A/N: As much as I've hated Henry from the start, I had to write this fic after I was listening to this song as I was reading other Henry-Abby fics.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything associated with Harper's Island. Neither do you.
I also don't own My Last Breath by Evanescence.

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Safe Inside Myself Are All My Thoughts of You, a Harper's Island songfic

one

All I wanted to say was I love you, and I'm not afraid

Because, in the end, that's all I really wanted. For you to know my feelings, and to return them. You were my world. You still are, even after my death. We may have been half-siblings. Go ahead, say it's wrong, say it's disgusting. But we were destined to be, don't you see that?

I mean, look. You were Sarah's second child. I was her first, given up for adoption. We ended up being best friends.

Some call it kismet.

I call it nirvana.

Safe inside myself are all my thoughts of you


two

Closing your eyes to disappear, you pray your dreams will leave you here

You son of a bitch. You sick, twisted son of a bitch.

How dare you, how DARE you do this to us? All because of ME? You did this because "they were in our way"? Bullshit! They were not in our way, you could have just stopped being a fucking pussy and just told me. You didn't have to run around like a coward and kill innocent people because....Jesus, I don't even know why! None of this makes sense.

None of your little fantasies about me make sense. They never have. "I'm the only thing that makes sense to you"? Geez, what Wal-Mart clearance-rack romance novel did you steal that from?

...And you just go on, blinded by your incestual "love" for me, oblivious to the REAL world. You just hoped that I'd live with you forever? Wait, sorry, typo. LOVE you? After this? Over an innocent thing I said when we were kids?

....But still you wake and know the truth - no one's there

But, in the end, you had to realise it, right? That I would never love you. That your sick little fantasies were strictly between you and your right hand. That there was no one that would love you after all this.

Safe inside myself are all my thoughts of you
three

Say goodnight, don't be afraid

I'm not afraid of the end, of leaving you. I never stopped loving you. I never will, even as my eyes close for the final time. Even as my heart beats a final, painful beat as you look at me with a mixture of hate, pain, and dare I say it - love?

No, that can't be true. you'd never love me. Why couldn't I have just realised that from the beginning? Why couldn't I just have thought of all the pain I'd cause you, of all the hate I'd make you feel for me?

Calling me, calling me, as you fade to black

Because, in the beginning, I thought that I could force you to love me. That I could force our happiness, our love. I was blinded by that single goal, that one light at the end of the dark tunnel of life. I even killed my "brother", who had done no crime other than be a part of that lying family. He hadn't known, he never did. It never was his fault, but I killed him nonetheless.

It was all for you. I honestly believed that, even if they were all gone, as long as you were there I'd be happy. That we'd be happy.

At least at the end I got to see your beautiful face as my vision blurred. Even if it was contorted by a combination of rage and shock.

I love you Abby.

Safe inside myself are all my thoughts of you

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A/N: Wow, that was horrible.
The emotion was flat.
Eek.
I stole an idea from a Twin Peaks fanfic, Bardo by amonitrate.
I'M SO SORRY!
-bows in forgiveness-