saixsasu

Author: hunny-rose92

Rating: M (for later chapters)

I don't own Naruto and never will...damn...

Chapter One

"CHUG...CHUG...CHUG...CHUG...!"

I watched Naruto finish drinking his drink rather rapidly as everyone chanted 'chug' and cheered at the end. I wonder why he did this. I once read in a book that some people drink alcohol to 'drown their sorrows' and so I moved over to him and wrapped an arm around his shoulders.

"What the...hic...HELL ARE YO...hic...YOU DOING!" Naruto pulled away from me and before managing to stand up he fell back down onto Sakura, finishing with another hiccup.

We had all decided to meet at the pub for celebration of Sakura and Naruto hooking up and I had agreed to come along to 'strengthen the bonds of friendship' between me Naruto, Sakura and Sasuke. The new couple had found each other's mouths rather fast and the raven haired boy sat in the corner of the booth with a dull look on his face. I wanted to talk to him but last week the boys' house had been destroyed and so he was currently 'crashing' at my house. Apparently the term 'crashing' means to sleep at one's house, like a sleepover. I had also read about sleepovers before, and so for the first night I had arranged for a chocolate fountain and marshmallows and a 'chic flick' for the both of us, but he slapped me and went straight to sleep.

Anyway...back to the present..."So I said to him that he shouldn't go in there..." Sakura had started one of her 'funny' stories and so I decided to ignore it and then laugh as she delivered the 'punch line'. Instead I watched Sasuke out the corner of my eye. He was looking at the beer mat in front of him and..."He got PUNCHED IN THE FACE!" I laughed with everyone else and Sakura carried on talking without noticing.

"So Naruto, did you hear about Kakashi?" Sasuke had finished his drink and now felt the awkward silence needed to be filled.

"No, why?" He replied with a slur in his words and a surprised look on his face.

"He tried coming onto Shizune and ended up on a date with her, but then Tsunade turned up to! Of course Shizune didn't realise it was a date and so Kakashi left rather quickly leaving them with the bill!" After finishing his drink Sasuke had become more talkative and lively, like he didn't care anymore but that was a good thing as he wasn't afraid to answer questions truthfully. Maybe that was one of the effects of the alcohol.

"Baka Kakashi! You know it's good that he's actually trying to get a lover now, he didn't used to care but I think this could be good for him. Like Asuma had Kurenai...holy cow that was funny...teasing Asuma was the best way to get a laugh..." Sakura said. Everyone chuckled lightly at their fallen comrade but I still didn't understand the logics behind this so called 'love'. I had read it many a time and so I sat there debating it with myself whilst the others told stories about Asuma.

Suddenly Kakashi teleported into the seat next to me, beer in hand. Naruto screamed and fell backwards off the chair, Sakura inhaled sharply and then laughed at Naruto's current status, Sasuke didn't move and I turned my head to the side to acknowledge him. "So guys, how's it going? Talking about me lately are we?" His right eye screwed up as he smiled and tilted his head to the side whilst Sakura scratched the back of her head, a small sweat drop forming by her temple, however he wasn't bothered with her attempt at making an excuse, "Here Sai I brought you another drink...I think we should get those emotions out using alcohol, you never know it might work."

I was feeling slightly sluggish from the 10 and a half I had already had and wasn't feeling any different emotion wise so I decided it would be a waste of time. Although I still drank it. "Thank you Kakashi-sensei, that was nice of you to get me a drink. I will return the favour next time." I smiled at him....wait, that wasn't a fake smile...it was real! Maybe this beer will help me. Meanwhile Kakashi then started talking about Asuma to Sakura as she helped Naruto off the floor who was in fits of giggles.

"Sakura..." I interrupted Kakashi's story as just one question burned inside of me. I thought she might be one of the best to explain it to me as she confessed to me first that she loved Naruto before he knew himself. It had been described so many ways but I could never understand it. It was meant to be magnificent feeling, one that can't be beaten by any other emotion in its power. It was meant to give someone strength in a time of need, comfort in a time of sadness and passion in a time of sex, or so I had read. It was a weird book.

"What does it feel like to be in love? And how do you know when you're in love?"

Everyone fell silent and then turned to Kakashi who knew he was right all along about emotions and alcohol being connected but he continued looking at me with a smile on his face before taking a sip of his drink. Sasuke shifted uncomfortably before getting up to go to the bathroom and Naruto got up to follow before crashing back down in his seat and wrapping an arm around Sakura's shoulders, "You know I think it's great! I mean I've always loved Sakura and now she loves me...hic...too BELIEVE IT! And I still can't believe she would like a weird, knuckle head, hyper active, stupid mo...hic...moronic..." Sakura slowly covered Naruto's mouth to stop him talking and then bowed he head whilst whispering to herself that she didn't know why she liked him either.

"Look, it's not really something you can explain in great detail, it's something that just comes to you. With me I just couldn't stop thinking about him, and my heart beat faster even at the mere mention of his name. I wanted to know everything about him and what he was doing at every minute of the day...but then he left to join Orochimaru and I got stuck with Naruto!" Everyone laughed again and Naruto hung his head in shame before Sakura picked his head up in both hands before planting a small kiss on his lips and reassuring him she loved him really.

"I've never been in love Sai..." Kakashi explained, "...So even I don't know what it feels like but that doesn't mean I'm not capable of loving. I mean I love every one of you here and would give my life for any of you because I care about you all. It doesn't mean that I'm attracted to you in a sexual way but I wouldn't like to see you hurt. There are more than one ways of loving something too, such as loving an object, like Naruto's love for Ramen..." At this his eyes brightened and he looked at Kakashi with pleading eyes, "Kakashi-sensei, will you take me out to Ichiruka Ramen???" He gave puppy dog eyes and replied with a quick "Not now" before turning back to me.

"Just because you haven't experienced something doesn't mean you're incapable..." There was that word again, experience. I had never been able to because I haven't got emotions that just bubble to the surface whenever they feel like it, so maybe the alcohol was working because I started to feel 'happy' that I wasn't the only person that didn't feel love in that kind of way. I suppose I care about Sasuke, Naruto, Kakashi and Sakura, but I still wouldn't give my life for them, I would work out a logical strategy to avoid self sacrifice and then there would be no need. Sakura once told me that sometimes there isn't any logical strategy and that we do it to show how much we care and how much the other person means to them. This is apparently very nice and people take it as a compliment, which to me seems like a very risky compliment, but she said it's stronger than words. I once took a blow for Sakura but she just questioned why I did it, and it made me want her to explain herself as I felt rejected by my act of kindness but then she smiled at me and healed the arm I had broken.

I watched Sasuke as he re-entered the room and walked to the bar and buying two more drinks which I later found out was for me. "Why do you only ever find a man and a woman together? Is it strictly for making babies?" Naruto at this point burst out laughing for some reason and then pointed at me with a quivering arm and shouted "SAI LIKES MEN!!" Before getting smacked on the head by Sakura forcing him to shut up and sit down. Meanwhile Kakashi nudged Sasuke on the arm chuckled softly together before Sasuke went wide eyed and punched Kakashi in the arm.

"Gay...what does that mean?" I asked.

"It's when two men love each other and so on...Two girls can love each other as well, they're called lesbians. Then there are people who love both genders who are bi, and people who only like the opposite sex...they are called straight. Most people frown upon these sorts of people though and say it's unnatural as making love is for one purpose only and that is to make babies, and two men or two women can't accomplish that as you've probably guessed." Sakura finished explaining and finished the last of her drink, "unfortunately I cannot stay as sleepy over here needs to go beddy byes..." She took Naruto by the hand and he followed her willing as she walked out the door after saying her goodbyes.

"Well the women have left..." Sasuke commented with a grin on his face. He had a nice smile, pity he didn't smile more often. "Yeah he is rather troublesome when he gets drunk..."
"KAKASHI! You're starting to sound like Shikamaru!" Sasuke put a cheeky grin on his face before excusing himself to get another drink.

"He sure is drinking a lot, and he likes buying you lots of drinks too by the look of it!" Kakashi commented on how Sasuke was paying attention to me at the moment and that he was actually watching me all the time I wasn't looking. I didn't know what to do and so I ignored his staring and carried on talking like normal when he came back, "Thank you Sasuke but I think I have had enough to drink tonight and I will have to make this my last." He looked at me with droopy eyes and a pout on his lips and fluttered his eye lashes at me, "But Sai! I wanna know what you're like when you're drunk!" His eyes stared straight into mine as he spoke and I felt my whole body felt warm. He looked hot when he pouted and my face went red as I stared back at him. "Awww look! He's embarrassed!" Sasuke's eyes defocused as he spoke and realised that it wasn't only Naruto that had drunk too much.

"Kakashi I think..."

"Yeah...I think so too...Don't worry about getting up tomorrow, Tsunade-sama told me to tell you guys that you have the day off and that's all I really came here for but then I had a drink and...Oh crap! I forgot to tell Naruto and Sakura! Oh well...I'll drop by before I go home, see you guys later!" With that he poofed out of the picture leaving me and Sasuke to walk home...but not before having to pay the bill...