It was my first day at Ouran High School. The first day I would experience something totally new without her. My first time to make a solo entrance into a new classroom. Some people would want that but not me. Without her I was nothing. She was my other half, the light to my darkness, the only thing that could make me smile when I didn't want to. She is my twin.

But thanks to our parents divorce she is in America with dad, while I am stuck here. Without her. How did they expect me survive? Twins should never leave each other. I should never be forced to do this, but I am. I am forced to face this alone.

I knocked on the big door of the classroom and then slowly opened it. Inside were boys and girls sitting at desks, big text books out in front of them. They were all looking at me. I scanned the crowd then I saw them, in the back.

Two good-looking boys, who were absolutely identical. They looked a bit like cats with their angular features. I almost broke down right there when I noticed their eyes were trained on me, just like everyone else. Eyes that like mine and Sparrows radiated that they were one half of a whole. Eyes that when one twin looked into the others they could not only see their twins soul but their own. I hated them immediately.

Why the hell should they still have each other when Sparrow and I were torn apart?

"Excuse me, but who are you?" asked a middle aged man by a giant desk, I assumed he was the teacher. After a moment I was able to speak.

"I'm raven" I said, and in my head I could hear her say 'and I'm sparrow.'That was always how we introduced ourselves. I being the older twin went first then she added her name. We would then strike a pose add a piece sign and say 'and were the Korin twins!' How I wish she was here.

"Oh so you are the new transfer student. Well Young man why don't you sit next to Hikaru Hitaciin. Hikaru raise your hand." Yes you saw/read right he said man. I really hated the girls uniform and I was sure as hell not going to wear it, no matter if the maid hat it placed on my vanity that morning.

Instead I wore what I wore back at my school in the states, the one without a dress code. It was a large hoodie with a Kingdom Key on it and a pair of tight fitting skinny jeans with some converse. In the states that would be considered normal thank you very much, but here I was being stared at like a monkey in a zoo. And I hate to admit it but with my boy-cut red hair I guess I kinda did look a guy. Oh well no point correcting him considering I had already ordered the boys uniform, I would be damned if I wore that yellow monstrosity.

I searched the room with my eyes to see who I would be sitting next to. God must hate me because it was one of the two twins. He looked bored and was gazing off into space. I doubt he even knew what he was raising his hand for.

I slowly walked towards him and sat down next to him. All this time I had not taken off my hood and had kept my face relatively low to the ground. Yes I could still see, I just didn't want them to look at me, though I guess that is too much being the new kid and all.

"Oh and take off your hood." The teacher added as he crossed his arms.

I slowly reached up and started to lower my hood. I shut my eyes as I pulled the hood the rest of the way down. I didn't want anyone to see my eyes. I didn't want them to freak out like some people did.

"And open your eyes." I heard a snicker beside me. I snapped my eyes open and turned towards on the twin I think was called Hikaru. It took a second before a shocked look appeared on his face. Then I softened my gaze and looked out on everyone. I heard several girls gasp and many pairs of eyes widen.

It was the curse of having these eyes. They were the richest shade of blue. That alone is not unusual, The thing is that there were silver specks that Sparrow said shone like diamonds.

Then I heard several girls start to chatter about something about a 'host club' and they were wondering if I would be in it. Stupid yellow buffalows. What even is a 'Host Club' anyway?

****Time Skip***

For the rest of the class period I kept my head down, my eyes trained on the barely readable scribbles on my desk. By the time lunch rolled around I knew that some girl named Eliza loved a guy named Ryuu but some one thought he was to good for her. Also the person who sat here before me really liked skulls.

I walked into the cafeteria and was shocked at it's enormous size. At our…. My last school the cafeteria had been half this size, even though in the U.S it was just a prestigious. As I looked around I saw a table that was nearly empty on one half, the other was filled with giggling girls. God help me now.

I took a seat as far away from the crazy fan girls as I could. How could I tell they were fan girls? They had 'I LOVE TAMAKI!" armbands. Yeah… let's leave it at that.

I opened my lunch box to see what my maid had made for me today. It was some simple rice balls, but at the bottom were some fruit roll ups she had no doubt smuggled from the states. I love her so much. I decided to eat that first and just as I had taken of the shiny wrapper someone sat down in front of me.

It only took me a glance to figure out that the person wearing the boys uniform was a girl. It was obvious to me. Maybe it was because my maid was a cross dresser. Yes, just like the person across from me she got a high out of dressing like a boy, not that there is anything wrong with that. I mean I am planning on wearing the guys uniform. That just made me wonder what this girls circumstances were.

"Hey." The girl across from me said smiling. "My name is Haruhi I'm in class 1-A with you." I could tell she was not happy to be sitting near me, the new weird kid. I noticed she was glancing over my shoulder so I turned and saw that the Twins from before and some other boys were sitting at a table behind me.

Great I already had weird stalker like boys, and even better that two of them are twins. Kill me now.

"You can go and tell your friends to leave us… I mean me alone." I wasn't fast enough to catch my slip up. It was just so natural for me to speak as if Sparrow was by my side. I had done it all of my life. Apparently Haruhi noticed.

"What do you mean us? There's no one here but you and me, unless you count the fan girls, but I doubt that." She said changing her demeanor a bit. (Yes I do use big words.)

"If you leave right now and speak of this to know one I won't let anyone know you're a cross dresser." Now I didn't know if others knew about her being a cross dresser, but considering the school we were in I doubted they did.

I know that this probably seems like a bitch move but let me explain myself. I am all alone in a foreign country and have just started my first day at a new school. All day long I have had people staring at me and making me feel like I am an exhibit. Then when I finally have alone time some girl tries to start a conversation with me.

"How did you-" she looked shocked.

"My maid is a cross dresser, and like her I am sure you get some kind of high from dressing like a guy, not that there is anything wrong with that. Now go please. I don't want to be near anyone, I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to get attached." I will admit I said it a bit coldly, but she just smiled back.

Oh god no. I know that smile. It was the smile Sparrow always made when she knew something was wrong, but I wouldn't tell her. This girl must be really good at reading people, but that doesn't matter because what she said next floored me. "Don't worry, you will love it here. Everyone is really nice despite being a bit... different."

Then she yelled out "He said it's fine! Come on over!" and before I knew it I was surrounded. Just great.

"HI! My name is Tamaki and I am the prince of the host club!" said a blonde guy very happily. I kinda think he might be gay, simply because at one point he said the word 'Fabulicious'… but then again I'm just like that when I'm near Sparrow, so I can't complain. Before I knew it all kinds of introductions were being thrown around causing my head to spin.

Everyone was so happy and carefree. A short boy named Huni was eating cake at an alarming rate while a very tall boy who I believe is named Mori just sat passively next to him. Then there was a boy who I am pretty sure is named Kyoya, who was writing away in what appeared to be a black folder, yet I could see the glare of a screen on his glasses, so it was probably an Ipad or something. Not to mention the boy named Tamaki who was fighting with the twins who I now knew as Hikaru and Kaoru. The last peson at the table other than me was the girl whose name I discovered to be Haruhi, and she seemed to be the only normal one, ignoring all the chaos and simply eating her bento.

"JUST STOP!" I yelled finally snapping. Everyone just stopped to stare at me "WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE! CAN'T YOU SEE I'M NOT OKAY! THAT ALL I WANT IS TO GO BACK HOME! I REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT THE HOST CLUB! I JUST WANT TO GO BACK TO AMERICA DAMN IT! ALL I WANT IS SPARROW!" And I ran out of the cafeteria holding back tears knowing I caused enough of a scene already.

I don't know how long I ran for but when I stopped I was in a maze. I had no idea how I had gotten there, therefore I had no idea how to get out. So I did the logical thing and just started going down random paths. I soon saw a little pagoda (The white circle thing) and I quickly sat down. I finally let the tears fall.

I had not cried when I boarded the plane here, or when I gave my sister my last hug. I didn't cry during the plane ride, or when we got to the mansion and I realized that my room only had a twin bed. I didn't cry when I realized that my stuffed pink penguin would not be on the dresser next to her blue one.

But I cried now. After seeing the twins my heart started to crack, and every time one of them talked or joked with each other I felt it break more. And every time I saw them I knew that my other half was so far away. So out of my reach. And then at lunch they just accepted me. I couldn't take it. All the world I needed was Sparrow, I didn't need them. But I wanted to be near them, to know that there were others out there that felt the bond I felt, even though it brought me so much pain. So I had to leave, before I was crying in there like I was now.

I heard a twig crack and I lifted my head to see what made the noise. I saw the blonde boy from earlier looking at me with a strange look in his eyes. Was that pity? I had never seen anyone ever look at me with pity, and I am not sure I like the feeling it gave me when he did.

"Go away." I said trying to sound tough but my voice cracked and I could still feel tears coming out of my eyes.

He didn't leave though he only came closer and her gave me a big fake smile. He then held out his hand and said two words that only my sister had ever spoken to me, "It's Okay."

Without a second thought I barreled into his chest and I sobbed. I have never been the person that just hugs people but I just needed comfort because in that moment I had hated myself. For being so weak, for missing her so much, for needing her so bad.

"Why? Why?" I repeated over and over again into his chest. He didn't answer only put a warm hand on my back and his other on the back of my neck. And he just let me cry.

"How do they expect me to live without her! Don't they know she was the only thing that mattered! Do they even care! I need Sparrow! She's my other Half so why did they take her away!" I sobbed into his chest.

"I am sure you and your girlfr—"he started.

"She's not my girlfriend, she's my twin! My TWIN! The other half of my soul, for christ's sake! So can you tell me why!" I asked lifting my head and looking into his eyes and what I saw shocked me. He looked like I had just punched him in the gut, then after a few seconds he looked at me with that same look of pity again. No wait it wasn't pity, I don't know what it was exactly. What I do know is that it made me feel worse then the look of pity had.

After a few seconds I buried my head back into his chest, I didn't want to have to look him in the eyes any longer. A while later my tears stopped an I felt my vision start to go black. My last remaining though was 'maybe god will at least let me see her in my dreams'.