Joe was thinking about the last night happenings all the fucking day. He could see her standing before him with those horrible tears on her beautiful face. That view made his heart broke apart and he promised himself that he will never ever allow something bad happen to her. The worst thing is that he was the reason of her tears.
"I really am sorry Effy" he kept whispering all over again while kissing her hair softly. He could feel her small body in his arms shaking so he pull her even closer to him, holding her tighter.
"You have been fucking avoiding me for 2 weeks. No answering my calls, texts... missing at every party we were. Jack said that you are busy with that new play of yours. But... I know it is not true. You are my best friend. We were always hanging out every day. But these 2 weeks... they were just so fucking long without you. I know that you are angry with me I just don't know why. Have I done something wrong? " she demanded some explanation.
"No, no, no babygirl, of course you didn't do anything wrong. I am not mad at you for fucks sake. How could I be. You're... perfect. It is all my fault, I just couldn't be near you after what happened the last time. That kiss was just...fuck..it was incredible..you were incredible. I wanted more you know and if we wouldn't stop ..I don't know what I would do. I couldn't think about anything else after, but you. I got you all over my head. Fuck this. I am sorry.. I just...just thought it would be the best for us to have some space."
"Space?" she picked her head up and looked into his eyes. Fuck she is beautiful he thought. "So that's what you want?" she asked quietly. Her big grey eyes looked down again, so she didn't have to face that deep blue stare of his.
Her long black hair was falling along her face down almost to her bottom. One piece of hair was falling and covering her eyes. He raised his hand and gently tucked it behind her ear. Instead of letting his hand fall down, he caressed her cheek tenderly and lifted her chin up with his index finger and thumb.
"What I want? You just can't be serious Eff. Fucking hell, of course I don't want this. I just.. don't have a choice. We don't have a choice. You know that. We are best friends since fucking elementary school. You and me, we can't have more. It would be a disaster. You are the one who said that. I don't wanna ruin what we have. I can't lose you. And whatever this is, I am not willing to risk our friendship over it."
That happened last night at the Bayern pub, where she had a concert with her band. Joe didn't even remember when she started to sing for the very first time. She inherited the talent from her mother. She used to be a world known star, once. But she died when Elisabeth was just a little girl. Her death was fairly mysterious. They never really found out what happened. Some called it suicide, some murder. But Effy never really believed that her mother would willingly left them – her, her brother Roman and Alex, their father. Since her mother's death they were living in Stockholm, because it was Alex's hometown. Later, they moved back to London. When Effy grew up, her dad sent her to the boarding school in Bristol. He wanted her to stay away from the showbiz. He swore to protect her, something what he couldn't do with her mother. He never really succeeded in keeping her away from singing and acting. She was born for it.
He smiled when he remembered the place they first time met in. Roundview college. She was a little girl back than. Now she is a star. People around the world love her. He loves her.