I take you to the rooftops
and you don't see the view

I remember the day I tried to get you to see us for what we really were.

"Newbie, come." I stride past without so much as a second glance at the resident leaning against the nurses' station.

I feel his eyes burn into the back of my head before I hear hurried footsteps and the shuffling of scrubs. I don't have to turn around to know he is keeping a comfortable distance. I can't blame him, but I can't shake off the little pang of disappointment knowing that he is still too afraid to get close.

It isn't until I start to hear a protest form on his lips that I realise I haven't told him where we're going. I stop abruptly and spin round to face him. He's pointing pathetically at a patient, head cocked and mouth slightly open as he tries to figure out why I'm not taking him to treat somebody. I roll my eyes and shake my head, turning my head in the direction of the staircase and tilting my head upwards. He follows my gaze, and I watch him gulp down his fear as he shuffles nervously on the spot and nods his head feebly.

Seconds turn to hours
but I still wait up for you

I remember the night you sat outside the on-call room because you were too scared to face how you really felt.

"Newbie, what are you doing out here? You're going to cause an accident."

I hear a vague mutter before the young Doctor slowly rises to his feet, shuffling nervously on the spot and refusing to meet my gaze.

"Bambi, I need you." Carla grabbed JD's arm and started dragging him down the corridor and out of sight.

But not out of mind.

I tell you all my secrets
you share them with your friends

I remember the afternoon you told Carla I was gay, not that she didn't already know.

"Bambi, I already knew." Carla smiled warmly at her friend.

"It's not that obvious," JD muttered, running his finger along the edge of the folders he had just picked up off of the desk.

"Oh, please. You're the only person who didn't know. For what it's worth, I think it's cute, Sunshine."

I don't know why I said that, but it seemed to make JD blush. I strode off, a satisfied smirk plastered on my face. I love this game.

When I catch you smiling at me, is it all pretend?
'Cause I don't want this to end

I remember all the times you could have told me you loved me, but didn't.

"What's wrong, Amy? Cat got your tongue?"

I watch as Newbie rolls off the on call bed and rearranges his scrubs. He was staring intently at his pager, hoping to catch a break. I sighed. This man was hard work. I caved and sent Carla a message to spare the man his dignity.

I guess he felt he got lucky.

You've got my love on a string
You never seem to console me

I remember the final time that Jordan packed up her things and left. You were the only person I thought to call.

"Newbie, listen…" I start hesitantly, knowing that tonight was Turk's night. "I want you to come over."

"Sorry Dr. C, busting some tunes with my C dawg over here. Can't it wait until tomorrow?"

I guess he was getting tired of being my lap dog.

"Sure thing, Newbie."

You control me
Do you not feel anything?

I remember the first time I let you take control of our patients.

"Sandy, I'm letting you run the show here. Anything you want, just page me."

"Thanks," JD beamed at me before turning his back to me to see to our first patient.

"Welcome, Newbie," I muttered quietly.

I was hoping for a hug.