A/N: So this is the really long handwritten one I have been telling you all about and its taken me about 3 months to get it this long but it's well worth it, or atleast, I think it is!

Enjoy!

Kurt Hummel has always tried to be straight with people which had proved to be very difficult as it turned out that he was Gay - with a capital G.

It was actually quite obvious, but no-one had ever really noticed. Kurt himslef hadn't noticed until he was 8 years old but he had managed to keep it well hidden since. He played it cool, acted like other guys - even though it killed him to be so unfasionable - played on the football team, talked about sports... You know, did regular boy stuff.

It had been really working for a while too. He hadn't bee slushied, he hadn't been shoved into the lockers and he hadn't been thrown into any dumpsters yet either. But that was because only he and his dad knew about his sexual orientation.

But that was just the problem for Kurt. Having to hide who he really was was a struggle for the teen. He was sick and tired of being this fake person that fell into the mold of ordinary just for the sake of his own self. He wanted to be Kurt again - like when he was 5 years old and he could do whatever he pleased without any of the other kids knowing any better.

But he couldn't be himslef because he knew that if he was then people would frwon down upon him. Homophobia wasn't uncomon in the small town of Lima, Ohio. Gay people just weren't accepted here.

McKinley High was Kurts home away from home and he didn't want to loose that because of his little secret. He was well aware of what would happen and what he would have to do if anyone found out.

Kurts father - Burt - could see how unhappy Kurt really was and it killed him. Burt didn't really talk to his son much, not since Elizabeth had died. Things had been hard because Burt was dealing with the death of his wife and being a single parent and Kurt was dealing with the loss of his mother who was the only person who really knew, understood and accepted him for all that he was. She was the only person that Kurt really talk to without fear of being judged.

Burt had been talking with Kurt though recently. It was his junior year and Burt wanted Kurt to have a brilliant high school career chocked full of expiriences but he also wanted Kurt to just be happy and be himself. Seeing Kurt so incredibly depressed all the time wasn't how high school was meant to be for him. So Burt talked to Kurt about coming out.

Kurt had to think it through though. He didn't want to do anything that might make his life more dificult - more than it already was atleast - so he really thought it through. Whilst he was deep in his thoughts though Kurt had accidentally walked into someone, a girl. She appeared to have impeccable taste in fasion and Kurt knew that if he were to come out when he was friends with this girl then he might just have 1 friend left...

"Oh, I'm sorry! I didn't see you there..." Kurt said, extending his left arm for her to shake his hand, "I'm Kurt Hummel,"

"Mercedes Jones," She said, shaking his hand roughly.

Kurt and Mercedes became quick firneds which made quite a few of the guys Kurt hung out with curious but Kurt was smart enough and knew just what to say to cover it up. As their friendship strengthened Kurt found a new level of Trust with Mercedes and finally bult up the courage to tell her the truth.

"Mercedes, I have to tell you something, but you have to promise to keep it a secret until I'm ready for everyone to know... Can you do that for me? Please?" Kurt asked Mercedes confidently.

"Sure, K, you know I'm the person to trust with a secret." She replied, watching Kurt take a deep breath before he continued.

"Well, you know how I've always had an eye for Fashion? And how I've never had a girlfriend? There is a rather reasonable explaination behind that..." Kurt stopped for a second, looking up from his hands to see Mercedes anxiously awaiting the rest of his confession, "Well...um...it's because...I'm...I'm gay..." He finally finished, looking up and locking eyes with Mercedes.

She just laughed before enveloping Kurt into a big bear hug.

"Oh Honey, I've known since the moment I met you..!" She said, pulling him back far enough to look at his face and, for the first time in a long time, Kurt had the most Genuine smile on his tear stained cheeks.