Acknowledge Me?

by MoonTwin

Stiles is a lonely outed gay boy, who had a crush on a man that would never like him back, who is lost in his thoughts all the time, who was abused as a friend, who had nightmares because of one night when he was a little boy. He tries so hard to be acknowledged but no one ever looks his way, not even his so called "friends". He has no one to turn to, he's alone.

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! I awoke as my alarm went off, I groaned and shut the damn thing off as I rolled out of bed. Great, another day at school, another day alone. It seems that my so called "friends", would leave me alone once more. I swear, I wish I was dead already, being picked on by most of the school was already enough, I don't need for my 'friends' to leave me alone either.

I got in the shower as I heard my dad leave in his cruiser, gosh, even my own father leaves me alone, we haven't talked in a long time, and by long time I mean 2 weeks long time. I got out of the shower as soon as I was done and headed into my room for fresh clothes to wear. I changed into my clothes and got my Jeep's keys and started heading out of the house and into my car, off my way to school.

I parked in my usual parking spot and went into the school. Today was just like any other day, Scott would drool over Allison and ignore me, Jackson would threaten me, Lydia would too ignore me, Allison would be too busy with Scott to acknowledge me, Isaac, Erica, and Boyd would be doing their own thing and push me away,and if I saw Derek today he would just threaten me and growl. So instead of going to lunch, I went to the library, I find comfort in learning new things, being stuck in my head to think a lot.

I grab a book from my pack and start getting lost in it, and I loose track of time as the bell rings signaling I have to get to class. I quickly grab my things and head over to my next class. I head over to desk and wait for Scott to show up, to ask him if wants to hang out tonight or someday this week.

"Scott,", I whisper as soon as he shows up and the bell rings.

"What?," he ask a bit of annoyance in his voice.

"Do you want to hang out tonight or someday this week?." I ask.

"I won't be able to, Allison and I are studying after school this whole week, and we'll be double dating this weekend with Jackson and Lydia," he flatly stated.

"Well maybe next week?," I ask.

He doesn't respond, and I can't help but feel like I did something wrong to be treated this way, even by my own friend. In that moment I can't help but go down memory lane and remember everything Scott and I went through when we were younger. I remember how we met, how we became friends, how his mom and my dad knew each other because he went to the hospital a lot when my mom was sick, I remembered how we had sleepovers almost every week when we were young, how he still owed me $5 since we were ten. Remembering all those thing brought a smile to my face, but it also hurt, because I was afraid I didn't have that friend anymore.

The day was over and I headed to my screwed up Jeep, and tried to turn on the engine, but it wouldn't budge. I sighed, got my things and got out of the car. I locked it, and started heading my way home.

"Hey fag! You can go suck a dick and fuck yourself!", a boy yelled from out the window of a truck, and before I knew it, he threw an open bottle of coke on me.

Great, no I have to walk home dripping and sticky, and I also have to take another shower. That is exactly what I did, but by the time I was home the sun started to set and it was already dark when I was done with my shower. I headed into room and cried myself to sleep that night, I was unwanted, that was a fact, no one wants Stiles Stilinski. I also had trouble sleeping that night, just like most nights, ever since that one day.