-1Hate Leaves Scars

Hate leaves ugly scars, and love leaves beautiful ones.

Both Cameron and House are looking for the one thing that can turn their pain into beauty. Both have already found hate so all that is left is love.

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'I have one evening with you. One chance,' Cameron said, 'and I don't want to waste it talking about what wines you like or what movies you hate. I wanna know how you feel…about me.'

House sighs and fiddles with his napkin.

'You live under the delusion that you can fix everything that isn't perfect. That's why you married a man who was dying of cancer. You don't love. You need. And now that your husband is dead, you're looking for your new charity case. That's why your going out with me. I'm twice your age, I'm not great looking, I'm not charming, I'm not even nice. What I am, is what you need. I'm damaged.'

Cameron smiled sadly, leaning back in her chair she took a deep breath.

"You're calling me naïve", it was more of a statement then a question.

House shrugged, "You see the world as it is and you see the world as you can fix it. What you don't see is what everybody else sees."
Cameron crossed her arms and leaned back, "Enlighten me Doctor House. What does everybody else see?"

House took a moment before answering, "The fact that everything can't be fixed".

Cameron shook her head, "I-"

"You're not happy unless everything's fixed", House interrupted, "And that means you'll never be happy".

She shook her head at House's words.

Leaning forward she rested her arms on the table.

"I'd be happy with you", she told him, her voice slightly lowered.

House cocked his head, staring at her, "You don't want definitive, you want to hang on to your delusions as long as you can".

Cameron pursed her lips and leaned back, "You don't know anything about me".

House frowned, "Why would you say that?"

"Because anyone who knows me as me knows I'm no where near naïve", Cameron sighed and looked around, "Do you want to know something, House?"

It was House's turn to lean forward, "Enlighten me, Doctor Cameron".

"I want to 'fix the world' as you put it because I want people to have a good life. Because I've seen the bad life, I've lived it and I don't want anyone, not even an egotistical bastard like you to go through what I have".

Cameron shut her mouth quickly, realising she'd let too much out.

House's face softened, "You've lived it?"

Cameron reached for her purse that sat under her chair and stood, "Thanks for dinner, House".

With that she walked out of the restaurant leaving a curious House.

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Later that night Cameron started her shower and slipped out of her good dress.

Hanging it on the hook on the back of the door, she turned to look at herself in the mirror.

Wiping the makeup from her face she saw the same face she always saw.

As Cameron stared at her reflection it changed to the reflection she used to look at when she was 18.

Her cheeks were sunken in, her eyes listless and random bruises appeared on her face.

Cameron looked away quickly and splashed her face with water, wiping away reminisces of the past.

Walking to the shower, she stuck her hand under the spray.

Satisfied with the temperature she unclasped her bra and slipped out of her panties.

Stepping into the shower she let the warmth engulf her and fill her.

Grabbing the soap and washer, she began to scrub at her body.

Letting her hands trail down her stomach her fingers ran over the one thing that gave her nightmares.

Her fingertips massaged over the scar on her lower abdomen that repulsed her.

It was the one reminder of the past that she couldn't rid herself of.

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House slipped his shirt off and pulled on a pair of track pants. Slipping under the covers of his double bed he wiggled and fidgeted until he was comfortable.

Once settled his right had made its way to his left forearm.

Rubbing his fingers over the small scar there he could almost feel the metal pin that had been inserted into his arm.

It was the one reminder of the past that he couldn't rid himself of.

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Both Cameron and House are broken in ways that are so similar yet so different.

One persons pain is never identical to someone else's.

House see's the world bad because he is damaged yet Cameron see's the world good because she is damaged.

They are both broken and unfixable yet both looking for reassurance. For a cure.

Hate leaves ugly scars, and love leaves beautiful ones.

Both are looking for the one thing that can turn their pain into beauty.

Both have already found hate so all that is left is love.

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R&R

Should I continue?

I know House has MRIS in the TV show and that having a metal pin in his arm would make that impossible but lets just say that he's never had an ultrasound.