A/N I decided to start out fresh and new. My other fan fics are not up to par with what I wanted to express in my writing. I welcome comments and suggestions but I will not read flames so don't bother sending them. Read and review!

He had it, and I needed it. Desperately.

There were things in this world that had no reasoning behind them, no rational explanation to why they existed. Like us humans; we destroy so much and yet give almost little to nothing in return. If god created something in his image it would be the farthest thing from us as possible. The closest thing to god is him… a youkai of incredible power, one of many but yet so few in numbers compared to us. However these types of demons are cold, calculating, and malicious. Why shouldn't they play god? They have the power and the will to dominate all life… well maybe not all life. However he now has it, the power to do whatever he wished and we could do nothing to stop him. I could do nothing to stop him…

I remember the battle so well. I watched my friends be cut down before my eyes. I watched my innocent baby fox demon bleed his life blood at my feet, his fading green eyes begging for the pain to stop however I could do nothing to help him. I was weak, powerless. Inuyasha… He was so rash yet so brave my heart hurt the most when he fell last, also at my feet for he was the one that protected me against the death blow of his attack.

His attack… There was nothing that I wanted more then to strike down my opponent, make him suffer a hundred times fold for what he did to my friends… But he had it… And now I needed it. Desperately.

Something inside me snapped. I felt the weight of the world fall on my shoulder and then the world became so dark. I don't know of the events that passed beyond that point and I never really cared. I awoke on the ground covered in blood and the shining jewel clenched painfully in my hand. The bodies of my companions had been moved, taken or quite possibly eaten by some animal for I was unsure how long I slept for. I was sorrow.

I cried then; cried for my fallen companions because I knew I could never bring them back. No matter how much I loved them I could not bring this sorrow on the thousands of lives that would be lost if I were to make my selfish wish upon the jewel. I was endurance.

Something happened then that I did not expect. The jewel glowed with a frightening light that soothed my soul and calmed my fears. I was not alone. I could endure this burden for as long as I needed for I had each and every loving memory of my beloved companions. Yet even the ache of losing my family could not be fully extinguished even by the healing light of the sacred jewel.

I wandered the woods for hours, possibly even days. Time, hunger, and exhaustion meant nothing to me. I felt that I could no longer feel. I knew it was only time before a demon sought out the complete sacred jewel and I was prepared for it. I was preservation.

I don't know what caused this drastic change in my personality but I welcomed it. I was so strong yet felt almost nothing. I faintly realized that the sun was coming over the horizon yet the blood red colour disturbed me more then it should.

I was once again on my hands and knees. I could not stop the tears from falling. My soul… it was so shattered that I wasn't sure how the jewel shone with such purity. I felt tainted, defiled. The only thing that kept me going was my will to live not only for myself but for every person who suffered for the sake of this cursed jewel. The jewel seemed to have accepted me and protected me with its glowing light but like the embrace of a loving mother it could only protect me for my deepest level of sorrow. I am despair.

I tried to crush it in my hands but I knew it would do no good. And then I felt it; a strong demonic aura coming my way. The jewel was bound to attract some form of attention and I did not know if I could fend off whatever it was. However I wasn't scared anymore. There was no one left to protect me but myself and I would be damned if I let another person get a hold of this jewel. There were so many sacrifices made to obtain this… I would never let it go.

I stood up to face this familiar aura and it was then that it hit me. He didn't die in the battle however I wasn't surprised… And he was coming to claim the only thing that I had left. However he was going to have to pry it from my cold dead hands.

"Miko… You are holding something that does not belong to you yet how you acquired it is beyond me" he whispered, his mouth only inches from my ear. I jumped back and my barrier was up, he smirked at this "You let the deaths of your friends be in vain Kagome. They died to save you and for what? You think that barrier will keep me out? You are so weak."

My barrier was shattered in a ray of rainbow crystals and I felt my resolve faulter. He was right. Those amber eyes made my heart hurt. They were so like his… How I wished for his power. I wanted to be strong and powerful so I could prevent something like this from happening again.

Before I could act the world started to shake. The ground beneath me shook with such intensity that everything was a blur. The jewel shone with such animosity that it was then that I realized my mistake. I gasped in horror as my wish came true. I watched at the normally calm and collected man who stood before me was brought to his knees. A light of such brightness shone from him and was thrown at me. It entered my body with such force that I was knocked over onto my back.

My wish had come true. The once powerful demon was now brought to his knees. His power was now mine. Sesshomaru, the lord of the western lands was now human.