White wolf
Why do they have to be fighting again? I try listening to I won´t give up of Jason Mraz, using it to suppress their yelling.
It´s no use.
Haven´t you ever wanted to create a ball with your body and just die there and now? You try to be invisible, just enough to be left alone. But somehow they always notice you and never leave you alone.
I try to live my life, doing what people tell me to, I'm not someone that says what she thinks out loud, I don´t like being the center of attention most of the times but others I just wish I could be the center of attention.
I have two best friends but our friendship isn´t how I want it to be. I wish I could have friends to whom I can tell everything and know they won´t judge me. Friends to whom, in situations like these in which my parents are fighting, I could call and they´d know what to tell me to make me feel better.
But they aren´t like that.
We´re three. Abigail is blonde and hot. Hannah is brunette and she has amazing green eyes and she has a nice body.
I´m Camille, I´m not hot or pretty or anything. I´m not fat I just don´t like my body, I don´t like my appearance. I have light brown skin, wavy black hair which passes my shoulders right up until the end of my breasts and chocolaty brown eyes.
It´s hard being friends with Abigail and Hannah, especially when they´re the complete opposite and they have arguments often.
Our friendship isn´t what I would like it to be, but we love and care about each other. It´s hard for me to imagine a life without them. There are things I hate about them, mostly their attitude but I learn to live with it.
If I didn't have them I'm sure I wouldn´t go to school, they help make it bearable. Some of the guys in my class pick on me and Abigail and Hannah are always there when I need them.
We live in a small town in Spain. We can go walking to the next town and then drive in a car for ten minutes to reach the next. The towns here are really close to each other. The sea is north and there is a lot of green space here, loads of mountains and forests.
I raised the volume of my MP4 as the yells got louder.
I wasn´t unhappy, I liked my life. I just got accustomed to the bad things which were mostly my family life not that my social life was good either.
I would spend grounded a lot of weeks, therefore I wouldn´t hang with my friends and the consequence is that people exclude me.
"Hannah!" I said putting my arms around her neck and hugging her.
"Camille! You´re back" She exclaimed. " You´ve grown heaps" What´ve you done to grow so much?"
I had spent the two months of summer holidays in Australia visiting some family and I had grown taller, much taller. I had always been one of the shortest people in my class, the guys would always tower over me and I would have to stand on tippy toes to make out with them, but now I was nearly their same height.
I had gotten a bit worried because me being this height wasn´t normal. Everyone in my family is really short.
"Camy!" Abigail squealed.
"Hey Abbie!" I said giving her two kisses on her cheeks. Abbie didn´t like hugs.
" Geez, you´ve grown" Abbie said looking up at me.
"So I've been told" I said "How´s summer been?" I asked.
"Great! And guess what? Hotties have appeared!" Abigail practically screamed.
I sighed, Abigail would always be on a look out for hot guys. Ever since primary school, us three have been in the boys group of friends. We don´t like hanging out with the other girls of our class.
Ever since we were in the boy gang, Abigail had been on the lookout for hot boys she could date, she considered all the guys of our gang un-datable.
They were like our brothers.
"Camille!" Jason said hugging me. "It´s been too long" he said smiling.
Jason and I had always been really close. When the guys messed with me he would stand up for me and I always knew his shoulder was one I could cry on.
"I know" I said.
Suddenly, they all looked towards the start of the street of where we were, in front of a candy shop.
"What is it?" I asked.
"They act like they´re the kings. I´m starting to get sick of them" Adrian murmured.
I saw one of the four boys look at him and smirk. I heard Adrian gasp.
I looked at Abigail and saw that she was pretty much drooling over them. I looked at the four boys and examined them more closely.
They looked to be no more than sixteen- twenty years old. They had tanned skin and short black hair. I couldn´t see their eye color from here, but what I could see was that they were totally and completely hot.
They were wearing cut offs, a t-shirt and sneakers. How was it that they weren´t cold? In our town it rained most part of the year and the temperature was really low.
The guys turned the corner and they were no longer in sight.
"Who were they?" I asked.
"No idea" Abigail said. "They´re not from here. They´re from towns close to ours. Apparently they missed some school and then started hanging out together with another guy called John. It´s all people have been talking about around here because before they missed school they didn´t even know each other and then suddenly, they´re inseparable." She explained.
"Weird" I murmured.
"Tell me about it" Paulo agreed.
Screaming again. This time though I went for a walk to the little forest I had behind my house.
Three weeks had passed since I had first seen the boys who are now known as ´the pack´. A lot of people were getting paranoiac considering the amount of similarities between this situation and the shape shifters of twilight. It seems truly absurd.
I was getting worried with things that were happening to me. I was getting angrier much easily and I was losing weight pretty fast and without doing anything. My temper was getting really bad and I was having problems controlling myself. I felt like I was going to explode.
I was having arguments with Hannah and Abigail practically every day because of my attitude and I was getting sick and tired of it.
The pack was passing everyday by our town and apparently they go through every small town close to ours. It is really freaky, but people are learning to just let them be, seeing as there is no explanation for their sudden change.
Although, others are getting obsessed about it, mostly boys. One of the guys had created a web in which appear photos of the guys of the pack before and after their absence.
The girls would simply drool over them and hit on them.
I had learned most of the guys from the pack´s names: Paul Baker, Lucas Harvey, Isaac Fisher, Michael Owen (The ones I saw when I returned from holidays) and their sort of leader John King.
Well, as I was saying, I went to the small forest behind my house, I was walking when I heard yelling.
"What the hell are you guys doing here? I told you to leave me alone!" I heard someone scream.
I got a little closer and I saw Paul, Lucas, Isaac, Michael and John along with another guy beside them whom I guessed he had probably joined them recently because I hadn´t seen him with them until now. They were shirtless and shoeless.
The new guy was yelling at another two guys, I had never seen them before. They were a little shorter than the members of the pack. At least they were wearing a shirt but I don´t know if that is good or bad. They seemed really angry.
"Daniel! You said they were idiots and that they acted like they ruled everything and now you´re one of them!" one of the guys with a shirt on yelled.
"I was wrong Gabriel, you don´t understand how wrong I was. But you´ll understand soon too." Daniel said softly.
"We thought you were our friend, but then you just start hanging out with these idiots!" The other guy with a shirt said.
Isaac and Paul growled, I flinched involuntarily. Where the hell did that come from?
"Calm down guys, he doesn´t understand" John said.
"Then explain" Said the same guy that had spoken last.
"We can´t, Samuel" John said. "Not now at least"
I looked closer at Samuel and Daniel. They looked exactly like the other guys. Tanned skin, short black or dark brown hair and hot. But I could see Samuel´s eyes from here.
Although there was anger in them, they were green, the purest green I had ever seen.
A soft breeze of wind lifted and made my hair get in my face. The wind was blowing against me.
Suddenly, the members of the pack forgot about the argument, sniffed the air and looked at me, a smile appearing on their faces.
"Um…sorry" I said blushing at the thought that I had been caught eavesdropping.
Now that they were looking at me I took the opportunity to look at their eyes. The eyes of people were very important to me.
I saw that Isaac had grey eyes, Paul and Lucas had brown eyes like mine and Michael had dark blue eyes. John had a weird eye color. It was yellow mixed with green and brown.
As soon as I finished looking at their eyes I turned around to leave.
Talk about awkward, I thought.
I rushed into my house and found that my parents were still arguing.
"Hey miles" My sister saluted me using her nickname for me as we both entered my room.
"Hey Kayla" I said.
"Want me to paint your nails?" She asked. She knew I hated it when our parents fought. I nodded.
Kayla was nineteen, I was fifteen and turned sixteen in a few months.
I spent the rest of the day with my sister and eventually we fell asleep on my bed.
Okay, something is definitely messed up. Yesterday I was at the candy shop with my gang and when the pack passed beside us Paul and the other guys smiled at me, weird much?
Abbie and Hannah asked me while the guys were still in the street if I had some sort of relationship with them, I said I had never talked to them in my entire life.
Seriously, the fact that they had been smiling at me freaked the living hell out of me.
Abbie and Hannah are getting mad at me because they think I want to have them all for myself. How the hell can they think that?
I just know that I'm gonna lose it soon.
I´ve seen Samuel and Gabriel a few times again, strangely I have found myself waking up and hoping to encounter Samuel and his incredible green eyes.
"It isn´t because of my period!" I screamed to the doctor starting to shake slightly.
"Camille, calm down!" My mother scolded me.
The doctor looked at me as if I was crazy, big deal. The nurse looked at me for a second, whispered something to the doctor and then left the room. Talk about weird.
"Well, I don´t know what else could cause you stomach aches. You don´t have your period or it isn´t due within a few days?" The doctor asked again.
"No" I replied roughly.
"When was the last time you had your period?" The doctor asked again. I blushed. Effing doctor…
"Um… it´s been two months since I haven´t got my period" I said softly.
"Are you a virgin, Ms. Mason?" The doctor asked. WTF! He did not just ask that.
"What the heck does that have to do with anything?" I asked angrily.
"If your period is still due and you have stomach aches it may be that you are pregnant" The doctor said.
"Yes, I am a virgin. Thank you very much for your time doctor" I said as I got up and left his office dragging my mum.
As we were leaving I saw the nurse from before in a corner speaking to no other than John King.
This is not my day.
I seriously can´t take this anymore! My parents are screaming again. Hannah and Abigail are mad at me because I freaked out yesterday when they asked me for the hundredth time about me and the effing pack.
Right now everyone at school thinks I'm a freak and I just can´t take it anymore.
Plus, Kayla is moving out. The one person I thought would never leave me is doing that exactly, leaving me alone in this hell hole I have to call home.
I can´t take it anymore. I´m shaking and I can´t understand why. I manage to run to the forest and hide before anyone can see me, I don´t need anyone else thinking I'm a freak. I run to the forest because for some reason I feel safe there.
I feel a shake pass through my spine and then an incredible pain pass through my entire body, I feel anger take over.
I´m on all fours now, I feel like someone is breaking my back and ribs, as if my organs are too small for me and my heart is going to give out anytime.
I feel something breaking out from inside of me. I´m growing fur and the ground is getting further away. What the hell is happening?
The next thing I know, I'm looking down at some white paws that belong to me. I walk towards a small puddle in front of me and I see a white wolf staring back at me, it has my eyes, they are my eyes, I´m the wolf.
I tried not to freak out
"Camille?" I heard the voice of Paul.
"Um… hello?" I asked stupidly.
I heard Paul chuckle.
"Finally, took you long enough" He said.
"Excuse me?" I asked, he was getting on my nerves.
"We´ve been waiting for you to phase for months" He said.
"So I guess those freaks that believe you´re shape shifters just like the twilight ones aren´t crazy at all" I said.
"I'll be there in a sec, what made you explode?" He asked.
If I would´ve been in human form I would´ve blushed. No one knew about my parents often arguments, not even Hannah and Abbie.
I started remembering the many fights I had witnessed unconsciously. The fights during which I would cry myself to sleep with my MP4 on and the song I won´t give up of Jason Mraz playing again and again until I fell asleep.
"Sorry I asked" He said sadly.
Paul reached me in his wolf form. His fur was chocolaty brown, much like his eyes but his snout, the tip of his ears and of his tail had a reddish color.
"Wow, a white wolf" He said astonished as he eyed me. I saw what he was seeing, I was nearly entirely white, except for the tip of my left ear which had a black mark.
"Hey, I´m actually cute" I said.
Paul chuckled.
"More than in human form at least" he said mockingly. I growled. Wait… I just effing growled!
"Sorry" I said apologetically.
"Don´t worry you´ll get used to it, it´s in our nature" Paul said and with that he howled.
A few minutes later I heard John´s voice in my head.
"What´s wrong Paul?" I heard John say.
"Hey John" I said.
"I see" John said.
I heard other voices join in in my head. Isaac, Lucas, Michael, Daniel and John headed to where Paul and I were.
"Hey Camille!" Isaac said happily.
"Welcome to the pack" Lucas welcomed me.
"Wow, a white wolf. Isn´t white supposed to mean pure?" Michael asked to no one in particular.
"Then what´s with the black mark?" Daniel asked.
"Um… I don´t mean to be rude nor do I want to interrupt your observing time but I am a second away from completely freaking out so if you could get to explaining what exactly just happened to me, I wound be grateful." I said.
"Well Camille, you´re a shape shifter, you can turn into a wolf" John said.
"Hadn´t noticed" I said.