Not over you by gavin degraw-

"Not Over You"

It's been a month since I made the single biggest mistake of my life, since I left Alec. Now the only place I can see his beautiful face is in my dreams. Here I am, the high warlock of Brooklyn, siting on my couch listing to the radio and staring at a picture of him.

I hope there will come a day when I see him again, we will work it out and everything will go back to the way it was… no that's not going to happen, things will never be the same… but we can be together again. Until then, it isolation, alienation, I know that much for sure.

I swear the world has it out for me, playing a song like that, at a time like this, but as I listen more, the words fit so perfectly. If anyone, even Tessa, where t ask me how is was doing, I would reply with a simple 'fine'. I would not say a word about Alec, or that where not together anymore. I sit order take out for two, no matter what I say, I'm no over him

Damn him, he caught my heart without even realizing it. I remember how shocked he was when I told him I loved him. the innocent blue eyes that stared at me in disbelief. Everything makes my heart hurt. Alec is even more magnificent than me. I have been through so much that normally, petty things like a break up would affect me, I would be back to normal in less than a week, even better than before. But not now, not without him.

If I had a chance to do it all again, I would do it all. I would tell Alec about my past of it would keep him from going to Cameil. I would turn around in that subway tunnel and take it all back; I kiss him until I lost my mind, if I haven't already. I would do it all the right way, but only if he would believe me, accept my apologies
So until then...

Until then I will continue lying about my mental state and pretend everything is fine. Then I will go home and cry till there are no tears left.
Those all-to-true words play again, each time with new meaning. I'm not over Alec and I'm not going to be, I want him back and I'm going to get him back

so I have been informed that using song lyrics is forbidden and punishable by death, so here is my first lyric-free chapter