always replied the same way...yes...it was possible, and given certain circumstances, he had the potential. This thought, over and over, made him worse than exhausted, he was infected by it.

He glanced up slightly and was caught off guard in the main beam of L's gaze. L, Ryuuzaki, the detective in charge of the case, the man he was handcuffed to, the man who was the only other person in the room to suspect what he was capable of, and who was currently staring at him with a very puzzled wide eyed expression;

'Light? Is everything ok? Only you've been staring at me intently now for the last seven and a half minutes...'

Light felt a rush of blood assault his cheeks as he quickly averted his gaze.

'Sorry Ryuuzaki, I'm just tired, that's all...' He trailed off.

It was the truth anyway, wasn't it?

'It is I who should be sorry Light; after all, it is unfair of me to expect you to adopt my nocturnal habits...'

Light felt his face flush again slightly...much to his annoyance.

'I mean just because I'm an insomniac, and we happen to be chained together for the purposes of this investigation, should mean you having to put your health at risk. I can finish off this work tomorrow; you are clearly in need of some rest.'

L finished, before turning to switch off his computer. The large hotel suit they used as their headquarters was empty now except for them; everyone else had gone home to their families hours ago.

Light barely had enough energy to drag himself up the stairs to the room he and Ryuuzaki shared.

They slept on a large king-size bed, (they had originally had twin single beds, but soon found that either one or both of them would end up on the floor in-between the beds in the morning on account of the chain between them pulling one or the other out of bed.)

Although neither of them had discussed their new sleeping arrangements, they had immediately found themselves respective opposite sides of the bed, as far from each other as was physically possible. In truth there was enough room for a whole single bed between them, but the expanse of 'no-man's land' was comfortably accepted as a buffer in case one or the other should accidentally pull too hard on the chain in their sleep. To this point that had never happened, and so they saw their sides as individual beds.

Lights side was meticulous and minimal; with only a reading lamp, an alarm clock and his watch (when he had taken it off to sleep). His pyjamas were always folded neatly on top of his pillow.

On the other hand Ls half of the bed was very rarely made at all, and his bedside table was strewn with sweet wrappers and reams of paper with his scrawling handwritten notes all over them, L usually brought his Lap top up to the room with him since he didn't sleep anyway, and he would sit there all night in his usual way lightly tapping away at the keyboard.

L brushed his teeth while Light showered, they had mastered the art of being able to perform their night time rituals in the bathroom in some sort of synchronised, choreographed way that allowed them both the maximum amount of privacy.

Light shrugged off his suit trousers, tie and shirt in a daze, he left them lying where they fell on the floor tonight, L's brow raised slightly, the boy must be tired, he was normally almost obsessive about folding his clothes neatly.

With the last of his strength Light crawled into bed, and was asleep before his head hit the pillow.

He dreamed.

In this dream he seemed to be floating in a vortex of names and faces, spinning around him so fast that he was unable to focus on any of them, they were nothing but a jumbled up mess of letters, eyes noses, a lip, an ear, a freckle. He was unable to pick out one familiar face or name, and he was falling. As he fell the vortex continued to spin around him and he continued to try and focus on something familiar, an R, a dark spike of hair, a Z, a chin, an eye, no, HIS eye, an L...L!

Hope...and some other indistinguishable feeling...warm...

' L!'

Suddenly he was running, through his college campus which he knew so well and yet seemed so unfamiliar, so terrifying to him now, he knew he was being followed, and he knew it was Kira. The campus seemed too brightly lit, like flood lights on a sports field, almost blinding, but he knew that if Kira saw his face, he would be dead. So he ran, ran for his life. He searched for shadow, and found none, he tried every door, they were all locked, but he could hear the footsteps getting closer and closer, and the lights were so bright! He was certain that he would be dead at any moment, his heart was pounding in his chest...this is it...it's over...!

Suddenly a strong arm grabbed him from behind, and dragged him into the darkness.

He screamed and flailed his arms and legs in sheer terror. 'Shhhhhhhhh! It's ok, Shhhhhh, your safe now' he heard a soft voice say calmly, that voice...? It was so familiar to him, comforting, caring. He strained to see, it seems that whoever it was had pulled him into some sort of storage cupboard, and it was pitch black. He struggled to regain his breath.

'It's Kira! He's out there! Oh God! We're going to die...!'He began to panic, trying to stand up, the room seemed to be getting smaller, he couldn't breathe...! Suddenly strong arms wrapped themselves around him and kept him still, while a voice, so close he could feel breath on his ear, spoke softly again, that same sweet voice, it stilled him for a moment, 'I know Light, it's ok, I know, don't worry, we're safe here.'

The tenderness in this persons voice was so earnest, he felt safe, suddenly, like they were hidden in a place that Kira could never find them. Light felt an arm around his waist, and one around his chest reaching to his shoulder and he collapsed back into the arms of his saviour. He rested his head back, and to his surprise he felt the warmth of another's cheek against his, his breathing slowed and he was overcome with emotion.

This person had risked their life to save him from the bright light, from Kira, and they now lay tangled in each other's arms in the darkness. Skin against skin, cheek against cheek, their breaths intermingling. Light turned into the embrace that was surrounding him, he felt so grateful, no, it was more than that, this person was here for him, as if they needed each other here in the dark, as if nothing else in the world mattered but being in each other's arms.

Why couldn't he see anything? He turned around, and reached up to feel, to see if he could find something familiar in that person's features...but he could not, they were formless, but he could feel the breath of another blowing against his lips. He didn't think. He grabbed hold of this being, this entity that had brought him here, that had saved him, that needed him, and he plunged forwards into a kiss that overwhelmed him so much...he began to weep, uncontrollably.

Light opened his eyes disorientated suddenly, there was light here, and he realised he was in his bed, with tears streaming down his face, he was panting, and shaking, and he realised (much to his confusion) he was hard, he could feel his member throbbing between his legs, he looked up and realised that he was still clinging for dear life to...L!

L lay Rigid, not knowing what to do.

He had been in the middle of looking through some files that Wateri had sent him when the boy had started having some sort of nightmare, and had began moving fitfully in his sleep, when he had called out his name begging him to help, he had tried to soothe the boy, had gently held him still at arm's length to stop him from thrashing about so much, and had tried to speak to him.

He was unsure what one was supposed to say in such situations, as the only experience he'd had with such things were at the orphanage, when one of the other boys had started crying, and a kindly voice would whisper to them 'shhhh, your safe'. So he had tried that. However Light seemed to get more distressed and started shouting something about Kira going to kill them both.

It was only then that he realised just how much strain he'd been putting on light. He seemed terrified, and L, not knowing what else to do, had put his arms around him to try and calm him down a bit. That was when things had gotten...well, truly he didn't know how they had gotten, only that he was suddenly the one who was scared, as he had never been hugged before, certainly not with so much emotion. He'd simply frozen, unsure of what to do next.

It wasn't that it was an unpleasant feeling, it was just, completely alien to him, and for the first time in his life he'd felt lost, inexperienced, and unable to process a situation. It was in the middle of this thought that Light had done something which made his brain literally stop working, another first. Light had pulled his face to within millimetres of his, and had kissed him.

At this point things went blank. L had certainly read about such things, and knew all there was to know about sexual intercourse, and such, I mean he'd read about it to great extents, such things held great fascination to him, mostly he supposed because it was something he had never and in all likelihood would ever experience, and yet here he was, being passionately kissed, by his main suspect! He'd also registered something hardening against his hip, but he was too overwhelmed himself to give it any thought.

He could feel something odd, like a pressure building in his lower abdomen, and he felt his heart and respiratory rate begin to quicken. How fascinating!

Suddenly Light pulled away, and he felt sad, he had never been kissed before, and the reaction it had produced was certainly something he wanted to explore further. He was debating what the correct protocol would be if he wanted to kiss Light back, he was asleep after all, so would it not be classed as some sort of assault?

L suddenly became aware that Light was awake, and realised that the boy must be mortified, especially with him lying in his arms as stiff as a corpse; it might make him think that he was not happy about what had just happened, when in fact it was quite the opposite.

For a moment the two men lay there frozen in their respective positions, both unsure of what to do. Light suddenly went to push away, but L held him firm, and turned to look into his Hazel eyes, L's own black orbs were wide in shock and surprise, he had one eyebrow arched and he gave him a puzzled look before saying simply;

'Er...you appeared to be having some sort of a nightmare...'

'Yes,' said Light, 'I'm so sorry Ryuuzaki, I...it won't happen again...I...I didn't mean to...'

'It's quite alright, I found the experience quite pleasant actually, considering you are the first person who has ever really touched me, I mean apart from to shake hands, and other such formalities.'

Light was stunned! He had been crushed with embarrassment when he had woken up! When he realised how his erection had been pressing against L's hip, he'd wanted the ground to open up and swallow him! And here was Ryuuzaki saying that he found it 'pleasant'? What made it worse was he now vaguely recollected his dream, and realised that the person he'd longed for with every ounce of his being had in fact been L the whole time. Did he...?

'Er...Ryuuzaki...?...Did I...Did I kiss you...?'

'Yes, and I have to say the real thing is much more of an intense experience than I was lead to believe...'

'Wait...you mean...you've never been kissed?'

'Er...no...that was my first...'

Light was suddenly overwhelmed with emotion for this man, just as he had been in the dark of his dream, and without thinking he moved his hand to rest lightly on his cheek.

'Hh...' L gasped slightly at the touch

'Sorry-'

'No, don't stop...I like it...this feeling...it's so curious...' L suddenly looked forlorn

'What you must think of me Light, Like a child, I may have an unparalleled knowledge of all things, but it is only...in theory...I feel stupid for the first time in my life' L looked away.

Lights eyes welled with tears of affection for this beautiful genius, he took L's head in both of his hands once again, and this time they kissed each other with purpose, Ryuuzaki tensed at first as he got used to the feel of another's lips on his, then he relaxed and let Light slowly part his lips with his tongue, after a few moments L caught the rhythm and began to kiss back, passionately,

Light ran his hand down L's arm down to his hip, and then, gently, slid his hand underneath L's white shirt...