A Perfect Soldier's Heart
I've never been very good at apologies
I didn't think I'd return
So now here I stand, please, just listen
Don't start walking away
You've always showed me affection
Tried to melt the ice around my heart
Another mission, a call from space
I was off again, leaving you behind
I thought you were a nuisance
An annoying liability
But time can change one's heart
I realized that I truly did…
"No!" my mind screams, "I can't love you!"
The perfect soldier, that's all I'll ever be
Emotionless, cold, my heart won't be won
You are just an obstacle; my mission is my goal
I couldn't ignore my feelings
Scared of them, I kept running away
So I'm not the perfect soldier, at least not in my eyes
But I'm still a danger to a princess, I can't stay
Try to understand me
I did it for your own good
I wasn't about to let you get hurt
Just to fill my own empty heart
The war ended, it was finally over
A new threat came to interrupt peace
As I tried to stop that endless waltz
You stood proud, ready to die for me
I remember walking in, gun in hand
The base in ruins, Mariemaia wounded
I knew the pistol wasn't loaded
Still I had to say those words
"I won't hurt anyone ever again. I…don't have to."
I fell forward, my world spinning black
You called my name, ran to catch me
For the first time I was in your arms
Yet I left when I had the chance
Still a danger, always a soldier
But I couldn't stay away from you
Your touch lingered on my mind
So please understand Relena
I never intended to hurt you
But your persistence showed me how much you cared
And even the perfect soldier has a heart
A heart that belongs to you