a/n: Hey everyone! This story, will have 3 Chapters, so quite short. It's kind of a sequel to 'You and I', one of my Dramione oneshots, but I am redoing the first chapter, so sorry if it's a little repetitive of You and I. I was going to do a straight 'Goodbye My Lover' inspired fic, but I thought that it would probably be a little too similar to 'You and I' and the idea of combining it with a Ben Lee inspried 'Gamble everything for Love' story kept popping into my head. Also, the You and I reviews i got, (all four!) said they wanted a sequel...so here it is.
Disclaimer: JK owns anything you recognise from the books, James Blunt owns Goodbye my Lover, but the plot is mine!
GAMBLE EVERYTHING FOR LOVE
Chapter 1 - Goodbye My Lover
Hermoine sat on a desk in the Charms clasroom, swinging her legs in time to a tune in her head. She was smiling to her self as she waited, excitement evident on her face. The door swung open and Hermione's he head snapped around and watched as he came into the room.
"You're here!" She jumped off the desk, propelling herself onto him, kissing him as soon as she was close enough. He immediately wrapped his arms around her, holding her so tightly Hermione thought she was going to break in two. She pulled back, worried.
"Draco...what's wrong?" He didn't answer, instead just stayed holding her, breathing in the scent of her hair, his eyes closed, swaying slightly on his feet.
"Hermione, we need to talk," Draco said slowly his eyes still shut. A sharp pain constricted in Hermione's chest, suddenly breathing wasn't coming as easily anymore.
"About?" Hermione asked tentatively, a million different thoughts running through her head...He's in love with Pansy Parkinson, He's secretly been seeing someone behind my back, He was just in it for a bet...Anything like that would be fine...
"I'm not in love with Pansy, I haven't been seeing anyone behind your back, I'm definitely not in it for a bet." Draco could read the thoughts running through her mind as easily if she had been saying them out loud.
"It's about Voldemort isn't it?" Hermione managed to choke out, her eyes now clenched shut, her hands clutching at Draco's school shirt.
"Who, if you think about it, is actually worse than Pansy Parkinson."
"How is that supposed to make me feel better?"
"I'm not sure really...it seemed like a good thing to say at the time."
"What do you have to do?"
"Well, for the time being, stay in school, but over the Christmas Break, I have to go to this house...stay there the whole time, I'm not sure what for really. Voldemort want's me to spy on Dumbledore from a different perspective to Snape. He thinks Dumbledore might say different stuff to head boy. I suppose a bright spot is that I can spy for the order."
"Draco, you could die." Hermione's eyes began to well up with tears, and Draco pulled her in close.
Did I dissapoint you? Or Let you Down?
Should I be feeling guilty? Let the judges frown.
Cause I saw the end, before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded,
And I knew I had won.
"You know what this means don't you?" Draco asked softly. "We have to end it."
"What? Why?" Hermione pulled back from his embrace.
"You know why Hermione. If anyone found out about this. Anyone at all, it could mean we both die. Who knows? Someone finds out and it's all over the school in minutes. And if it's all over the school, then Voldemort knows."
"Oh my god, why did we even start this? You knew what was going to happen, you knew it would end up like this!" Hermione was getting worked up easily, and Draco's reply didn't calm her down much initially.
"I did. Hermione I knew this couldn't last. Why did we even start this? Because we kept meeting in the library. Because you had the last copy of that Potions manual. Because I love you. Hermione I would do anything to spend even an hour with you. Thats why. Because it was so good while it lasted, that thinking about you will sustain me whenever I'm gone."
So I took what's mine, by eternal right.
Took your soul out, into the night.
It may be over but it wont stop that,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
"You always have such good answers Draco. And I wouldn't for a million galleons go back, re-do anything. But I just don't know what I'd do without you."
"I'm not going to be gone completely. I'll be in school mostly until Christmas break, and even though I don't think we should meet again, I'm still going to be here for you. We have to patrol together anyway, so we would see each other then. Even if we have to keep pretending we hate each other."
"You're really sounding like you want this Draco...we have to patrol together anyway. It's like I'm something that has to be fitted it, and it's handy that we have to patrol together."
"Hermione, you're being irrational. I am saying this because I want to protect you. Because I love you. Because I don't think I would be able to cope if anything happened to you. And it'd be even worse if something happened to you because you and I are together. If something happened to you because I couldn't let you go? Hermione I wouldn't survive without you with me. I just wouldn't".
You touched my heart, you touched my soul,
Changed my life and all my goals.
Love is blind, that I knew,
My heart was blinded by you.
The tears in Hermione's eyes spilled down her cheeks, and she pressed her face into Draco's chest. Draco forced himself to keep talking, knowing that if he stopped now, he wouldn't get to say everything he wanted to.
"Hermione, do you even realise the effect you've had on me? You turned my life around. Until we got together, my sole ambition was to inherit. Preferably early. I was an awful person. I picked on you because you were an easy target. I was an arrogant dickhead, so put it simply. Just being with you has had the biggest impact on my life, and I have no idea how I can repay you. I'm almost happy because I can help out the Order, and do something towards making myself someone who is worthy of you. Hermione, at the risk of sounding like Celine Dion, so much has happened just because you loved me. Hell, I know who Celine Dion is, I'd say that's my most impressive achievement to date." Draco's attempt to make Hermione laugh elicited a weak giggle (still into his now damp shirt) but nothing more.
I've kissed your lips, and held your head,
Shared your dreams and shared your bed,
I know you well, I know your smell,
I've been addicted to you.
"Come on Hermione," Draco cajoled, "I know you're dying to say something. I can tell."
"I don't want you to go. I don't want you to feel like you have to prove anything to me, or to Harry, or the Order or anyone. But I know you can't not go. You'd probably die. I don't want that to happen. I just, hate the idea that I'll be sitting here in Hogwarts, worrying and worrying about absolutely everything that could be happening to you throughout the whole of the winter break, while you're going to be off helping out side. I can't do anything. Nothing. Do you know why? Because it's too high risk. Because I'm one of Harry's best friends. Do you know how awful it is to know that if something happens, I won't be the first to know, because no one knows about us. Not even Dumbledore, or Harry, or Ron, the only three other people that know you're going to be a spy. In fact, if something awful happens, there will be no way in hell I can leave here to come to you because - "
"Hermione you can't leave Hogwarts for anything. Not for anything. No matter what you hear. I know you, I know you're going to want to be out there, but you have to stay here where you'll be safe. I know you'll be itching to go with Harry wherever it is he goes over some weekends, but you just can't. It's like you said, it's much too high a risk. I know you'll feel like you want to explode inside from not doing anything, it's how I've felt up until now. But you just have to stay safe, for me."
Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one, you have been the one for me.
Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one, you have been the one for me.
Hermione finally looked up at Draco, meeting his eyes for the first time. His grey eyes were staring fiercely back at her. He lent in and gently pressed his lips to hers, and was startled when Hermione kissed him back forcefullyher hands around the back of his head, pulling him in closer. He kissed her back just as agressively, snaking his arms around her waist, holding her hips posessively. They kissed hungrily, knowing that it would be one of the last times they could be together for a long while. One of Draco's hands moved to Hermione's hair, tipping her head back a little, the other hand sliding under her robes, holding her back more closely. Hermione moaned into the kiss, then pulled away suddenly, breathing hard.
"Draco, we can't, we have to finish...this is just making it harder to leave."
I am a dreamer, and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit, it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me.
Remember us and all we used to be.
"We're not really splitting up you know," Draco said, running a hand through his mussed up hair. "You could move on while I'm gone, thinking back at us, a fond memory in your mind. Or you could do what I'm hoping, and know that when this is over well be able to be together, not in secret, mind you. It's the thought of you, and the dream that we'll be together once Potter has done his hero thing, that will sustain me, give me something that I know I have to live out this war for."
"I won't be moving on. It's like you said, it's thinking of us together that will get me through the day. It'll be something inside that no-one, not even a dementor can take."
"Because Hermione, you're the basis for my patronus."
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile,
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child,
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears, and you know mine,
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear thats true.
I cannot live without you.
Hermione had tears in her eyes again at this, but smiled through them, blushing a little under Draco's steady gaze.
"I love you Draco."
"Just promise me one thing. When all this is over, when Voldemort's gone, and when Potter reigns supreme, gag, you'll be mine. Forever. It's not a proposal, but I just want you to know that I couldn't think of anything I want more than to be with you forever. I don't care if you want nine children, if you want to fire the houseelves, anything really and I'd do it in a heart beat just to spend my life with you. I know it's the weirdest relationship in the world, and I know that at first I was like 'what is going on', and I know it's completely out of character for me, but you're the one. I know you so well it's like I'm inside your head sometimes, and sometimes, I feel that the only way to get close enough to you would be if we were sharing the same skin. You're the other half of me, you complete me."
Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one, you have been the one for me.
Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one, you have been the one for me.
Draco stood looking at Hermione as he said this, then without warning crashed his lips down on hers, kissing her thoroughly one last time. He pulled away then whispered in her ear.
And I still hold you hand in mine,
in mine when I'm asleep.
and I will bear my soul in time
when I'm kneeling at your feet.
"As long as you want it, I'm here for you. I'll visit you in your dreams, and contact you with this once I've gone. I love you." Draco held her tightly for a second more, pressing something into her hand, while Hermione whispered I love you, then turned and walked out the door, not allowing himself to look back at her again. Hermione watched him go, and let the tears she had been holding back flow freely down her face. She sank to the floor and just cried. The school bell rang, signalling the start of dinner. Hermione dried her face, fixed her hair and red eyes with a couple of quick spells, straightened her robes and left the Charms classroom. She looked down at the thing Draco had given her. It turned out to be tiny locket on a gold chain. She opened it to find a minature photo of Draco and her which she had taken with her wand. She reached up and closed the clasp around her neck. As soon as she let go of it, it vanished, yet she could still feel it against her neck. She touched it lightly with her hand and it reappeared momentarily. Hermione could feel her eyes pricking with tears again, she opened the locket once more, looked hungrily at the photo within before she hurried down to dinner.
Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one, you have been the one for me.
Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one, you have been the one for me.
a/n: So, what do you think? Hopefully you like it, only one way to let me know! More to come soon.