Note: Heya guys! I just decided to take a break from my twins story and I wrote this oneshot... you know what? If I get some nice reviews on this I might make it into a story. I dunno, I just thought I needed more Haruhi in a story and her not to be such a bad guy like my current one. Sorry for rambling.

I do not own Ouran High School Host Club. (but hell, I wish I did!)

Haruhi sat thinking as she sighed in despair.

"The school year's almost over and I still can't decide who I like more, Tamaki-senpai or Hikaru," Haruhi moaned.

Tamaki and Hikaru glared at eachother angrily as they awaited in the bush; they continued eavesdropping quietly none-the-less.

"You like Hikaru?" Kaoru asked as he walked up and sat next to Haruhi. She blushed and shook her head.

"D-did I say that?" Haruhi stumbled in her words.

"Mmhmm, you also said you like our lord," Kaoru added. He looked up heavenward and sighed. "So you like Hikaru?"

"No, I don't," Haruhi whispered, staring at Kaoru's face. "Honestly."

"You've never been a good liar, Haruhi," Kaoru scolded as his gaze fell onto her again. "Never ever."

Haruhi turned away and blushed. Somehow this always happened, she knew she liked Hikaru as more than a friend but Kaoru was something different. He thumbled her insides and she couldn't figure out if she just wanted to be his "friend" or "more than a friend." She suddenly felt a hand wrap around her and pull her close and she felt Kaoru's chest moved up and down in a deep and thought-out sigh. The fingers of Kaoru's hand stroked her arm and Haruhi closed her eyes.

"Yeah, I like Hikaru," Haruhi finally admitted, closing her eyes. "I just can't lie to you."

"Take good care of him," Kaoru whispered as he released her and stood up.

"What? What was that supposed to mean?" Haruhi asked defensively, her blush gone.

"Nothing, just take good care of him."

"Are you going somewhere?"

Kaoru laughed loudly and dryly, but didn't look at her. "Yeah, I'll be going somewhere for awhile."

"Can I at least talk to you while you're gone? I need someone to talk to you, and I can come clean with you the easiest."

Kaoru stopped and felt sick to his stomach. "Can I at least talk to you while you're gone?" Her words still rang throughout his mind.

"No," Kaoru finally answered and began walking away. "You can't."

"What? Why not?" Haruhi almost cried. "Kaoru, where are you going?"

"Just don't follow," Kaoru scowled.

"Maybe I will!" Haruhi threatened.

"No!" Kaoru finally shouted at her, turning around and gazing hatefully into her eyes. "You won't! You can't and you wouldn't even if I wanted you to!"

"You don't want me to come with you?" Haruhi sounded hurt.

Kaoru sighed and looked away again. "No, Haruhi. You don't..."

"What? What don't I?"

"You don't deserve it," Kaoru whispered. "Where I'm going? People like you shouldn't be there, it's just not right."

"You're giving me this damn rich speech again?" Haruhi shouted at Kaoru. Kaoru laughed and shook his head, refusing to look at her. "Then what is it?"

"It's not a good place, Haruhi."

"Then why are you going?"

Kaoru trembled and he knew he had to get out of there. Finally he dashed away and ran and ran, he even continued running when his lungs were yelling, "Stop! I can't get anymore air! You're killing me!"

Kaoru fell face first when his legs gave out on him, too. He held his stomach with one hand while his knees and other hand kept his face from coliding with the ground. He hacked and coughed as his lungs scraped for air and weren't finding any, for Kaoru wasn't breathing slow enough for any to come in. Kaoru's face became flushed and tears ran down it and he let out whining noises in between his desperate gasps for air. He looked back up at the sky and closed his eyes.

"No..." Kaoru breathed out. "Where... I'm... going... you don't... deserve it... you... deserve... better..."

Kaoru collapsed onto the grassy terrain and went unconcious, unaware of even where he was.

"Kaoru!" The three shouted as they came upon Kaoru's struggling body.

"You idiot!" Hikaru scowled as he picked up Kaoru lightly and held him like you would your wife or your child. "What the hell were you thinking?"

Tamaki and Hikaru had came clean when Kaoru ran off and told Haruhi that they'd been eavesdropping on her for quite some time now. She was going to yell at them but remembered Kaoru. Then they all ran off towards where he dissapeared to and now found him struggling to breath on the ground. Hikaru nuzzled Kaoru's face with his own.

"Don't worry," Hikaru cried lightly. "I'll take care of you."

Haruhi looked at Kaoru's face and began to cry herself.

"What did he mean?" Haruhi sobbed. "Where is he going, Hikaru?"

Hikaru remained quiet.

"Well? You know don't you?" Haruhi cried a little harder. "Where is he going that we can't go to?"

"I think I know," Tamaki admitted. "and we can go, Kaoru just doesn't want us to."

"Where?" Haruhi and Hikaru both questioned.

"Nevermind," Tamaki whispered and he caressed Kaoru's face with two fingers. "Just don't ever let him out of your sight."

"Will do," Hikaru replied. "I never plan on it."

Hikaru sobbed and held Kaoru close and he choked and added, "I never planned on it."

"I'm so sorry, this was all my fault," Haruhi sobbed and held her face against Kaoru's chest and sobbed. Hikaru managed to get a hand onto Haruhi's back and Tamaki placed his on top of Hikaru's and he stroked Haruhi's back and Hikaru's hand. "I'm so sorry!"

Hikaru laughed, "You're acting like he's dying."

Tamaki cringed and pulled his hand away and he looked away. No one noticed that Kaoru had been concious for a couple minutes now, and he watched how Hikaru stroked Haruhi's back. How he loved her so dearly. If Kaoru wasn't struggling with breathing he'd be struggling because he would've been suffocated by tears. Kaoru only had a deep desire to hurt Hikaru, to make him realize what he'd done before he left. Kaoru loved Hikaru, sure. Kaoru loved Haruhi, too. They didn't deserve his love.

Or rather, Kaoru didn't deserve to love them.

"Do... you like me?" Haruhi asked as she gazed into Hikaru's eyes. "As more than a friend?"

Hikaru's eyes kept shifting as he searched Haruhi's for some answer, like it would be written on her pupils or something. His mouth opened slightly but he closed it again. Tamaki sighed and finally broke the silence, "I like you, Haruhi."

Haruhi smiled and laughed slightly.

"I-" Hikaru tried to answer but he stopped and shook his head and stood up, holding Kaoru close to his chest. "I can't answer you on that right now. Kaoru's more important right now."

Hikaru walked off with Kaoru, leaving Haruhi and Tamaki alone. Haruhi smiled and laughed a bit as a tear ran down her cheek; Tamaki wiped her tear away. Haruhi whispered, "Kaoru's always more important than me."

"They're just discovering the world Haruhi, taking Hikaru away like this is harsh and cruel; I've noticed the effects in Kaoru," Tamaki replied, seriously.

"The effects?" Haruhi wondered.

"The effects," Tamaki responded quietly. "Kaoru doesn't talk as much; he smiles too much. Kaoru's slowly getting thinier and more delicate, taking Hikaru away from him is throwing his balance all off of course. I talked to him about it once, a long time ago. He said he wanted to break away from Hikaru; he needed to break away from Hikaru? I can't remember which it was."

"This is all my fault?" Haruhi thought out loud. "That means I was right when I said that it was my fault? But I-"

"I know you never meant to do any harm to him," Tamaki replied quietly. "but you did a tremendous ammount just by that. Just by caring, you hurt him deeply."

"But-"

"Let's go."

Tamaki grasped Haruhi's hand and pulled her off with him towards the area which Hikaru and Kaoru dissapeared to.

"What are you saying?" They heard Hikaru whisper. They finally came into view of the twins and stopped. Kaoru was lain out on the grass, with his hand on his stomach and he was gazing at the kneeling Hikaru next to him. "What are you trying to say to me?"

"What's with the acting?" Kaoru whispered, their voices a little easier to hear now that they were closer.

"What are you trying to say to me?"

"You're horrible," Kaoru finally sobbed. "You're a horrible person, a horrible brother."

"Wha-?"

"Don't pretend!" Kaoru spat, angrily. "I'm sick of that! You acting like you never did anything wrong!"

"What did I do?" Hikaru sobbed, laying his head on Kaoru's chest. His body trembled and everyone knew he was sobbing; something Hikaru would never normally do.

"You know what you did," Kaoru cried. Their sobs matched the others and just hearing that unity made them cry harder. "You know what you did."

"I don't!" Hikaru cried deeper. "That's what's wrong! I don't know what I did!"

"You're horrible for that too, not even realizing my problems when our sempais were well aware of it. You're my twin! You can't even see what they can?" Kaoru snapped, the sobs evident in his anger.

"Don't leave me," Hikaru sobbed. "Please, don't leave me."

Kaoru's dry laugh was heard again, but this time it was mixed with the crying and tears. It made Haruhi feel kind of sick, to see this entertainment in all this sorrow. He finally replied, "I've been planning on leaving for a long time now. I always have. I wanted you to know something before I left however..."

"What?" Hikaru picked his head up a little and gazed at his brother.

"I love you," Kaoru sobbed a little deeper.

"I love you, too," Hikaru replied, confused. "I've always known you loved me."

"You don't get it," Kaoru laughed again. "I... I..."

Hikaru shook his head. "I don't get it."

"I love you, Hikaru," Kaoru replied a little quieter. His breathing evened out and he seemed to be falling asleep.

Hikaru seemed confused; he shook his head again. He whispered, "We've always loved-"

"More than that," Kaoru cried lightly. "I know you'll never love me back. That's just why I wanted you to know before I left."

"What?"

"I love you, Hikaru," Kaoru whispered again. "I've always wanted to tell you."

Hikaru smiled and sat up and picked Kaoru up again. "Then we're going home now, okay?"

"You don't get it-"

"I do, and we're going home."

Hikaru smiled and kissed Kaoru's forehead. "You're right, I can't love you like that, but I still love you a lot, none-the-less."

"Hikaru," Kaoru whispered and blushed. "Could you, do something for me?"

"Anything," Hikaru answered truthfully.

"Could you, kiss me?" Kaoru's face was tremendously red now.

Hikaru smiled and whispered again, "Anything." He layed his lips onto Kaoru's and they stood there for a while, and Hikaru's face became red itself. They broke off the kiss and Hikaru dropped Kaoru onto the ground and Kaoru groaned at the impact.

"What the hell?" Kaoru scowled.

Hikaru covered his mouth and backed away and fell down himself.

"What happened there?" Kaoru growled. "The realization that I was a man and you're little twin brother?"

Hikaru shook his head vigorously and he closed his eyes and kept shaking his head.

Tamaki laughed a little next to Haruhi.

"What's wrong with Hikaru?" Haruhi wondered worridly.

Tamaki laughed and smiled to her, "Oh, nothing."

He looked back at the two and laughed again, "Nothing at all."

Haruhi smiled and looked at the twins and then at Tamaki and she closed her eyes and sighed.

"I still have another year to decide," She whispered.