"You can't sit around and miss him forever Lydia, you're to pretty to be upset like this" Jackson didn't say goodbye to me, he didn't wave he didn't kiss my goodbye he just drove away and left me in the driveway. He didn't even look back so I've been sitting daily staring at my lap. I go to class I don't answer questions I just miss him and no one seems to understand but when he sat down with me at lunch I didn't look at him but I could smell the cheap cologne he wore. But he called me pretty- he's been calling me beautiful, pretty, amazing for years but I just ignored him because well he was Stiles and what does he have. Finally he was playing lacrosse instead of sitting on the bench looking pathetic, when I looked up at him he had a fry hanging from his mouth and was mid sentence with Scott. I had weird…friend's I guess you could call him. When he looked back at me I wanted to wipe the ketchup from his cheek but Scott figured it out before I could lift my arm and I watched him frantically wipe his face off.

After lunch he caught my books as they fell from my hands in the hall and wouldn't let me take them back until I sat down at my desk he arranged them on my desk like I always did, notebook on my right, text book open to the chapter we left off on folders under my notebook and he put my phone which he caught on top of my desk book. I watched him do this and I didn't move when Stiles walked to the other side of the room and sat with Scott like nothing happened I looked to Jackson's empty seat. He wouldn't have even stood with me when I picked up my books. I was still considered to be a little loony in school but it had gotten better and I watched Stiles for a moment. His hair was longer and he didn't look half bad, must have bulked up a little over the vacation. I smiled at myself why was I noticing Stilinski? The rest of the class I was focused on the work- last five minutes I got up and before I knew it he and Scott were walking out ahead of me. I slung my bag over my shoulder and I as best as I could in my heels trotted up behind him pushing him against a locker, his shocked expression made it hard to be serious he was a bigger drama queen than I was.

"After school you don't have practice?" I asked and he nodded still in pain looking at Scott who stood not a few feet away. "Mall, meet me at my house and get your car washed beforehand" I said before tapping his chest- what the hell happened to Stiles his chest was never that hard and I looked at my hand before removing it and walking away. Most of the day afterward was a blur boring an I didn't to much care. Allison drove me home because she had been stuck to my side most of the day. Yeah she broke up with Scott but she was getting clingy when I told her I was going to the mall when she stopped in front of my house she nearly invited herself.

"No- I'm going to the mall with…I can't believe I'm saying this but with Stiles and I have to focus so you go home and…write in your diary" I held up a hand to her face before she could talk and then got out of the car. "Toodles- I'll see at school tomorrow" I said and I had a plan since Stiles had either took steroids or I really am crazy and he got attractive I was going to see how attractive I could make him. Flipping my hair over my shoulder I opened my door and dropped my stuff on the bench I normally left it on. Walking upstairs I pursed my lips looking in the closet, tilting my head side to side, I didn't plan on going to the mall wearing what I wore to school I changed from my blue dress into a collar studded, tan dress and brown booties. Looking at my hair I just sprayed it and looked at the watch on my wrist smiling I walked downstairs and changed bags into a saddle bag and before I step away from the door my doorbell rang smiling slightly he was quick and opening the door I looked at an over excited Stiles out of breathe and I looked past him to no Scott but a clean car. Smiling up at him I walked past him as he stammered.

"Hi, Ly-Lyida- oh well ok" I trailed behind me before lunging forward to open my door. I patted his hand and got in his Jeep was…old but it ran so at least he had one. I walked him try to walk around the car calm and cool but he stumbled and pretended to kick his tire nodding as he got in. "Had to check the, tires…didn't want them to be- to be uhh low" he said slamming his door and starting up his jeep. I couldn't help but watch him as he drove. He'd look over at me every few minutes and get surprised that I was already looking at him. Same Stiles just different I guess.

Walking into the mall he walked beside me and was quiet for awhile. I looked at him and he froze even more looking straight ahead walking slowly well taking shorter steps to keep in time with me and when I stopped he didn't keep going like Jackson he stopped and turned around to look at me. I narrowed my eyes and tried one more thing. I walked beside him for a moment and when we came to, what was Victoria Secrets he didn't whine or say anything he sat down while I went in. From in the store I watched him as I shuffled through underwear in the front of the store he didn't pull out his phone and make himself look all around unamused he watched me and smiled ever so slightly when we made eye contact.

"He's cute" the girl who came to ask me if I needed help. I jumped and looked from her to him. I nodded slightly. "Yeah he kinda is" I didn't buy anything I just walked back out and he stood when I came out and he fell into my stride walking beside me. I didn't understand what he was a going when I looked at jewelry he stopped and from the corner of my eye he stayed by my side and stuck his hands in his pockets looking around. Turning to him, I looked at him and he was surprised when I whirled around, narrowing my eyes at him. Jackson was always one to whine and leave when I was looking at something for to long. Making it to our destination I pulled him this time into the store by his hood I walked deeper into the store waving to the person at the desk I knew because this is where I shopped for Jackson a lot. Stopping he ran into me and backed up instantly I looked at him and then pushed a zip up black jacket in his arms and a few other shirts before looking at him.

"Stiles can you go try that stuff on?" I cooed at him and he looked dazed as he nodded at me and scrambled off I looked for a few more things finding a pair of dark sunglasses I stared at them, Jackson loved this style of Aviators. I put them back and thought to myself Styling Stiles in my head. I picked up the Ray-Bans and folded the shirts over my arm walking back to the dressing room. Jackson wouldn't let me dress him because most of what I picked out he hated. When Stiles came out I looked at his shoes and shook my head pointing at a pair of dark lace up Vans that he picked up. Waving at him I walked to his dressing room and hung up what I had on my arm. He failed to balance on one foot to put the other shoe on, I let him hold my hand to balance himself with, his hand was warm and slightly sweaty and I had to wipe the smile off my face as he wobbled. I cleared my throat and I stepped back from him. The dark jacket and his hair reminded me of Jackson so I took the jacket off and replaced it with a pea coat and put the glasses on his face.

"Ow"

"Oh Stiles I'm sorr-" I thought I stabbed him in the ear or eye or something but when he looked at me with a cheesy grin on his face I rolled my eyes and put the glasses on his face.

"I'm kidding" he finished and I rolled my eyes again letting a smile appear on my face. Laughing a little before I looked at him up and down, his jeans weren't going to work but we'd fix that another day. He fiddled with the shirt and looked at the price tag and I saw the veins his head pop out as he looked at me I waved my daddy's credit card.

"Lydia- I can't-" I pushed my finger to his lips and backed away when I knew he was quiet.

"Think of it as a- thank you" I said he did attempt to repeatedly save my life the last year only to let Scott actually safe it.