He felt the razor insert and smiled he needed the pain it brought. It reminded him that nothing ever felt good. If you felt pain then you were alive not some hollow shell that blindly followed orders. He heard a sound behind him and turned. Draco was standing there his eyes drawn to the blood running down his hand and started forward. "Don't" was all he said as Draco lifted his wand "I need this" he continued his eyes following the trail as it ran down his hand and onto the floor. "Why?" Draco asked staring at him not understanding why he felt the need to do that. "I wouldn't expect you to understand. Its the only thing I feel in this horrid life of mine. It'll stop soon, always does. Then ill go back to the smiling happy puppet until they need the hero or the clown or who ever it is currently they want to see. No one ever sees Harry the scared little boy who has no one to turn to or run to. They see what they want not who is really there." Harry said sadly turning away from Draco. He didn't know why he told Draco all that but he needed to tell someone and Ron Or Hermione would just run to Dumbledore with this new tidbit on the Boy-Who-Lived. Sometimes he just wanted it all to end. He hated that he had no true friends that would stick by him and keep his secrets. "I do understand, more then you know. I don't want to be a Death Eater but my father would kill me 6 ways to Sunday if he ever found out. No one sees Draco either. They see the Slytherin Prince,or a spoiled rich boy who has to get his way. I never wanted to be that or like I am now. I hate myself but I have no one to turn to either if I told any of the other Slytherin's I'd be dead in a minute." Draco said coming into the room farther. None of his friends would understand why he hated himself. He had to act the part they set up for him, same as he realized now as Potter.
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I'm in a mood. this is proly the end of it but if i do get into another mood maybe it will continue. Not very long but oh well