Its senior year and it's also a start for something new. This will be the year where I don't have to pretend for someone I'm not, a year where I can start totally being honest with myself after several years of denial with my sexuality. I don't have to lie to myself anymore and just fully embrace who I am.

Coming out was never easy, I have to consider everything especially my parents. I have to understand that the world might also change. I was fortunate enough that my parents was so understanding with this and accepted me. Although there were some hesitation from my mother at first but it didn't take long for her to come around. It was also hard for my father but he told me that I am still his daughter, that it doesn't matter what my sexuality is as long as I'm healthy and happy.

As for my friends, they just accepted me whole heartedly without giving it some second thoughts. Hanna of all people told me that it doesn't matter who I dated, if it's what's making me happy then they're also happy for me. But there's also some times where people decided to be stupid and tried to be an asshole but I really don't give a damn for their shit. I won't apologize for who I am.

A knock on the door brought me out from my thoughts and I turn around to see my father leaning the door frame. Surprised is just an understatement of how I'm feeling right now.

"When did you get back Dad?" I ask while giving him a hug.

"Late last night, you were already sleeping when I went here to your room. So, all ready now? I'll drive you to school."

"Thanks Dad but you don't have to. You've just got back and you still need to get some rest."

"I can take all the rest I want after I drop my little angel to her school. Besides, it's not like every day that you become a high school senior."

I've melted to my father's words so I hug him again

"I love you too Dad."

I parked my jeep on one of the school's parking space, I was about to get out from it when I saw her. She was standing together with her friends besides Spencer's SUV. The sight of her makes my stomach flutter and I couldn't take myself to look away from her. That sweet smile on the sexiest lips I've ever seen and damn, I could kiss them all day if she would let me. Those pair of dark brown orbs where I can easily get lost to, nose with prominent bridge and a tone body sculpted to perfection by her sports.

"You're drooling again McCullers." came the voice that interrupted my thoughts.

"You and your exaggeration. Remind me again why were best friends?"

"Cause I'm the only one who can tolerate your one hell of a temper aside from Miss Perfect over there who can easily subdue you without doing anything"

"Geez Syd, can't you lower your voice? Or might as well as I gave you a megaphone and start announcing it to the whole school."

"As if the whole school doesn't know that already, what difference does it makes."

I froze to Sydney's remarks, it's not that I don't want the whole school to know that I'm a little less straight because I'm pretty sure that it's well established even if I haven't said a thing about my sexuality but I just don't want them to know that I'm crushing on someone who is clearly not available.

"What do you mean?" I ask her after I got out of my jeep.

"Everyone knows how you can easily lose your temper and it's very noticeable how you would cool off immediately when Fields is there. But don't worry, they just assume that you don't want some complications with one of Hastings friend."

I let go of my breath which I didn't know I was holding and give Sydney a smile. I glance one more time to the girl I admire before we head inside to the school.