Edwards POV

It has been two years. I wasn't sure what I was doing here, but I couldn't deny the pull anymore. Even when I laid on the ground and let bugs crawl over me, there was always a pull. Pulling me right back into where I know I belonged. Her arms. I didn't dare to let my mind say her name. Though, with being a vampire, our minds worked differently than humans. We can think of multiple things at once, so getting her off my mind completely, was nearly impossible. Actually, it was impossible. It didn't help that my mind did not want to not think about her. All I wanted to do was be with her.

So I suppose I know the reason why I am running back to Forks. Back to her window, actually. I am trying to convince myself that it is only a check up, I just need to see that she is okay. Forbidding Alice to look into her future, and me moving away from home.. I have no idea how she is doing, and I need to check up.. Just to give myself a little piece of mind..

*Sighh* , Who the hell am I kidding?

The second I see her I am going to be on my knees begging for her forgiveness. Though I do not deseerve it, and I did ask her to move on. This is useless, I am agrueing with myself over nothing. I haven't a clue what I am going to do when I get back to Forks.

No, this is just a check up. Just to make sure she is in one piece.

I was suddenly standing infront of her house, in the forest, out of sight. I wasn't sure what to do next. Neither her old Chevy or the Chief's cruiser were in the drive way. I deciede I would go inside, see if she was still around, see if anything had changed. Maybe she'd moved.. She was 20 now..

So much has probably changed.

As looked under the mat, I found the old familar spare key. Only humans, putting their house key in such a spot. Do they not see the dangers?!

I sighed a little.

As I opened the door I was over-whelmed with the scent of her. Everything suddenly came rushing back. All the memories I had faded out. The first time I seen her in the cafeteria, the first time I took her to our meadow, where we both confessed our undying love for one another, our first kiss, all the kisses after that, her blush.. and so many more.. her lullaby replayed in my head, how I longed to sing that to her at this very moment.. Her scent triggered many things. After all, it was her scent that made me so obsessed, and of course, her shielded thoughts..

I'm not sure how long I sat and remonised about the memories of my love. It could have been hours. Since the day I left her in the forest, I have lost all touch with reading minds. I am much to lost in my own thoughts to focus or even care about others. Lost in thought again..

I found myself in Bella's room.. It was clear she still lived her, nothing had changed.. Nothing..

This was odd.. Two years later and she had not even bothered to upgrade to newer blankets. Even the old computer that she used to get so frustrated with still sat on her dusty desk. I seen her copy of Wuthering Heights laying beside the computer. It had a very thick layer of dusk on it.

Again, this was strange for Bella.. In the year I was with her, she must have read that book over ten times.. And here is sits, looking as if it hasn't been read in at least 6 months.

I walked over the window.. The latch was not locked..

This brought a smile to my face. She was waiting for me..

No Edward, NO! She is not, she was moved on, she does not need a monster like you to ruin her life again. Stop with these thoughts.

It still gave me hope though, in the back of my mind, relief washed through with me. Being as stupid as I am, I couldn't let these things go unnoticed. Things had not changed in her life.. This was obvoius.

I can only pray her feelings have not either.. NO EDWARD, I screamed to myself.

Being lost in thought was starting to have its disadvantages, I wasn't even aware she had pulled into the drive way and was inches away from opening her bedroom door, I didn't even have time to run out the window, and with vampire speed - this isn't tricky.

But with the sound of her window that I remember all to well, she would hear it and know it was me, only I would go through her window.. I hope!

I quickly hid under her bed, not knowing was else was to do. I felt childesh, and really hoped she wouldn't happen to need something from under her bed. Bella and her surprises.

She opened the door, and stopped.. Her heart rate increased and her breathing hitched. I didn't understand, how could she possibly see me. Impossible, no way she can see me.

"Edward' she whisped, I could tell she was crying.

No, how did she know! This is not happening!

She sat on her bed and began crying louder.. This made no sense.. I was completely lost in thought when I smelt something unfamilar yet familar at the same time.. What the hell?

Werewolves!?!?!

Around my Bella..

"Bella, Bella, what is wrong? Did he hurt you?" a husky voice asked.

"No Jacob, he is gone. I am too late. He left, again" She stuttered the last word. It seemed to hurt her deeply to say this.

"I'm sorry Bella, I called as soon as I smelt him" her said.

"This isn't your fault. Me and my stupid human speed, I couldn't get her fast enough. Are you sure he was here?" she questioned. Still sobbing.

"Yes, Bells. I smelt him. I can't now, because I'm not in wolf form, but he was here. I was outside, patrolling. And than I called." he paused.. "I had to shift to human form though.. My shift was up and you know how Sam gets about us shapeshifting now" he told her.

I was thankful he could not smell me now. But I was not happy that Bella was with a werewolf. It was clear that were not dating, because he seemed to be trying to help her find me.

Wow, I have missed so much.. I don't really understand.

"Thank you Jacob, for notifying me when you smelt him. I know it hurts you to do these kind of things for me.. But I still need him.." she pasued, sobbing.. This was killing me.

"Bells, shhh.. It is okay, you know where we stand.. I just want you to be happy." he said.

Even with a bloodsucker. My poor Bella, he was here and he left her again!! If he put the effort to come back, he could have at least showed himself to her. Gave her the closure she needs. I know she loves him, but fuck she loves me too!! I can't do this to myself again.. She doesn't want you Jacob. She's too broken... No one can repair her but him.... and face it Jake, if he does that, your chance is gone... Focus on supporting her.

Well.. Whoever the werewolf Jacob was, I was not very happy with him. But the things he said about my Bella being broken. Impossible. No.. I could not have done that to her.

Again, I laid here on the floor beneath her bed.. Not knowing where to turn from her. My sanity was on the line.. She clearly loves you, you clearly love her; Go back to you fool!!! Or, leave, she will move on.. She will find someone, but take care of this werewolf. A vampire leaves her so she runs to the next monster she can find. Only Bella.

I was furious, still laying under her bed.