Love transcend
Summary:In a single moment,Shuuhei Hisagi changed the course of fate .Tousen learns Shuuhei's secret and with that knowledge,he starts to see what he once thought was light,was darker than darkness itself . Shounen-ai
Pre-series
Warning : It's been a while since I watched or read Bleach .Characters may be OOC ,for story purpouses .I tried to brush up the best I could but ?
Author's notes:This was something I'd been working on after I dug up the chapters to a Bleach story I wrote called 'Escape' ,which will be edited and uploaded shortly . Idea came from me thinking Tousen of all people being a mole was really kinda deus ex machina (aka ass pull) and having fun with the 'justice is blind ' thing .
It was a late at night when a drunken Shuuhei stumbled through the streets with an equally drunk Rangiku,both of them laughing at some unknown joke .Rangiku tripped and Shuuhei tried to catch her,bringing them both to the ground .
"Sorry .Shu-chan . . .mm okay .You okay?",she asked .He lie there for a moment before he sat up slowly .The world spun with him,everything was fuzzy as he had a split second of dizziness before his vision somewhat refocused .
"Mm fine . . .next time . . .not drinking so much",he said .Rangiku stared at him .
"What?",he said dumbly .Rangiku just laughed and fell onto him,her huge breasts pressing against him,her long hair spilled over her face .Shuuhei shrugged and wrapped his arms around her and they sat against a nearby wall,sweat plastered to their faces .
"Nuffin . . .",she said .In the next moment,Rangiku was pulling Shuuhei by his robes,her lips crashing sloppily on his .Teeth connected but it didn't stop them .They groped and kissed each other sloppily ,but it was still passionate .Soon they were both topless and snugged against the side of the 10th division barracks kising ,touching and feeling on impulse,alcoholic breath mixing with the scent of their sweat a far too familiar scent .Shuuhei was roughly grabbing Rangiku's breasts and she went for his sash,neither of them caring about the ocassional passerby,both of them completely lost .
"Gin . . .",Rangiku whispered the name of the man she wanted to be there so low that she could only feel the words pass soundlessly from her lips .Shuuhei was pulling Rangiku onto his lap .They had done this far too many times before .
Suddenly,Rangiku pulled away from Shuuhei . .The practically naked woman stood up so fast she nearly fell over .Catching herself on a wall,a dazed Shuuhei shifted slightly before stumbling to his feet himself .
"Rngiku? ",he said .She blinked and turned back to him,or at least the fuzzy image of him,the colors were right and she recognized the tattoo on his face .
"Weshould prolly go innside",she mumbled,half leaning,half kneeling against the wall .Shuuhei was dragging her upward ,her huge breast shaking as he heaved her .They stumbled into her barracks which were only a few feet off .Everyone else there was asleep,at least almost everyone .Unknown to them,Toushiro Hitsugaya was still awake,awaiting Rangiku's return as he always did on her drunken nights .He sat at his desk in their office,half sleep,but awake enough to sense Rangiku and Shuuhei's presence .The shuffling of feet on tatami mats were heard,bumping walls and sliding doors .Hitsugaya counted the steps before she made it to her room and awated the shutting door .
It was only then did he turn off the lamp and fell asleep at his desk .
The next morning,Shuuhei woke up alone in Rangiku's room the feelling of a hangover falling over him and the shame of having gone out drinking without finishing his paperwork .It was a rare laspse in judgement,a not normal occurance that only when he felt the lowest of the low,his heart ached more than anything .
"So,what will you do about it?"
"I don't know"
"You're moping again,c'mon ,I'm taking you out"
"I have work to do"
"Relax!Trust me,you need it"
"I'm fine"
"You can work with a broken heart and a wandering mind ,Shuuhei .It gets to be too much sometimes . . . ."
Rangiku was looking past Shuuhei .He caught a glimpse of Gin walking around outside .
When Shuuhei managed to drag his sorry ass back to his baracks,Tousen was waiting in a seat in front of the office .He was sitting there patiently,as if he had all the time in the world,his fingers worker expertly to undo what was left of his braids .Surprisingly,he was not wearing his visor, lavender eyes with thick lashes cast down downward .
Shuuhei had only seen Tousen's eyes opened once before without the visor and had never seen him with his hair out .It fsat out and upward and fell over his shoulders,making look even slimer than he already was .His Haori was draped over the back of the seat .This seemed completely out of character and there was work to do and . . .
"Did you have fun last night?",he said,a smirk on his face .
"I-I'm sorry ,Captain . . .I'm not feelng well",he groaned,dropping his head .Tousen sighed,his eyes still cast down .He finished the last braid,while Shuuhei waited quietly to be berated for his stupidity .Suddenly,he was grabbed by his wrist,Tousen was leading him into the office .
"I'd rather not everyone else in this division see you hungover too often,Lieutenant Hisagi .Try not to let this happen again any time soon .You can rest if you like",he said calm,but stern .Tousen returned to his desk and Shuuhei went to with his head on his desk .A glass of water slid next to him and Tousen was gone before Shuuhei could even thank him .
Eventually,Shuuhei did manage to get up and finish the reports,working well into the night .He was feeling somewhat better and vowed never to drink like that again .But with the demons that lurked in the corners of his mind,he knew that was a bold faced lie .
That night,Shuuhei's dreams were nightmares .Twisted versions of memories of years ago when certain things happened that shaped him the parts of himself he hated so much .
Shino academy was entirely over run by Hollows .The students were being slaughtered mercilessly,even those who fought back .The twisted creatures that were the hollows,wore white skeletal masked faces and holes through their bodies making them seem unreal .
Shuuhei was frozen between fight or flight and he had no idea which was better .He was surrounded by blood and body parts .With shaking hands,he closed his eyes and drew his zanpakuto only to drop it in the mass of corpses around him .
Shuuhei felt his stomach turn as he dropped down to the floor to grab his sword but saw a familiar face;his old friend Kanisawa's twisted form with missing limbs,blood seeped into her light hair,Aoga's head not too far away from a mutilated body .Shuuhei felt thears burning his eyes and force himself to dig through the masses of bodies for his zampakuto that seemed to be evading him .
He chased the sword outside into a moonless night and saw masses of shinigami slain .The eyes of every single hollow in the yard trained on him .
Shuuhei was tossing and turning in his bed,his hands visibly shaken .He tried to awaken from his nightmare but he couldn't .He was crying in his sleep .
The door to his room slid open and a figure quietly made their way to him .Shuuhei felt a cool hand on his shoulder .
"You're fine,Hisagi,you're safe .It's not real",the voice whispered .A cool hand grasped Shuuhei's tightly ,calming him .
"It's not real",the voice repeated .
In an instant everything became black .Instead of at the slaughterhouse he was before,Shuuhei found himself in a field somewhere,it was somewhere familiar .The full moon showed brightly in the sky,making the seen before him look sureal ,compared to where he was just recently .He looked around and saw he was surrounded by sakura trees and just up ahead there was a small and old looking pagoda house,the door cracked open .A set of trees twisted over the house,like a gateway in front of it,and two stone lamps flanked the building .Shuuhei stood up curiously and went to it .Upon shoving the door,he was pulled inside and the door was shut .
"You're safe now,Shuuhei",a voice said .It was Tousen Kaname .He was just inches away ,securing the door to the room they were in .His hair was out as it was earlier,his lavender eyes cast on the floor,looking quite literally at nothing .The shades of purple and brown contrasted with a black kimono,unlike his shinigami robes .His scarf was tied around his waist as a sash . .
"Thankyou",Shuuhei said softly,his pulse was no longer beating with fear of death,but something else .
Fear of rejection .
He took Tousen by his wrist and pulled his body against his,startling the other man .He waited for Tousen to pull away but he never did .
"You know . . .this is forbidden . . . .", he said .Dark hands enterwined with lighter ones,foreheads pressed together .
"I don't care",Shuuhei breathed out .
"I love you",he whispered .
Shuuhei awoke form his dream,his heart pounding in his chest .He was shocked by how realistic the dream was .He made sure that he was indeed sleeping alone and he was right .He felt a lump in his throat and his chest was still beating .He closed his eyes and tried to sleep again,but to no avail .He spent the night shifting between sleep and waking until hours later,he was asleep .
When he awoke,he was sure he heard the inexplicable sound of footsteps but found there was no danger .An orange scarf was left beside him .
The next day,Shuuhei was back on duty,filling out paperwork,making rounds as usual and nothing unusual happened except his wandering thoughts .He saw Rangiku pestering Gin under a persimmon tree on the way there,basket in hand .She trailed behind the poor man like a lost puppy and he was probably annoyed to death .Suddenly,he wrapped an arm around Rangiku and pulled her close .
Shuuhei knew now,he had no right to touch her the way he does .The way Gin ran his fingers gently through her hair in genuine affection,absence of lust,Shuuhei knew they were meant to be .
It was a shame though,that because of how others (including Shuuhei)felt about the man,that she had to see him in secrecy .Suddenly,he turned away,not believing it appropriate to shatter Rangiku's one true joy .There was something about Gin that only Rangiku knew,and he would let her have that .For a free spirited,caring and loving woman like Rangiku,there was no way she'd lay in a nest of snakes unless there was a good reason .Shuuhei resolved that he would let them be .
As he walked off, the two began picking persimmons from the tree .
Making his rounds,Shuuhei bumped into a lot of his fellow shinigami,some he wanted to see,some he didn't .Right now he was sitting on a bench with Rukia and Renji who were talking .
"So,what's it like?",he asked .
"What?",she said .
"The human world",he said .Shuuhei listened in,interested in the conversation .
"Well,it's really high tech for one",she said .
"Do you know what a car is?",she asked .
"Of course I know!",he said .
"Then what do they look like ?",she said flatly .Renji couldn't answer her .
Shuuhei and Renji listened to Rukia talk about all kinds of things,from flashing lights of the city,to computers that everyone had access to ,compared to the extremely restricted computers of the Spirit world .Shuuhei decided that he was going to make his next trip there much longer ,excited to see the sites .
"Oh yeah,and Hisagi,there are hell of a lot of bands too . . .if you were there,you could join one,I heard you play guitar",she said .This caught his attention more than anything .
"No,you haven't heard or else you'd have bleeding ears",Renji teased .
"Practice makes perfect",Shuuhei said .
"A lie if a ever heard one",Renji said,a smirk on his face .
"It can't be that bad .I'll come with you when you practice",Rukia said ,before Shuuhei could protest .
"I didn't know you were a masochist,Rukia",Renji said .
"She has to be to spend time around you",Shuuhei shot back .
"Hey!What's that suppose to mean?",Renji said .
"What I said .You're painful to be around",Shuuhei said .Renji was starting to get riled up and Shuuhei chuckled .
"It's not that seriouse,calm down,Renji",Rukia said .
"Yeah,don't take your sexual tension out on me",he said ,his eyes shifting between Renji and Rukia ,causing them both to blush and deny everything .
The conversation ended with Rukia agreeing to sneak Hisagi some CD's and an mp3 player specifically for Shuuhei and whatever else she desired to show to other Shinigami .Sneaking items from the Human world was a common practice (it's why Shuuhei had a guitar ,an amp and a stereo in the first place ) though there were certain captains (Byakuya),who gave hell for it .The discussion of what to do if they were caught came up and that's when the arguing began .
"Right . . .I'm gonna go dissapear before you two create a natural disaster",Shuuhei mumbled,creeping away .
"Hisagi!",they called after him,but he had already escaped .
Shuuhei went back to his office and what he did though,the dream plagued him so much through the day .It was when he heard the frustrated sigh of Tousen Kaname,did he look up .
"Captain,is there a problem?",Shuuhei asked .
"Yes,unfortunately",he said .He let it linger before he sighed .
"I lost my scarf",he said .
"Oh,well I could always get you a new one",Shuuhei said .He appeared to be unconcerned ,but inside he was wincing at how strongly he came on . .
"That would be nice,Hisagi",he said .
So,what do you think ? I think it's sweet . . . one more chapter