Well this will be my English version of a story that I'm currently writing in Spanish (so if you know Spanish you could read it too… I'm in chapter 4 right now!) and I really hope I could write it without grammar problems (something a little bit impossible cause I'm bad at English) It would be great if someone offers to be my beta… no one?

Daybreak

Chapter 1: Light my Darkness

Everyone is different, and everyone have different things, different hair, lips, and eyes. I'm different from anyone… or at least that was what I think a few months ago before I meet my brother… my twin brother. We were, no, we are exactly the same, we are like a mirror, the only way you could know witch one is the one you are looking for is for the length of the hair, his hair is longer than mine.

I always make fun of the people that loves themselves but when I knew my brother I found that I was exactly the same. I fall in love with him… he that looks just like me, but no in the personality, his personality is very different from mine. Sometimes I think badly of some people, he is very innocent; I prefer to act immediately, he goes with the wind. He is very shy but he usually tells me a lot of his things, sometimes he keep them to himself; instead I tell him everything, but there is something that I've never told him and it is how much I love him. We love each other but I've noticed that I love him more and in a different way… but I can't find a way to tell him.

Since we met w ego to the same school just like our friends, we don't want to be separated again. After school we used to go to my house, sometimes he stays to a sleepover, sometimes we go to his place and stays there too. To sleep me wear only my boxers because I'm warmer at night but he prefers to wear his pants and a t-shirt cause him is always cold. He prefers to sleep with a tiny and a bit hard pillow; I prefer a big and fluffy one. When we talk about ice cream he is chocolate and I'm vanilla, in food he loves sea food and I die for meat. I could have fun playing with my own shadow at daylight, he prefers to hide in the shadows because he hates sun, he is more a night person and the moon light makes him smile. He lives with our dad and I live with our mother. She loves us a lot just like dad but sometimes he is hard with Kouji, he expects a lot of my brother, and this is what to keeps chain in decisions.

By now I'm a little afraid to speak to him, afraid to tell him how do I feel and afraid to the possibility that he rejects me even if I know he wouldn't. I know he is going to accept me no matter what, even if it is estrange. I'm going to tell him, I'm not going to continue living with this inside myself; I just have to wait for an opportunity. I could tell him today when he go to my place, right alter school, maybe when we are eating or before we go to bed but no after that… if not I'm not going to do it.

It was hard to pay attention in classes with all this in my head, having him sit at my side looking at me, asking for my notes, living me a pencil or borrowing my eraser. I felt the hurry to pass my arm behind his shoulder just when Takuya makes a joke on Kouji. Takuya takes away Kouji's rubber without him notice it. His hair now spread all over his shoulders… his hair was very long almost at his waist, it fits well on him.

At first he doesn't know what was happening, he just sep looking at me like asking what was the problem with Takuya, why was he making fun of him. His face was a mix of expressions, his eyes asked me a lot of questions like 'why is he laughing?' and 'Did I have something weird on my face?' but his hair makes me the impression I was talking to a girl. It took him a while to understand what was wrong. His first reaction was to hit Takuya with his book, he really looks angry about the joke. He grabs his rubber and tied his hair again, he doesn't care for the girls that were there asking him to keep it without the rubber, he never pays attention to them.

Hi was like the light, where the light goes everyone pays attention. Everyone pays attention to him wherever he goes even is he doesn't ask for it. But he as a light likes to be with the shadows, he says he doesn't like attention, he doesn't like people starring at him, less if they were touching him like he was a statue, he only let do that to his friends and me. We like the silence specially when we want to think, I don't care for the noises, I could live with it but Kouji can't. When there's a lot of noise he loose control so easy and usually explodes, he was going to explode a lot of times specially when he is around Takuya. Onli my darkness calm him and keeps him serene. Even if we are twin people pays him more attention than me, I don´t care because I prefer to be aside, I prefer to look everything from this perspective. I love the light, I love my brother, I protect him from the people hiding him in my darkness, I give him an special place in my heart.

For the end of the day I found us in the door just to go home. We used to walk and talk about our day, but today we were a little bit silence. I keep thinking all the way how could I express my feelings but I notice he was to quiet… what could he be thinking? Maybe I could ask him that just to break the ice…

"Etto… What are you thinking Kouji?" – He doesn't answer my question; he just keeps himself looking at the floor lost in his mind. When my words get into his brain he looks a little afraid and a bit lost.

"Nee… nothing… what were you thinking?"

"Me? You first! I ask you first" – I could have told him in that moment but I prefer to hear him first. He was thinking in something important to him; I knew it for the way he has reacted.

"Nothing! I just was thinking in test next week. You?"

"Humm.. I believe you but not at all. I was thinking in us" – I see his face trying to see his reaction. His cheeks were with a pink shade… could it be a good reaction? - "it's just… I don't know what you are going to think about this but I… I love you so much… it's been a while of that… at first it was like a simple brotherly love but know it has become bigger"

"…" – He just stays there in the middle of the street without words, he doesn't even move.

"I didn't even know how you are going to react… I think it was better to keep it that for me, I just want you to know because I couldn't continue living with this… if I didn't tell you this I was never going to. Please forgive me for what I say?" - I was there stand at his side with my heart in his hands waiting for an answer, any answer. I don't like to wait… it makes me feel like he doesn't love me. But he looks like he was looking for some words, maybe to shut up myself, I was scared but he looks more like he has lost his voice.

"Niichan… I…" - That sounds more like a no or was he nerveous - "I love you too. I feel a bit strange when I'm at your side, you know me well and you know I'm not good for this kind of things but there is no one for me other than you" – He hug me and puts his head in my shoulder… we keep walking. For me it was a magic moment because I feel that my courage was for something good. Now who could say that the light and the darkness couldn't be together?

TBC…

Well it was the end of this first chapter. I really hope you could understand me I speak Spanish and I can speak English but I couldn't write it correctly because I prefer to sleep when teacher explain us grammar. So if anyone feel generous today and want to help this poor in grammar girl…. Any help is welcome!

If you are a generous, lovely, sweet….. and all those things person…. Could you please write me a review? Just to make me feel good and make me smile here in my bed… Did I say I was sick?... Damm flu! .