I shouldn't be here...

I shouldn't exist...

But...

I don't want to leave...

I'm sorry Sora...

Chapter 1

Sigh, another boring recon mission completed.

Roxas thinks as he transports to the clock tower, ice cream in hand. When he turns the corner to where he, Axel, and Xion meet he sees that hes the first one there today.

Guess they're missions were a little tougher then mine was.

Roxas sits and starts eating his ice cream while he waits, and after a while Axel shows up.

"Hey Roxas, you finish early today?"

"Yeah, they put me on a stupid recon mission. How bout you?"

"I got stuck with hunting heartless, you'd think they'd have you or Xion do those sorts of missions since your the ones with the keyblades right?"

"Hahaha, yeah I don't know what Saix is thinking... He really pisses me off sometimes."

"Aw, don't worry about that sour pus hes just trying to do his job."

"Yeah, i guess."

...

"So where's Xion?" Axel asks while he looks around.

"I don't know, she hasn't shown up yet."

"Hm..."

"She might have just gone straight to bed, she doesn't seem like she's been feeling well lately." Roxas says in a sad voice.

"Yeah, that's probably it."

(Later when Axel and Roxas get home)

"See you tomorrow Roxas." Axel yells as he walks into his room.

"See ya."

Roxas walks further down the hall towards his own room but stops when he hears crying.

Who's that?

Roxas follows the sound and stops when he reaches Xion's room. At first he just stands there, but after a couple minutes he decides to go in. He knocks quietly then slowly opens the door and peeks his head inside.

"Go away!" Xion yells while she turns to hide her face, embarrassed by the tears.

"Xion... Xion whats wrong?" Roxas ignores her plea and steps in, letting the door shut behind him.

She quickly wipes her face with her sleeve and turns to look at Roxas.

"Why does Saix hate me? I did my job, my mission, and yet he still hates me. He says that I'm a failure." She turns away and buries her face in her hands.

Roxas flinches at the pain in her voice, from the pain in his chest. Which confuses him, but he has no time to think about that right now.

"I don't know why he doesn't like you Xion. I wish I could tell you but I just don't know." Roxas walks over to her bed (which she is sitting on) and wraps his arm around her.

Xion sighs and turns toward him, wrapping her arms around his torso. "I'm sorry you have to see me like this Roxas."

"Heh, what are friends for right?" He says tightening his hold on her.

Xion laughs a little and then pulls away from him, looking into his eyes. "Why do you look sad?"

"Well, it's hard to be happy when my best friends crying." Roxas says with a smile.

Xion smiles back at him. "Thank you Roxas." She says and then leans in and kisses him. She then quickly pulls away and leaps off the bed. "I'm so sorry Roxas, I don't know what came over me." She blushes

Roxas just sits there staring, then he touches his lips with his fingertips. "Why are you sorry?" He stands up next to her wrapping his arms around her and kisses her back. "It feels good... I thought we weren't capable of feeling?"

Xion, still in his embrace turns her head away from him, "I don't know. I don't really understand why everyone thinks we don't have hearts. When Saix yells at me it hurts here." She places her hand on her chest. "If we don't have hearts, then why does it hurt?" She looks back at Roxas. "And why am I happy when I see you? If we don't have hearts then how is any of that possible?"

Roxas shakes his head. "I don't know, I can't answer any of your questions... But, why does it matter? Right now, I just want to be with you. We can think about why later, right now I just want to kiss you again."

Xion grins widely. "I want to kiss you too." She says and then there lips meet again, moving in ways they've never moved before.