"You are not leaving this room until you finish studying! You're useless! Do you have no goals in life?"
A normal girl would start sobbing and complaining about free will. As for me? I can only feel a dull throbbing in my chest. No tears came. Once, I used to feel hurt, but then I got used to it. I sighed as I started memorizing the textbooks.
When I was in third grade, I wanted to make my mom proud. I pushed myself to get good grades, and she was delighted. I maintained my good grades until about seventh grade, and that's when I stopped. That's when I discovered singing.
My friend, Miku, was a dancer, and she was missing a singer for her band at the time. She volunteered me to do it. My mom was keen on it at first, because it was a chance for her to finally show up the Kagamines and their talented kids. But as I kept performing, my grades dropped, but I didn't care. The feeling of being there, on stage, singing your heart out, was irresistible, I loved it. But she didn't.
My mom only pushed me harder than ever, locking me in my room, threatening to cut my food, and banning me from singing for life. Miku gradually floated away from me, and suddenly, I was alone. It made me wish that I never got good grades from the very start.
It made me wonder if sixteen is too young to contemplate suicide.
It probably is.
But I don't care.
When I finally got a 100% score in my finals, I expected myself to be happy.
But why aren't I smiling? Why does my chest feel so heavy?
Isn't this what I was meant to do?
A growling voice inside my heart know the answer to the last one.
No.
I stood up, went to my mother and apologized to her, ignoring her startled expression.
I was meant to sing.
I walked over to where Miku was with a sense of freedom in my heart, and ripped the test paper in my hands.
And sing I shall.
Author's Note:
Hi guys! This is my first one shot, so I hope I did well. I'd love reviews and favorites, and I especially favor criticism. (Weird, I know...)
I wrote this in the heat of the moment, so I feel really guilty that I placed her mother in an antagonistic light. I know she just means the best for Luka, but Luka has...different interests.
Anyway...Thanks! :3