I walk to the coach bend down and kiss my mother's head. "I'm going for a walk, mom, be back soon. I love you."

She looks back at me, "Alright," and then turns back to the tv. I look at her. She's weak today still not able to do

much but sit and watch. I turn around and head out the door.

I make a right.

'Why is my life like this?' I ask myself. 'Why do I have to carry such a burden?'

I turn left.

'If only I could live a life where everyone takes care of me. Where I have a love who loves me back. Who would die

for me. That would be heaven.'

I look both ways before I cross the street.

'We could live in a humble house together. We would spend the whole day doing what we please. We would read books

together and he would know how to play piano while I sang for him. We would dance together like no one was watching.

We would talk about our dreams and someday fulfill them.'

"No," I say to myself.

'I couldn't do that. I have responsibilities.' But yet I find myself thinking of another dream even more grand.

'I could live in a huge house. We could have 4 kids. And everyday I would make their lunches and walk them to the

bus stop. Everyday I would pick them up after school. And everyday we would sit down to the dinner I made for them.'

Oh how wonderful that would be.

I stop where I am. I've gone too far. So I turn back to return home.

'These dreams are all childish. I should know better than to wish, to wait.'

I sprint the rest of the way home. Somehow this walk is suddenly uncomfortable.

When I find my house, it is not the same way it was before. It's a beautfiul house the size of a pharmacy store. I

walk up to the door slowly and walk into the house. Inside is a man with such love in his eyes that its

unbelievable. He holds his hand out towards me. Behind him I see children running around in the next room. I smile

because it's come true. Then my smile fades. I look in every direction. The man comes to me and asks what's wrong.

I push past him and run through the house.

What I'm looking for isn't in any of the rooms. I come to the last room and its not there either. I sink to the

floor and start to cry.

My mother isn't there.