Summary- takes place after Vanessa ripped apart to people who care for each other a.k.a the Snowflake Ball.
Disclaimer- I own nothing if I did Dan and Serena would be together and so would Nate and Jenny.
Jenny P.O.V
I knew I should of turned away and left but I was rooted to my spot on the sidewalk just watching the scene before me that would forever be burned into my memory, him kissing away her tears. I just stood there and watched him smile that dazzling smile at her as he got into the cab. I watched the cab drive down the busy street until the lights faded away. After they were out of my sight I could finally move and turn away from the sight that broke my heart even more than I thought possible. As I began walking down the street I turned around and took one last glance at where the love my life left with another girl.
As I walked down the busy streets of the Upper East Side I couldn't help the tears that escaped from my eyes. I tried to brush them away but they just poured down even more. Before I knew it I was full blown sobbing in the middle of the street. I broke into a run not caring that people were looking at me like I was crazy. I didn't care that I was ruining my favorite pair of heels. I didn't care that my hair was becoming windblown. I didn't even care when it started raining down on me. I barely noticed that I was freezing. I just didn't care anymore. My heart was broken into a million pieces and I don't think I could put it back together this time. The pain of my loss was so unbearable that I just wanted to curl up and never wake up. I didn't think I could face the pain in the harsh sunlight of tomorrow morning. I couldn't face seeing them together because I knew I would crumple under the weight of my pain.
I reached my apartment and opened the door it was pitch black and empty. Dan and Dad were probably still at the ball. I didn't bother turning on the light. I walked to my room and threw myself on my bed. I curled up into a tight ball and just when I thought I was out of tears I began to cry even harder. I did the only thing I could do to release some of the pain. I decided to write a letter. It probably wouldn't change anything but I had to do something to tell him how I felt and how he hurt me. I got up and stumbled to my desk and turned on the lamp. It took a minute for my eyes to adjust to the light. I sat at my desk and began to pour all my feelings into this letter. I began writing the letter with tear droplets falling the whole time.
Dear Nate,
I know this letter probably wont change much or maybe you will take one look at it and throw it away. Either way I have to tell you how I feel because you never gave me a chance to before you ran after her.
Tonight you broke my heart even more that it was before. You left me at that ball without even letting me explain myself. You were so quick to judge me and that hurt more than anything. I was and still am in love with you but im pretty sure you don't even care.
Not only am I hurt by what you did but also I am also very angry. You forgave Vanessa after she deliberately lied and schemed to get what she wanted but I make a small mistake and you are so ready to judge me. She kept that letter from me for weeks knowing that I was hurt because of the fact that you never called or emailed me. She knew that I thought that you never cared about me and you know what she told me " Just get over him and move on". She said that to me because she wanted you to herself and she was not beyond hurting me to get it. I knew that I had hurt her when we first got together but I was sorry for that and it wasn't intentional. But she did what she did intentionally.
But obviously you have made your choice. You left me behind to drown in my own anger and pain. And even with all this I still love you. I still wish that you would rethink your decision and pick me. I wish you would see that I never changed that I'm the same person I was when you kissed me. I just made a mistake that I wish I could take back. I love you with every thing in me and like I said before that it might not change anything but I just wanted you to know what I feel inside. I wish you nothing but happiness I wish it were with me but we can't always get what we want.
Love Always,
Jenny Humphrey
After I was finished pouring my heart out into the letter I walked to the nearest mailbox in the freezing weather and dropped the letter into the slot. I walked back to my building with many emotions weighing me down.
So that was my first story ever! Please R&R. I would love to know what you guys thought. Nenny Forver!