Is This My Last Sacrifice?

Chapter 1 – The Visit

RPOV

I'm stuck in this stupid cell accused of a crime I did not commit – sure I have voiced my dislike towards the queen and said things that may lead others to believe I could have murdered her but that doesn't mean I actually killed her. Come on I broke Victor Dashkov out of jail and other things so why would I leave such incriminating evidence behind? If I was going to kill the queen I would have done a better job than that and leave no evidence behind. Do they really think I'm that stupid? Surely someone must entertain the thought that such evidence would have been left behind if a person wanted to frame me, but no they are so caught up on trying to prove me guilty so they can say they have caught the killer to even think about this rationally. I understand they are scared, I am as well I mean come on I'm going to be executed sometime soon. I don't want to die I haven't lived properly yet. Thinking about who the real killer could be is the only distraction I can find that takes my mind of the only other thing I can seem to think about, Dimitri. His words still echo through my head Love fades, mine has. Those words shattered my already breaking heart. Those words were the words that have made me give up on him yet that doesn't explain why he protected me so possessively, even after I told him to stop fighting he wanted to, I know he would have took down all those guardians if needed to but I couldn't let his reputation be tainted further – he has only just been trusted enough to leave his cell, I don't want him back in here. Yeah that's another thing – I'm in the exact same cell he stayed in after turning back dhampir. Doesn't really help take my mind of him at all. My train of thought was disturbed by the sound of doors opening and closing hmm must be time for food again well I better keep up my strength if I want any hope of getting out of here. Escape is my only option, I know I will be found guilty because that's what they all want. I just don't know how I'm going to escape yet.

"Roza" Crap please don't be him Yet I know it's him I would recognise his voice anywhere. I really can't handle seeing him right now so I keep my back facing towards him.

"Roza please talk to me!" so now he wants to talk, looks like we have swapped roles now.

"Rose I'm sorry! Just please talk to me, let me know you're okay!" the desperation in his voice broke down my walls and I turned around to face him.

"Talk to you? Remember how not long ago I was pleading the same thing to you but you wouldn't listen. Just go Guardian Belikov" I know using his guardian title hurt him; I saw the flinch as I said the words.

"Rose please you know why, I still haven't forgiven myself for what I did to you back in Russia. Just please forgive me." Stupid Russian God was starting to get to me but I couldn't let him, I know he is only here to keep Lissa happy, he doesn't even know what I had to go through to save him from the life he never wanted.

"I already forgave you for what happened in Russia the moment I thought I had killed you on that bridge" I knew bringing that up was a sort point for both of us but he needed to know. "…and then again when you was turned dhampir again, what I don't forgive you for is the way you have treated me since Dimitri, do you have any idea of what I went through to save you from that life? Lissa may have been the one to shove that stake into you but she wouldn't of been able to without all those stupid things I did! Yet strangely if I could go back in time and change what I did then I wouldn't because you're back and you can go back to guarding Lissa while I am in here waiting to die." Traitorous tears were now falling down my face; I couldn't look at him anymore.

"Roza what did you do…?" I could hear the sadness in his voice, couldn't he just go now?

"It doesn't matter does it? Just go please Dimitri" I can't stand it anymore.

"Rose you have to tell me please! Surely you didn't do anything too stupid…..right?" Even as he said the words realisation hit him and he knew I head.

"You so sure about that? So what would you call breaking Victor out of prison then?" I whispered yelled at him since I was now at the front of the cell barely a few inches away from him, both of us holding onto the cell bars for dear life. He just stood there open mouthed, he knew how much I hated Victor and couldn't understand why I would do that.

"Rose please tell me you are joking! That was you? Why?" he whispered back to me still in complete shock.

"He had the information I needed, it was the only way to get you back, can you understand why I am hurt Dimitri, that wasn't the only thing I did and it has all been thrown back in my face yet you idolise Lissa now. I love you so much it hurts but I know I have to move on, when I get out of here don't look for me okay?"

"Roza no don't give up on us I was stupid I'm so sorry!" he was crying now and I felt so bad but I knew this had to be done. Then it dawned on him. "Wait, where are you going to go? How are you going to get yourself out of here?"

"Just get Abe please I need to talk to him" I had remembered something from the diaries that belonged to Anna the shadow-kissed guarding to Vladimir, it was something I knew could save me and get me out of here so I could find Lissas' mystery sibling.

"Ok but I love you Roza, just know I lied that day in the church and I will keep fighting for us." With one squeeze of my hands he turned around and left me alone in this cell. I was bombarded with many questions, did he really love me? It makes sense with the way he fought for me at the café and I can understand how he feels guilty for what happened in Russia but he needs to accept that it wasn't him; it was the darkness within him when he was a strigoi.