I wanted to save him,

But the water's already flowing over the rim.

~我愛你~

KAO POV

My brother, was in the Intensive Care Unit. He was, in an unstable condition. AKA: He was dying right in front of my eyes.

Now I was told I could save him I WILL save him. But at a cost.

Actually, I suspected it long ago, but I put it away into the corner of my mind.

Truth be told, I was Hikaru Hitachiin's clone, not his twin at birth.

I held my hand up to the light and studied it. It was fake, my body was fake, my mind was fake, my existence was fake. I have now idea how I was born, but I do know that I wasn't born from a human. I was fake...

Hikaru was dying from a rare disease, What exactly? I wasn't informed. My intelligence is being overlooked. My mother had never loved me as much as Hikaru, even though we never really came in contact; I have noticed the attitude difference.

Even if Hikaru's operation is successful, he will be paralyzed. That, is where I come in. Mother, no my fake mother, feared something like this would happen. This is why she had ordered scientists to make me. She needed a real heir, I was just the backup lifeline.

I had no right to feel hatred and jealousy, but I felt it anyways.

No matter how hard I worked, I was one level under Hikaru. Both he and I chased after Haruhi, but I let go, I knew I had no chance. I couldn't compete, yet I still yearned. I was weaker in every way.

He was 4th in class, I was 5th. Everyone always thought I was smarter, but that was false.

My life, was his. They were going to take my organs and implant it into Hikaru. and take whatever else they needed. Since we were exactly the same physically, he was sure to not reject my heart. Then, I would be left to die. According to mother, I was a being even lower than animals. I agree. I am not even supposed to be in the world.

All in all though, I think it was only fair I give my life to my brother. He has always given me love, unlike our parents. He has always protected me, if not physically, it was mentally. Even with the last of his strength, he had protected me from the assaulters. He jumped in front of me to shield me from the bullets, that should have been me. Maybe that was why mother slapped me and insulted me.

Right now, his heart was failing and his organs were shutting down completely.

As for me, I was strapped onto a hospital bed and there was no way for me to escape. Only my upper body was left free. Everything needed a key anyways, so my hands were no use. All I could do was wait until the doctors stripped me of my life.

I stared on, at the sheets, at the ceiling. Everything was so white. It was blinding me. It was killing me. Suffocating me.

Honestly, I wanted to runaway. To a peaceful place. Everything felt like a dream, no, a nightmare. I shall be killed. Then will I go to hell? or heaven? Or maybe my whole being will evaporate. I wasn't real anyways.

Frankly, I wanted to live, even if it was for the sake of the closest person to me, I'd choose to live. Sadly, I have no choice.

I wish this was a bad nightmare, I really do. But if it was, Hikaru would've awoken me already. I wouldn't be feeling pain. Not the pain of soon getting killed. Not the pain from the tubes entering my body from human made orifices.

There was a knock at the door and a solemn blond came in. Followed by the rest of my 'friends'.

I didn't want them to see me like this. I didn't want to be pitied. If I had one thing that was real, it would be my pride.

"Kaoru..." Tamaki whispered.

My fellow hosts hesitantly neared me.

I didn't smile. I didn't want to see these people, I spoke though, I didn't want them to think of me as a useless clone, my voice came out in a hoarse whisper, "Be afraid. I am a clone. I will be killed soon, so leave." I spoke in an emotionless manner. I literally didn't feel much asides from pain, rage and insanity.

For once, Kyouya showed emotion, "We want to help."

Haruhi came to hold my hand, "Please." Hunny held my other.

I didn't reject them, but I didn't particularly like them for invading my space, "Leave, I will get killed soon, I have diseases, I'll hurt you, GO AWAY!" Maybe I sounded quite vain.

Tamaki looked like he was going to cry, "Don't give up so easily, Kaoru, You-"

"I WHAT? I have no choice, I will be forced to let Hikaru live. I WILL DIE!" I felt no remorse for shouting into Tamaki's face.

Mori grunted and spoke for once, "Just listen Kaoru."

Hunny squeezed my hand and Haruhi did the same.

"What if I said you could live, yet save Hikaru at the same time?"

I glared at Kyouya, he was smart, I'll admit, but I wasn't about to trust him. I was just told I wasn't even supposed to be on Earth, and now I am told I can still remain on it and continue my ever fake life?

Kyouya started to explain, "Hikaru, is suffering from Cardiac arrest, which is-"

"I know what it is; something stops the blood from flowing, AKA: lack of oxygen throughout the body, which is why his organs and heart are failing," I closed my eyes, "Which is where I come in, my heart and organs will be extracted and will be replanted into Hikaru."

I spoke rapidly, but I didn't fail to astound the group. Everyone but Kyouya gasped. I opened my eyes again.

"Oh my god, this is against human rights," Haruhi held my hand to her cheek.

"Jesus," I jerked my hands free from their holders, "The point is, is that I am totally not human, Haruhi I know you want to be a lawyer, but laws are useless for me. There is not law that prevents a clone from being used as a substitute lifeline."

"There is something wrong with your logic there," Kyouya smirked slightly despite the grim situation. There was nothing more full of merit to him than to proving someone wrong in their desperation, "You say it like it's easy to transplant organs and hearts, obviously, it is not."

I rolled my eyes, I was really annoyed now, "We are in the hands of the best Doctors and Scientists in the world. I'd doubt a mistake."

"But, you could always escape," Kyouyas glasses glinted and he brandished out a lock pick, "Mori, you can free him right?"

Mori nodded and set to work on my legs.

"For fucks sake Kyouya, you think I can get away? You want Hikaru to die?" I nervously looked into the faces of my friends, "you guys are all going to get into trouble."

Tamaki smiled handsomely and chuckled, "You think we came without being prepared?"

"Hikaru is strong, your mother will probably pay a large amount for some corpse's organs, he'll live," Haruhi seemed confident, "also, ya think he'll enjoy living because he took your life?"

I was still hesitant, but Mori quickly said he finished. Hunny helped me up. My friends were there for me, so why waste their strength?

I readied to charge out of the horrid white room. I pulled out the tubes that stuck into my body and paused for a second to adjust to the pain.

When I was ready, I exited the room without help, leaving the rest of my host club behind.

That's when I permanently lost all my trust.

A gun was pointing to my forehead.

This is written for a friend's friend, honestly I don't really know her directly, but she seems like a honest, good person.

2 days ago, the girl went to a party with my friend, at around 9 o'clock, some bastard drove some car without lights on and hit her, now she is in Children's hospital.

Things shouldn't be like this, some stupid person almost stripped her of life, she is my age. I got the idea of this story because my friend said, "That guy almost took her life for no reason."

Be strong!

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