Chapter 1
It's been over a year since I left Forks and moved to Port Angeles although it wasn't even that far away it was as far as Charlie would let me go and far enough that no one around would be talking about them. I live by the far boarders in a little house with a garden, I left Forks a year ago when I found out that I was pregnant, me and Edward were happily dating when we decided to take the relationship to the next level it was a week later that I discovered I was pregnant I freaked out, and told Charlie he said to get rid of the baby or talk to Edward I couldn't either I couldn't tell Edward because he might never speak to me again or insist I get an abortion I couldn't, I couldn't just kill my ... baby, so I left I moved to Port Angeles were my mum took time off from touring with Phil to help me start up a new life, she lived with me during the time of the pregnancy and the first week but she said I was a natural and I knew she missed Phil so I told her to leave and go back to Phil.
My two little angels helped me through the pain of not having Edward, my twins Rose and Alice named after my two favorite people in the world apart from my family and of course Edward, Rosalie and Alice, sigh how I miss them NO! I mentally scolded myself I wouldn't think about them, I wouldn't hurt my self again, I wouldn't break what is already broken and most of all I wouldn't break down with my girls in the next room.
I carried on trying to think of ways to avoid a visit to Fork but I could get out of it, I needed a shop there and the girls need to see Charlie soon, I've got to be brave right, we are going to go Wednesday for the week and stay with Charlie he won't mind and Rose and Alice will enjoy seeing Charlie.
"Mamma! Can we go shopping?! please!" Alice tugged on my jean leg, wow she was scarily like Alice, I picked her up and put her on my knee. "We can't know darling we need to pack we're going to Grandpa's tomorrow for a week." she squealed in excitement and left the room shouting at Rose to go and pack with her I called Charlie quickly letting him know we were going to visit him he was overjoyed, I hung up the phone and went to help the girls pack, when I walked into their room they were packed I checked for everything they needed, to my surprise they were completely packed in half an hour, they played with their toys while I packed everything I need.
I was almost packed when I leant down and grabbed the two little albums one with Rose's name written in blue and purple her favourite colours and the other with Alice's name written in bright pink with flowers all over I opened them both and read through they were the albums I made for Edward so he could know everything about his daughters, there were pictures and messages off the girls, i had also stuck in some of their drawings of them both with me and their daddy when they first shown me them I started crying they had never had a dad, they didn't know anything about him but the one thing I knew as well as them was they need their daddy. I packed them both in the suitcase and reached for the little black journal which belonged to me, again it was for Edward to let him know about the girls and to know how I felt about him too, I sighed and packed them I knew he would probably never read them but it comforted me to read them and remember all the memories with the girls but i always ended up crying thinking about how much better it would all have been if Edward was there with us.
When I snapped out of my trance I looked at the clock wow it was 9pm i rushed into the girls room and quickly put them to bed, i went down stairs once they were asleep to turn of all of the lights and grab a drink i went back up stairs got into my pjs and grabbed weathering heights off the bedside table and read until i fell into a deep dreamless sleep.