Title: Assimilation
Author: lildreamer
Rating: K+
Spoilers: none
Summary: She tried to resist, but she could only fight so long with so much against her.
Disclaimer: Stargate: Atlantis and all its characters belong to SciFi and MGM. The song "Gollum's Song"belongs to Emiliana Torellini. I own nothing!
A/N: This is set somewhere between "Lifeline" and "Be All My Sins Remember'd."
Now, read on…
Where once was light
Now darkness falls
Where once was love
Love is no more
Where she was, or why, or when, or how, she couldn't know. There were no days, no hours, no moments, no way of knowing, no chance for knowing how long she'd been here.
Been where?"
Somewhere. Far from home. Far from her friends.
Don't say goodbye
Don't say I didn't try...
Cold…so cold. She slid down against the wall of her holding cell, pulling her knees up to her chest, accepting her fate. Her head sank. She'd been in danger before and knew what fear was. She'd been on her own before and knew what it was like to be alone, at least for a while. But fear and loneliness were nothing compared to this. What's happening to me??
The darkness was trying to take her. As long as she had hope, she could handle fear and loneliness. But the darkness went straight for her hope, stealing it from her, leaving her with nothing but a blackened room, enemies all around, nowhere to go, and no one to hear her cries for help. Get out of my head! Leave me alone!
A miracle would have been so welcome, perhaps someone in a military uniform to suddenly barge into the middle of this madness, offer some explanation that would make sense of it all, and carry her out of this nightmare and to safety, to Atlantis and home.
But there was no one, no miracle.
She just had to cry, so she let go, abandoning herself to her sobbing, her hand over her mouth for fear that they would hear.
These tears we cry
Are falling rain
For all the lies
You told us
The hurt, the blame
And we will weep
To be so alone
We are lost
We can never go home
A barrage of random thoughts and memories suddenly filled her mind. Millions of them. None her own. Her head began to ache. It was too much. She held her head, wincing in pain as one twisted thought or memory after the other flashed in her mind. What is this? What's in my head?? This isn't me. This isn't my life.
"No!" she cried, shaking her head. She was trying to block them out, but the headache only intensified. Stop it!
I am...My name is…Her mouth formed the words, but they were lost in the countless voices invading her mind.
Amidst the endlessly repeating cycles of terror, in the swirling, kaleidoscoping sounds, images, and sensations, pulsing, pounding, surging, and throbbing in her mind…she was forgetting who she was.
So in the end
I will be what I will be
No loyal friend
Was ever there for me
One minute, she had a handle on her humanity, and now she could feel it slipping away. Everything good in her, her very soul, was slowly being pushed away. She once knew of friends, family, a home where a sense of right and wrong lived.
But those people, and that time, and that life were becoming…nothing.
Now we say goodbye
We say you didn't try...
These tears you cry
Have come too late
Take back the lies
The hurt, the blame
She fought valiantly, resisting their influence. But in the end, it wasn't enough.
She could only fight so long with so much against her. With her last reserves of strength gone and her will broken, she reluctantly gave herself over. I'm sorry…
Gone forever in that moment was the woman known as Dr. Elizabeth Weir.
And you will weep
When you face the end alone
You are lost
You can never go home…
I know…kinda dark and sad. So, whaddaya think? Love it? Hate it? Reviews welcome!