A/N: I'm sorry, this is all I have.
x-x-x
I care about you, more than you know.
Bo's words echoed in her head as she ran. No idea where she was going, no idea who to turn to. She was alone. Always alone.
Tamsin, I love you, I do, but not like that.
She stopped running, looking up into the vast darkness, she screamed. Her heart was breaking. No, not breaking. It was shattering into a million pieces, with no hope of ever being whole again. She should have known, somebody like Bo could never love her, nobody could.
She found herself standing outside the Dal. She knew going inside would mean questions, she also knew it would mean alcohol. Walking inside she saw Vex and Mark, a few other Fae drinking away what was left of the night, and she saw Trick behind the bar.
"Tamsin..." Trick said as she walked over to the bar.
"Give me a bottle of the strongest shit you've got..." Tamsin said as she sat on the bar stool.
"Are you okay?" he asked, his voice truly full of concern.
"I don't want to talk about it," she said, "I just want a drink..."
"Maybe we should call Bo..." she heard Vex say.
Trick watched as he saw Tamsin's eyes fill with tears, her pain clearly etched on her features. Without saying another word he went into the back room and got a bottle of the strongest alcohol he had. He knew a glass of it would put down most Fae, but he knew Tamsin needed it. He placed it down in front of her, softly placing his hand over hers as she fought her emotions.
"Thank you..." Tamsin said, taking a deep breath before she opened the bottle and started drinking.
As Tamsin drank she couldn't stop the visions coming into her head. Memories of waking up next to Bo. The Dal started to empty slowly, it was like people could feel Tamsin's pain, her need for self-destruction and they didn't want to be there to see it. While people were leaving, one person walked in. The one person Tamsin really didn't want to see.
Lauren walked over to the bar.
"There you are..." she said to Tamsin.
The Valkyrie couldn't help but think that Bo hadn't talked to the doctor yet, if she had Lauren wouldn't be anywhere near Tamsin.
"Now isn't a good time..." Trick said to Lauren.
"What happened?" Lauren asked, looking between Trick and Tamsin.
The Blood King just shook his head a little.
"Are you okay?" Lauren asked Tamsin.
The Valkyrie kept her eyes trained on the bottle of drink in front of her as her heart started racing. She was taking slow deep breaths trying to calm herself down. She knew it wasn't Lauren's fault, even though the little voice in her head was telling her differently.
"Tamsin..." Lauren said, placing her hand softly on Tamsin's shoulder.
"Don't..." Tamsin said, shrugging off Lauren's hand, "touch me..."
"What happened?" Lauren asked, "I don't..."
"Of course you don't..." Tamsin replied, drinking more of her drink, "for someone who is supposed to be so fucking intelligent you can be really fucking stupid some times."
Both Mark and Vex were now paying attention to the scene unfolding at the bar.
"If I've done something..." Lauren said, trying to calm the situation down before it got out of hand.
"Leave me alone Lauren..." Tamsin said.
"Tamsin..." Lauren said.
"Go away..." the Valkyrie said.
"I'd listen to her if I were you Doc," Vex said, walking over to them, "she's hurting right now."
"But..." Lauren replied.
Unable to force the pain down any longer Tamsin snapped. Tears streaming down her face she looked at Lauren.
"You won Lauren..." she said, clenching her jaw, angry at herself for allowing this side of her to be seen by anyone, "you won..."
"Bo..." Lauren replied quietly.
Tamsin didn't say anything, she just stood up.
"Tamsin, I'm..." the doctor started to say.
"Don't say you're sorry, because you're not." Tamsin said, "you wanted her all to yourself, well congratulations, you got what you wanted, again."
Lauren didn't say a word, she couldn't. Tamsin's anger was starting to build beyond anything she could control. She rested her hands on the bar, breathing deeply.
"I think it would be better if you leave..." Trick said.
"Don't worry, I'm leaving..." Tamsin replied.
"I was talking to Lauren." Trick replied, looking at the broken Valkyrie.
A look of understanding passed between the Valkyrie and the Blood King.
"I'll leave, but not until I've said what I have to." Lauren said.
"You have an out, I would take it." Vex said.
"Why is everything so cold?" Mark asked as the atmosphere changed in the Dal.
Trick looked at Vex.
"Get Dyson." he said.
Vex nodded before heading out of the Dal. He wouldn't be able to stop Tamsin if she completely lost control, he knew deep down Dyson wouldn't be able to either, nobody could, not now.
"I am sorry that you're hurting, Tamsin, I really am," Lauren said, "because I know just what that pain feels like."
"You think you know what pain feels like?" Tamsin asked, "you think you know what this feels like?"
"I lost her once..." Lauren said.
"You never deserved her to start with." Tamsin said, losing the last strand of control she had over her emotions, "you have done nothing but try and change her since the moment you met..."
Trick could feel the energy flowing from the Valkyrie as her hands started to shake as she gripped the bar.
"I love Bo..." Lauren replied.
"No, you don't," Tamsin said quietly, "you want her to be something she's not, someone she's not..."
Vex arrived back with Dyson. The two slowly walked into the bar.
"You will never understand..." Tamsin continued, "never. But how could you, you're human, you'll only ever be human. In 50 or 60 years, if you're lucky enough to live that long... When you're old, and dying..."
Tamsin's features started to darken as she thought about the pain that Bo would be in when Lauren died. She looked at the doctor.
"When she is suffering, when she is hurting, when she is having her heart ripped out of her chest because of you," Tamsin said, stepping closer to Lauren, "You're going to kill her Lauren. One way or another. And when you do, when you die, I'll be waiting. You think you know what pain is..."
As Lauren started to back up Dyson made his move, rushing round behind Tamsin he wrapped his arms around her as tightly as he could.
"This isn't the way Tamsin..." he said quietly to her, his voice catching in his throat seeing the pain that she was in, knowing that pain the way he did, "I know it hurts Tamsin, I know... But not like this."
"Let me go." Tamsin said, struggling against Dyson.
"I can't do that," Dyson said, "you know I can't do that. Tamsin, I know this feels like the end of the world, I know..."
Tamsin breath caught in her chest, her features remained darker than any of them had ever seen.
"But it isn't... Trust me it isn't..." Dyson said.
"Well, actually..." Vex said, Trick shot him a look, which made the Mesmer shut up again.
At that moment Kenzi walked into the Dal.
"Well isn't this is shit storm that I saw coming..." she said, slowly walking into the Dal.
"Kenzi..." Trick said, thankful to see her again, but not under the circumstances.
The small human smiled at him a little before walking past Lauren and over to Dyson and Tamsin.
"Tamsin... Listen to me..." Kenzi said, looking into the shadows where Tamsin's eyes should be, "I need you to listen to me... Okay... Let her go Dyson."
"I can't do that." Dyson replied.
"Let her go..." Kenzi said looking at the wolf, "trust me, please..."
The wolf nodded a little and let go of Tamsin, he didn't move too far away, but he let her go.
Kenzi smiled a little at the Valkyrie, her hands reaching up to Tamsin's cheeks, her heart breaking for the girl who stood so broken in front of her.
"You can't let the pain win," Kenzi said, "I know that's the easiest thing, to just open up and let it in... Hurting Lauren isn't going to make this right, it won't make it better..."
"I can't..." Tamsin started to say, her features slowly returning to normal, her eyes burning with tears.
"Yes you can," Kenzi said with a nod as Tamsin shook her head again, "you can, and you have to. Do you know why... You're my family Tamsin, and I need you..."
"We all do..." Trick added quietly.
"Don't let this destroy you..." Kenzi continued, "don't let that darkness take over. You're more than that."
"Without... I'm nothing..." Tamsin replied, breaking down again.
x-x-x
A few hours later, Tamsin was asleep on the sofa at the Dal, Kenzi didn't know whether it was because of the drinking or the crying. Seeing Tamsin in pain broke her heart. She knew it was more than that, she knew it was more than a heartbreak. Lauren had left the Dal shortly after Kenzi had arrived, not realising how easily she had gotten off.
Vex, Mark, Dyson and Trick all fell silent as Bo walked in. Kenzi moved from where she was sitting, watching Tamsin, over to the bar.
"Kenz..." Bo said, rushing over to her.
"Don't..." Kenzi replied, stepping back from the Succubus, "this will never be okay, Bo..."
She looked over at the sofa where Tamsin was sleeping, Bo followed her eyes.
"I'm sorry..." Bo said quietly.
"You invited her into your bed," Kenzi said, "she laid herself bare for you, literally, she gave all of herself to you, and you took it..."
"Listen..." Bo said.
"I'm not finished." Kenzi said, interrupting her, "you took it without thinking. I know you're a Succubus, we all know, because we've all been dealing with this for 5 years."
"I am sorry that I hurt her..." Bo said, looking over at the sleeping Valkyrie.
"You didn't hurt her," Dyson said from where he was sitting nursing his drink, "that isn't what that was. You destroyed her."
"You bounce around, from person to person, Dyson to Lauren, to Dyson again," Kenzi said as Trick poured her another drink, "then onto Dyson and Lauren... And then you move on to Tamsin... She's a Valkyrie Bo, do you not understand that?"
Bo didn't say anything. She didn't know what to say.
"Valkyrie's fall in love once," Vex said, downing his drink, "once... Tamsin has lived 14 lives, 7 more than she should..."
He stood up and grabbed his jacket.
"You were her once, Succubus," he said, walking closer to Bo, "her once in forever. We could all see it, but you couldn't. The one person who can actually read auras and you couldn't see it."
"I've never been able to read hers..." Bo said quietly.
"Because it's a weakness, to Valkyrie's, love is a weakness," Vex said, "love causes nothing but pain to them, you have brought nothing but pain to her. Thanks for the hospitality Trick, but the air just turned very sour in here."
With that Vex left the Dal. His words sinking in as Kenzi picked up another drink.
"I didn't mean..." Bo started to say, her breath a little ragged from the feelings building inside her, "I didn't think...I..."
"You never do..." Dyson said coldly, "you never do."
The door to the Dal opened again. Everyone was surprised by who walked in.
"It can't be..." Trick said.
"Freyja..." Kenzi said, "what are you doing here?"
"I'm taking her home." Freyja said.
"This is her home," Bo said, "You're not taking her anywhere."
"This isn't her home," Acacia said, walking up to Bo, "this is her personal version of Hell, and that is all down to you."
"I never asked her to fall in love with me!" Bo yelled, unable to contain it anymore, " I never asked her to."
"You didn't have to." Freyja said calmly, "she's been waiting for you. Nobody was ever enough for Tamsin, but you were. I've had many, many years to think about what punishment would be enough for Tamsin. All the messes she's made, all the deals that she made..."
Freyja looked at Trick.
"But this... Even I couldn't have done this." she continued, "I'm going to give her a choice, she can come home, back to Valhalla, or she can stay here. The choice is hers, I can't force her either way, it's been a long time since Tamsin has done what I've asked. I can take the pain from her, I can stop it hurting..."
"But..." Bo said.
"But you will not like what is left behind." Freyja replied, "I should kill you where you stand, but I can't, your father has plans for you..."
"Freyja...?" Tamsin asked, waking up hearing her voice, "what are you doing here?"
"You know why I'm here Tamsin..." Freyja replied, smiling softly, "I can make it stop."
Tamsin looked around at the faces in the bar, her eyes falling on Bo, the pain in her chest becoming unbearable yet again.
"Do it..." Tamsin said.
"Tamsin..." Bo said, starting to walk closer to the Valkyrie.
"No, you have no say in this..." Tamsin said to Bo.
"Don't do this Tamsin," Bo said, knowing that she could still get through to the Valkyrie, "please... I need you."
"No you don't, you made that pretty clear," Tamsin replied, "now run along Succubus, your doctor is waiting for you."
"Please, listen to me..." Bo said, her eyes brimming with tears, she walked over to towards the sofa, "don't do this because of me... You're better than this."
"Better than this, but still not enough for you..." Tamsin said quietly before she looked at Freyja, "do it."
Freyja stood in front of Tamsin and placed her hand over Tamsin's heart.
"This is going to hurt." Freyja said.
"Not for much longer..." Tamsin replied.
Freyja closed her eyes and a bright light emitted from Tamsin's chest. The lights in the Dal flickered before the bulbs all exploded. Tamsin let out a heartbreaking scream before she collapsed to the floor. Bo moved to rush over to her, before Dyson stopped her.
"You don't get to do that anymore." he said, walking past her and joining Kenzi who was now at Tamsin's side.
"She's going to need rest," Freyja said, "she probably won't wake again until morning."
"Take her home..." Bo said.
Dyson picked Tamsin up from the floor, he looked over at Trick.
"Do you still have that spare room?" he asked.
Trick nodded and Dyson carried Tamsin downstairs.
Acacia walked up to Bo, stopping directly in front of her.
"She trusted you," Acacia said, "she turned her back on everyone and everything she knows, for you. She died for you, and the sad thing is, she'll do it again. And when she does, when she kills herself for you, and she dies for good... While you're standing there with your human, be sure to look at her, Succubus, because you did that."
Acacia left the Dal without saying a word to anyone, Freyja wasn't far behind, but before she left she turned to Bo.
"You will never set foot through the gates of Valhalla," she said, "you will never get your hero's end. When you die, Ysabeau, I will watch you burn in Hell."
Bo felt all the air being sucked from the room, she looked around to find that she was now alone.