Title: For You

Disclaimer: I have no claim over any of the characters from Twilight. That right belongs solely to Stephenie Meyer.

AU all Vampires

This story is very much so Edward/Bella. So it's all Canon pairings.

Genre: Angst/Romance/Drama/Horror

Rated: M (For blood and violence in later chapters)

Summary: What would have happened if Bella had been dying from her injuries James gave her? Would Edward still have chosen to remove the venom or let it take her? What if Bella didn't have the strong will to stay away from human blood? What would happen if she left the Cullens, would Edward follow her? Of course he would.

'I had caused all of this. So I would find her and bring her home. If she couldn't stop from feeding on humans then I would join her. If her hands were going to be stained with blood then I would stain mine once more. My soul was dirtied already, what would a few more humans do? I had left my family behind. Bella had taken a human life and it was my fault. She ran from us the second she realized what she had done.

'I would not destroy her, I couldn't. So I would stay with her and clean up the mess. As soon as I took in her soft bell-like voice, my heart ached.'

"Edward, I'm sorry I didn't stop. I couldn't help myself. I was close to stopping this time."

My eyes were now, maroon in color. My love, my Bella would not go though this alone and I wouldn't let my topaz eyes mock her.

"It's fine Bella, for you I'd do anything." And I had, I'd thrown the life I had with my family away. I had just forsaken the very way of life that Carlisle had wanted for me, for his family. The pain I was feeling for betraying Carlisle, the only father I had known in over ninety years was nothing compared to the embarrassment Bella felt over her actions?

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Chapter 1: Given No Choice

By TaintedDarkInuShemeeko

Edward POV

My un-beating heart shattered inside of my chest as I saw how broken Bella looked. It took me a few seconds to find my voice.

"No, Bella, Bella, no, please no. Stay with me, Bella."

My voiced cracked as I called out for the only person I could think of. "Carlisle!" There was only one thing I was sure of. I was going to lose her.

Carlisle's voice was calm but firm as he spoke. "She's lost a lot of blood Edward, watch her leg it's broken as well."

There was no stopping the growl that bubbled up from inside of me. Carlisle continued to check her over when he frowned deeply. "Her right lung has been nicked by one of her broken ribs. It doesn't look good, Edward."

I was well aware of the growling and the loud scraping and snapping sound as Alice and my brothers took care of James. Her voice was just barely above a whisper as Bella spoke. "I'm sorry, Edward."

I shook my head at her, "No, love, I'm the one who should be saying that."

I seemed to lose her for a minute before she spoke my name.

"Edward?"

"Yes, I'm here Bella."

"It hurts, make it stop."

"I know Bella. Carlisle has already given you something for the pain."

I was startled when Bella suddenly screamed.

"No, my hand it's burning, make it stop!"

At hearing Bella's words, panic and fear started to twist together inside of me.

"Bella?" as much as I wanted to I couldn't hide the fear in my voice. Her body stiffened and then stilled, before she screamed once more.

"The fire, it's burning me. Someone stop the fire!"

The realization of what was happening then dawn on me. In my panic, I nearly yelled at Carlisle.

"Carlisle! Bella's hand!"

Carlisle's voice was no longer calm when he spoke. It was filled with disgust.

"He bit her."

My breath caught in my throat as I took in what Carlisle had just said. I needed to find out if there was anything we could do to stop it but, my brain couldn't get my mouth to form words. Wincing as the image of Bella with red eyes flashed inside my head, it took me a moment to realize that Alice was talking to Carlisle.

"Is there any way to stop the transformation, Carlisle?"

"Sadly, the venom is moving faster through her system then I thought; otherwise I would have suggested sucking the venom out."

At Carlisle's words I started to appraise Bella's body myself. My stomach knotted up at what I found. The blood that Carlisle and I both had thought was just from Bella's head wound wasn't. James had somehow found the time to bite her where the shoulder and neck meet. I took this moment to voice what I had found. "It's because there is more venom in her system then we first thought."

I felt myself cringe as I peeled her bloody shirt away from the wound. Alice and Carlisle's matching gasps filled my head, followed by their thoughts.

'I how did I not see all of it?'

'It's such a shame. It shouldn't have happened like this.'

I welcomed the fiery burning in my throat. This would be the last time I would feel it because of her. My voice was hoarse when I spoke to my father.

"Carlisle, is there any way to ease the pain for her? I don't want her to s…"

I couldn't finish the last word. To do so would have been to remind Carlisle of how painful the transformation was. How painful it had been for me. He didn't speak to me out loud as he lean forward and place a hand on my shoulder.

'I've given her a little more morphine then I normally would. I'm not sure how much she is getting and how much the venom is burning off. To give her any more, would be risking a chance that it would arrest her heart.'

"You're right, Carlisle." And he was correct. What was I thinking; I suppose that was my very problem. I wasn't thinking, not clearing at least. All I could think about was needing to make this as painless as I could for, Bella.

Carlisle's thought soon broke through my own thoughts.

'I got her bleeding under control. Her ribs are back in place and her leg has been set. It's time to move her. The fire, Jasper and Emmett have started is going to spread to here soon.'

I knew it was Carlisle who was standing next to me. However, the minute that Carlisle went to lift Bella into his arms a deep menacing snarl ripped out of my throat.

Every instinct in me was screaming at me. Yours, protect it, mine, protect what's mine.

At first Carlisle seem to be as appalled as I was at myself. I had just snapped at my father like some rabid animal.

'I understand, son. It was rather thoughtless of me. I shall leave her to you.'

Bella whimpered as I gently lifted her into my arms. Beads of sweat were forming on her brow already. The fever was starting to take hold of her.

"Edward, don't…don't leave…me."

I gently laid my cold cheek against her hot cheek.

"Shhh, I'm not going anywhere, Bella. I'm staying right here with you."

Jasper's thoughts filled my head first. They were then followed by Emmett's.

'None of this would have happened, if Edward would have just killed her that first day.'

'Bella is the weirdest human I've ever met. But wouldn't it have been simpler if he would have just changed her himself?

I hissed at the thoughts of my brothers. I however didn't pay them any mind. I did however catch the firm warning in Carlisle's voice.

"Tread carefully Emmett. I can only imagine what you were thinking. Now is not the time for playful jokes. So give your brother some room."

Even though I could hear Emmett fuming at Carlisle I did my best to drown it out.

"You know that bastard did it on purpose. He did because he knew it wasn't something that Edward wanted."

"True as that might be, thinking about it is not helping your brother. He already blames himself."

Jasper's soft voice then entered their conversation.

"Carlisle is right; we need to be supportive for him and Bella."

"But…"

There were no more spoken words between the three of them. Once outside I saw Alice waiting by the car for me; with the door already open for me. Her mind I found was empty of any thoughts that would cause me pain. For that I was grateful.

I winced as one of Emmett's thoughts echoed inside my head.

'What are we going to do about Bella's truck? It's still at our place.'

'I'm so sorry Edward.'

I turned my head quickly to the side to look at Alice. The light that usually danced in her eyes was absent. Her thoughts to me were sincere.

"So am I Alice, so am I. How long Alice?"

"Three days, three and a half at the most."

I nodded my head as Alice closed the door for me.

The ride home was fairly quiet. Carlisle drove while I held Bella gently on my lap. Her head thrash back and forth in the crook of my arm; as the fire continued to consume her. She whimpered off and on and bit down on her lips several times as if to keep herself from screaming.

"I'm so sorry Bella. I never wanted this for you. I'm sorry."

My voice broke as I spoke to her and I knew if I could cry, tears would have been soaking my face. I gently started to rock her in my arms as her breathing became more erratic.

'Edward, Emmett and Rosalie are going to take care of Bella's truck. She was distraught when she left Charlie. We were thinking it would be best to make it look like an accident. One that Bella couldn't survive.'

There was a pause in Carlisle's thoughts before he began again.

'Alice said something about needing her shoes and clothes along with her bag. Not that there will be much left over after the fire is done. She said it was so Bella's family could have a little piece.'

Carlisle seemed to always be ready for anything. Even now he was thinking about what my family could do to help with the funeral. My role would be to play the heartbroken disheveled boyfriend. I figured that wouldn't be too hard seeing how I was already upset over this whole predicament.

I wasn't sure how fast Carlisle had been driving. I had lost all track of time. Bella's body would spasm in pain every so often, but she hadn't screamed since we left the dance studio. I then realized the car had stop.

"Not now Esme. Give him sometime."

'We're home Edward. Take Bella upstairs; Alice and Esme want to make her as comfortable as they can.'

I was keenly aware that Bella's blood had soaked into my clothes. Esme reminded me of it when I heard her gasp.

'Oh Edward.'

I weaved my way through my family, not looking at them once. Once upstairs, I walked down the hall to a room Carlisle kept some of the things he had acquired from past hospitals. As I opened the door, it looked as if I was correct when I read Esme's thoughts. This was the room that was going to be Bella's during her change.

Esme and Alice cautiously enter the room with Jasper in front of them.

"I'm fine Jasper. I'm not going to attack them. Carlisle took me by surprise, it startled me."

I suddenly felt exhausted, as if something heavier then, myself had been dropped on my shoulders. I was completely overwhelmed by the event of the day. James had tricked Bella and taken her in order to get to me. In the end, he had won. James had snuffed out the very thing about Bella I had wanted to protect, her humanity.

Jasper was suddenly standing beside me.

"Edward, perhaps you should go out hunting? Maybe it will help."

I however shook my head.

"No, I won't leave Bella. I promised her."

Instead of hunting with Carlisle, Rosalie and my brothers; I stayed with Bella. Esme and Alice removed her tattered and bloodied clothes as gently as they could. Both of them glanced in my direction every time Bella whimpered in pain.

I had fantasized about seeing Bella soft shapely form, free of clothing, allowing me to take in every nude inch of her. This, however was not what I had pictured. At first it seemed like each time Esme ran there cool wet sponge over her skin, Bella would cry lightly or whimper.

Hot salty tears, would then spill from her from her closed eyes. Those beautiful deep soulful eyes that I had become accustom to reading instead of her thoughts. I ran a hand through my already wild auburn hair and clinched it.

I looked up at Alice as I heard her thoughts.

'Bella is going to look even more stunning in this.'

I glanced over at Alice to look at the dress she was holding in her hands."No, Alice, it's not Bella. You know she's not into that shear gauzy stuff."

Though she looked hurt at my words, she didn't slip the dress over her head. I did however; notice that Bella's bra and panties were a lacy light blue. I then noticed that Alice had disappeared, my guess was to replace the glamour gown she had bought. With something that was more Bella. Minutes later, Alice returned with a new wardrobe a blue-grey scallop necked t-shirt and light blue jeans.

Esme's voice entered my mind first.

'We're finished Edward. I'm going to get rid of her soiled clothes and sheets. Alice will be back with some bleach to get rid of the blood smell. I'm so sorry Edward. I know you didn't want this for her.'

Later as Alice was scrubbing the drops of blood off of the floor; she gasped. A vision was taking place in front of her. I couldn't see everything at first, which prompted me to ask.

"Alice, what was it? What did you see? Was it about Bella?"

The minute she turned to look at me and our eyes locked. I wished I hadn't asked. What I saw shook me and confused me.

It had been a vision very similar to the one that Alice had, had before. Of Bella becoming like us, we were both happy and smiling just because we were together. Bella's eyes were the bright red of a newborn. However in this vision instead of my eyes being a warm butterscotch, or onyx that I was accustom to seeing in Alice's visions. They were a dark maroon.

Whatever Alice had seen she knew now that it wasn't at least a conscious decision I had made as of yet. She however, didn't push me about the matter.

"Edward, I've cleaned this room twice with bleach and I can still smell Bella's blood. Could you go take and shower and get rid of those."

She motioned toward the blood soaked clothes I was still wearing. I had forgotten I was still wearing them.

"I think it will help with the smell. Oh, as soon as everyone gets back. Esme and I are going to go hunting. Are you sure you don't want to come?"

'What if feeding now will help prevent my vision for happening?'

"I'll be fine Alice, I promise. I can wait till Bella awakens. Go hunting with Jasper and Esme. They're less then a mile away now."

As reluctant as I was, I knew that Alice was right. Even though my family had gone hunting; the smell of blood on my clothes was still strong. I waited for Carlisle to make his way to the room.

'How is she Edward?'

Two seconds after I read the thought, Carlisle appeared in the doorway.

"There's been no change, though the slight touch seems to cause her pain to some degree."

Carlisle nodded before speaking.

"That should pass soon."

I knew if I didn't ask him now I wouldn't be able to do it.

"Carlisle, would you stay with her a few minutes? I was going to go shower and change my clothes."

'You should hunt, Edward.'

"I hunted on the way to kill James."

'You would benefit from hunting now too.'

I shook my head fiercely.

"No, I'll wait. I promised Bella I wouldn't leave. If I leave the house I wouldn't be here for her."

"Edward. Son, there isn't anything you can do for her right now."

"I can be here for her."

I turned to walk out the door.

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I truly wasmasochistic; I couldn't bring myself to throw out the shirt that was soaked in Bella's blood. There was a part of me that was screaming, this is proof that she was human.

I sealed the shirt up tightly in two plastic bags. Then with out really thinking about it; I opened the lid of one of my trunks. Pushing my music sheets aside I remembered that this trunk had a false bottom that I had never used before.

Once this was finished Alice came to mind. I then realized that Alice had mostly likely seen what I had done. So I did the one thing I could. I decided what I would do. If she told anyone about what I had just done, with Bella's shirt. I would take Bella and we would leave, never to return.

The smell of my leather trunk was doing a good job at hiding the smell of Bella's blood. I then quickly made my way to the bathroom for a shower. I was slipping my arms into the sleeve of a fresh dress shirt. When I heard her cry out for me, the buttons of my shirt were forgotten.

When I entered the room Carlisle and Esme were trying to sooth her. Upon looking at her I knew she wasn't conscious

"Edward…Edward."

Her voice was so soft that if it weren't for my superhuman hearing I wouldn't have heard her.

"I'm here Bella, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere."

I couldn't think of any way to make this up to her. Besides staying here until the transformation was complete and she was awake.

"She been awful quiet Carlisle, do you think the morphine helped at all?"

Carlisle sighed before I was assaulted by his thoughts.

'I wish I had an answer for you Edward. It's hard to tell if there was enough morphine in her blood stream to do anything to ease her pain.'

"Edward."

I tore my gaze from Bella to look at Carlisle, his eyes now a brilliant butterscotch.

"Son, I know that you didn't want this for Bella. I, myself am not that happy with the way. It happened, however, with the injuries she suffered, We wouldn't have gotten Bella to the hospital in time. The venom saved her, Edward."

"Carlisle." My voice was hard when I spoke. I moved out of the chair I had been sitting in and walked over to the window.

'I know that you don't want to hear this Edward, but it's the true. I know very well that you are not happy with what you are, though you deal with it better then Rosalie. You are scared that by Bella becoming one of us, she will lose her mortal soul. What if I told you that she doesn't believe that?'

"I know how she feels about that already."

'Oh."

Carlisle's thought was a simple word, as if he wasn't surprised that Bella had shared her thoughts with me. Carlisle then went back to speaking out loud.

"Then why do you continue to beat yourself up over this? You deserve to be happy, son. You have been the odd man out in our family for so long. When Bella came into the picture you became alive again."

I couldn't deny Carlisle's last two statements, because they were true.

"I was taking her to watch us play baseball. I told Charlie that I would keep her safe. Bella didn't want to hurt him, but I told her that we didn't have a choice. To not worry about it because she would get to talk to him and Charlie would forgive her for the words she said, and now."

And now none of those things I had promised Bella would happen. We would have to leave Forks soon. It would be too dangerous for us to remain. Though, I was well aware that each newborn was different. I knew that we couldn't take any chances. I was kidding myself; I couldn't take the chance of Bella taking a human life. If her soul hadn't already been destroyed, I was convinced that it would be if she took a humans life. The guilt that I was feeling was merciless. I felt as if my body was burning all over again.

I hadn't been aware that Carlisle had pulled me into his arms; until I felt his breath on the top of my head. As Carlisle pulled me into his arms I realized that my body was shaking strangely. I felt as if I was sinking, as a strange almost strangled cry came from me.

It didn't take my mind long to realize that this is what it felt like for one of us to cry. Even though, my eyes shed no tears I was crying. My dry sobs were for every human experience I had wanted to give Bella and now she would never have them. In the one hundred and eight years, I had shared my life with Carlisle. I had never let me embrace me in such a way, before.

Now, however, I relished in it.

'Oh Edward, we will figure everything out. I don't know how long that will take but we will. There is one thing that I'm certain of. Bella will not hate you for this. Though, Esme and Emmett seem to be happy with this life. I know, Rosalie still a deep rooted hatred for what I turned her into. I've manage to hide things from you Edward. You have reminded me for years of how much you hated what I did to you. I'm afraid that in some form you must hate me as well. After all it was the monster in me that made you into the monster you see yourself as.'

"Carlisle, I…"

My words trailed off as Carlisle stopped me with his thoughts.

'It's all right Edward. Now is not the time we have much more important things to think over.'

After our brief moment together I did my best to pull myself back together.

"Esme, Alice and Jasper should be home soon and when they are, Emmett and Rosalie are going to get rid of Bella's truck."

'I'm almost glad Bella is being so quite. Once the remains of her burnt out trucks is found; Charlie will be here and so will the police.'

Carlisle was right; there would be police here later today once dawn broke over the horizon. One of them would be Bella's father and I was going to be the target of his wrath. He was going to blame me for her death. Especially, since he was under the impression that Bella and I had had a fight and broke up. Charlie had nothing to worry about. I was already blaming myself for Bella's death so to speak.

There was one thing that would help my case with Charlie. Tears and I couldn't give them to Charlie. This was one of the moments when I hated what I was. My eyes then drifted over to Bella. I reached a hand out slowly to brush a stray strand of hair out of her face.

"I'm not sure how to make Charlie see that I'm innocent. Regardless of that, I will do it for you, Bella."

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Thank you for reading. Chapter 2 titled: Mourning Losses, is already in the making.