Today was the day. The day that Boq would leave me. Forever. But I would have none of it. As he walked away, I grabbed his arm.
"I thought you loved me, Boq. Was every kiss and touch…a lie?" He sighed, turning back toward me. In those eyes, I could see everything I was about to lose, and for a second I felt sorry for Elphaba. Because now I understood what she had been ranting about all those years. The long-winded speeches I had ignored, shrugged off like it was no big deal, before demanding another request from my already overworked sister. I gritted my teeth and glared at him.
"Nessa, I can't stay married to someone I don't even have feelings for. That night at the dance was nothing. Glinda was the one who told me to invite you, and I caved because I loved her. I still love her. Perhaps she has seen reason, and loves me now, too," I shook my head quickly, trying not to hear the meaning behind the words I didn't want to hear. I couldn't lose him. Not the only thing I knew I deserved to have.
"Please stay," I said, tears streaking down my face, "for me," Boq searched my eyes, and shook his head sadly.
"Sorry, I can't. Not even for you," He started walking away again. I wheeled myself after him as fast as I could. My arms weren't used to getting around on my own, so I tired out quickly. But I determinedly kept going, until I ran into him.
"You must stay," I insisted, twining my fingers in his. If you don't…you'll be sorry," For some reason, this amused Boq. He smiled and looked back at me.
"Oh really? Sorry how?"
"I'll make many new laws against you wretched Munchkins. You won't even get the chance to breathe without my consent when I'm finished. I'll make it more and more difficult for you to even write a coded message to your precious Glinda. As for leaving my sight…you can forget that. I'll be the first, and last, face you'll see for the rest of your life. The only lips to touch your cheek will be mine. The only eyes to gaze into yours will be mine. The only person you'll say the words 'I love you' to will be me. I'll make it so, and not even Elphaba can stop me," Boq's eyes widened. It had been nearly two years since I had even mentioned Elphaba. As far as I'm concerned, she may as well not be my sister anymore.
"You would really go that far just to make me stay?" he asked in an awed whisper. For one second, I thought he would choose me. But no, his mind was set on those blonde curls and blue eyes, both of which weren't mine. I helplessly watched as the only one I have ever loved, besides Elphaba and Father, disappear. I felt strangely hollow. Empty. All that remained was a shell that represented me. I calmly wheeled myself back inside and picked up the wand sitting on my desk. Perhaps there was an answer…