Oh lord I give myself up to you
I am now at your mercy.
Do what you please with me my Lord,
before death claims me.
I had made mistakes along the way
and had destroyed many bridges.
I had stood by then waiting alone
for a miracle's sudden evanescence .
While I was on death row,
Right before my condemnation,
I had prayed to you one last time
for a stay order on my execution.
But that did not come You know that well
And I had futilely begged for clemency.
I was left there to die alone,
without any hope for mercy.
Yet here I am praying again,
Now praying for my soul.
My body is going to be dead in a few,
And I must pray before I fall.
I give myself to You now
I give You my all.
You can have the heart that thumped,
And soul that made my being whole.
You can have the love that I kept hidden,
Away from the prying eyes of the madding crowd.
You can have the countless hours I spent
Loving yet hating You, spent being proud.
You can have my chastity
with which I always prayed.
You can have shadows too,
even the ones that had stayed.
I am alone now in my solitude,
And not much time on my hand.
I give myself to You once and for all,
My body, my heart and soul will understand.