Xavier walked around the Half-Way House before walking outside and sitting down next to the fence. He had made good friends with Mikkayla and Matt but he felt as though he was missing something. He put his glasses on and adjusted his beanie which he was currently wearing. He was sitting down near the divider on the ground and he chewed on the inside of his lower lip. Everyone else was sleeping or so he had thought, he managed to sneak out of the bedroom without waking anyone else up. His mind was racing with thoughts, he had dated women in his life but something didn't feel right about it, of course he loved it but it just didn't feel natural to him. He sighed quietly in frustration and heard someone clear their throat.
Ed was up late due to not being able to get any sleep which he thought might have been from all the stress he was currently under. He came off as a carefree and well-mannered man but that was hardly the case. He wasn't what everyone thought he was. Everyone was trying to hook him up with Jasmin but it wasn't working because he didn't date women. Only when he absolutely had to. He dated men. Now that was a huge secret he had keep from everyone he knew, but his parents had passed away a few years back, he had no family left. He wasn't exactly in the closet, he had dated 4 different men but his experiences nearly went over kissing with them. He was single at the moment. He was declared the hottest male in the Big Brother competition at the current moment and that shocked him. He wandered outside and saw Xavier on the other side, he had never talked to Xavier or got to know him much. He walked over to the divider and sat down looking through it and at Xavier. He cleared his throat letting Xavier know he was there.
Xavier looked up somewhat instantly and saw Ed sitting down on the other side. Xavier had always thought since Ed walked in that he was a fairly attractive man, but he never thought to much of it. He knew Ed was a retired football player, for he remembered seeing him on Television a few times. He faked a smile at Ed, he didn't like bothering other people with his problems. Yet he didn't know how much Ed and him were alike.
"Shouldn't you be in bed?" Xavier joked raising his eyebrows at the man which was only a few months younger than himself. Ed smiled brightly at Xavier, he didn't know why he didn't talk to Xavier more often. Xavier seemed like a loyal and trustworthy friend, if they were friends. Ed ran a hand through his hair and laughed quietly at what Xavier had asked.
"Maybe. I couldn't sleep, I uh, think it was the caffeine from the coffee," Ed lied smoothly smiling at Xavier. He had quickly noted that Xavier looked tired, worried and stressed. He could see straight through that fake smile which Xavier wore. "What about you? Why are you up so late?" Ed asked the Half-Way HouseMate feeling curious and slightly depressed to know that Xavier was sad.
Xavier shrugged his broad shoulders and put his hands in his lap causally. The more Ed talked the more he realised how much he liked this man, he hated that though, he had never considered himself homosexual. Xavier shook of the thought realizing Ed was only in jeans and that made him feel slightly uncomfortable. He sighed quietly not really knowing what to say to Ed, he hadn't really talked to him much during there time in the Big Brother house hold but they were still there.
"My family died in a plane crash, they were going over to Western Australia for a Holiday. Big Brother told me. I have nothing to go back to expect a few friends. I had a choice between leaving and dealing with their...deaths...or staying here...I'm staying here because I don't want to face reality," Xavier told Ed honestly and felt a single tear roll down his cheek.
Ed's eyes widened as he heard that, he knew what it was like. He didn't have any family left either. He didn't care about the consequences, he didn't care about getting kicked out of the big brother house, he cared about comforting Xavier. Ed stood up and quickly looked at the divider, he saw one of the gaps and he stepped through that and ducked, managing to push himself through the fence. He felt shocked when he didn't hear Big Brother say anything yet he also felt slightly relived.
Ed jogged over to Xavier and sat down next to him, putting a comforting arm around his shoulders. Xavier was shocked that Ed would risk getting kicked out of the house for him, more tears rolled down his cheeks and he leant into Ed's embrace. Ed smiled feeling Xavier lean closer to him,
"I know how it feels. My parents died a year ago, I was an only child. They were murdered because I owed a very powerful man a lot, the man had a few of his followers torturing my parents until they died. Worst part is, I saw everything and I couldn't stop it, the memory haunts me every single day of my life," Ed whispered to Xavier quietly, he was the first person he had told about the way his parents died. Xavier looked up at Ed a few tears still streaking down his face.
"My family died in a plane crash, my parents and my four brothers. It's all my fault, I suggested to them they should take a holiday there. I just didn't expect that to happen," Xavier whispered back chewing on his lower lip.
"Xavier, listen to me. It is not your fault, no matter how much you think it is, it's not. You weren't the one driving the plane. I understand what you're going through and don't you dare ever think that you are to blame for them passing away!" Ed ordered Xavier somewhat gently and he felt Xavier nod. He pulled Xavier closer to him and wrapped both his arms around him. Xavier felt slightly awkward yet he felt safe. Ed felt like he was finally at home. That's when Ed realised, he had a crush on Xavier. Ed would rather Xavier hold him and so did Xavier but at the moment they were comfortable, and that was the only thing that mattered.
"Okay I guess you're right but-" Xavier started and Ed instantly cut him off with a small kiss on his soft lips. Ed didn't know what came over him and he was about to pull back but then he felt Xavier kiss him back after a few seconds. Ed moved, not breaking the kiss and laid down on his back pulling Xavier down with him. Xavier had never even kissed another man before and it felt different, almost refreshing. The kiss got more heated, rougher and more demanding on Xaviers side. Ed rested his hands on Xaviers belt but Xavier broke the kiss and got off Ed.
"Not now, not here," Xavier told Ed quietly and he smiled seeing Ed nod. Staying here was the best choice he had ever made. Xavier stood up and help Ed up off the ground.
Ed leaned forward adjusting Xaviers glasses for him and smiled. Neither of them remembered that cameras where always watching them, but nor did they care. They just had to keep this a secret, would this last? Neither of them knew the answer to that. But Xavier leaned forward placing a small yet loving kiss on Ed's lip before moving away. No other words were exchanged. Ed was hesitant but he turned and stepped through the divider and watched Xavier walk into the Half-Way house.
Nothing would be the same between them.