~*~ Author's Note ~*~
This is Chapter 1 of my Destiel Fanfic.
This picks up where Season 8 of Supernatural left off. Just fair warning.
Everything that is Italic'ed is Castiel's POV he's thinking.
Castiel stands there in the forest with pain in his eyes as he looked up in the sky to see his kin falling from the Havens, watching everything he worked so hard to fix fall apart. Castiel lost feelings in his legs and fell to the ground, this sudden wave of emotion overwhelmed him as water started to fall from eyes. "w-what is this..why" Castiel said aloud hoping something would answer
"I don't understand this feeling.. this pain, Father are you punishing me?" Castiel heard Dean shouting his name off in the distance he took one last look up into the Sky and walked off towards the sound and found Dean trying to hold Sam up.
"Sam. If Naomi was right about Metatron then.. the other endevers she spoke of are true if Sam finished the ritual then." Castiel ran over to help Dean put Sam in the Impala
"Dean, what happened?" "I honestly don't know I stopped him before he finished but real some shit is going down" Dean firmly shut the car door and ran back inside the Church Castiel followed behind once they got in they saw Crowley still chained "Listen here bastard. This is how it's gonna be we know a lot of shit on how to take you down now that we have the tablets, I'm gonna unchain you. You come after me or my brother or anyone we've come in contact with and I'll rip you a new asshole, we know what to do with you now we have you right in the palm of our hands."
Dean looked into Crowley's eyes to make sure he got his point across Crowley looked back then put his head down and admitted defeat "I understand you bow-legged twit." Dean was about to undo the chains when Castiel grabbed his arm and pulled him into the corner "Dean what are you doing, this is the King of Hell right here in our midst and you're going to let him go?" "Listen Cas. Angels are fallin, my brother is in real bad shape I'm getting out of here and if we leave him he's gonna escape somehow-"
"Why leave lets take care of the problem"
"Cas we don't know how! the only way we knew is gonna kill Sam, I'm gonna let the bastard go and then once Kevin is done reading the tablet maybe there's another way I don't know but we can't deal with this right now we gotta get the hell out of dodge." "I- I understand."
Dean walked back over and started to undo the chains and cuffs on Crowley the only thing left to do was to get rid of the Demon trap. "We will smite you down where you stand, beware our future encounters" Cas said as he scraped his foot on the seal to break it, Crowley was gone in the blink of an eye Dean packed up the things still laying around the church and headed out Castiel followed helping carry some of the belongs, they stepped outside and Dean ran towards the car, popped the trunk and threw the stuff inside Castiel dropped whatever he had in his hands and began to silently cry at the sight before him, the sky was blood red and all you could see was millions of balls of fire falling from the sky Castiel cried even harder then before this pain inside was unbearable this guilt was overpowering everything else he couldn't even breathe
"HEY!" Dean shouted as he ran over Castiel didn't listen or even acknowlege Dean was there he just kept looking at the sky through blurred vision as the tears fell down his face. Dean grabbed Cas's face in his hands and looked deep into blue eyes "Cas, You did not do this." Cas closed his eyes and took a deep breathe he removed himself from Dean's grasp "I brought this upon them! This was not supposed to be!" "I disobeyed! and this is my punishment." Castiel didn't understand anything that was going on.
why is water escaping my eyes, why do I feel such a heavy burden on my heart, why do I feel.. like taking one of those guns and shooting myself will make everything better.
Dean just stood there not really knowing what to do he'd never seen Cas like this, hell he'd never seen anyone this torn up before, he turned and looked in the backseat and was relived to find Sammy passed out he looked back and Cas was in the truck grabbing one of of the guns and putting it to his temple Dean ran up and snatched the gun out of hands thanking god that it wasn't loaded "What the hell Cas! Look I get it ok I do but this isn't how this we deal with things! get in the damn car!" Castiel tried to grab the gun again Dean pushed him out of the way and slammed the trunk shut, and forcefully dragged him to the passenger seat Cas got in the car and Dean slammed the door he got into the car started it up and the boys were on there way home.
"Can you help me I'm bent I'm so scared that I'll never Get put back together,
Keep breaking me in And this is how we will end With you and me bent."-Matchbox 20.
Keep in mind guys Castiel is Human now he's never had to deal with emotions this strong before and feeling like he is the cause of killing his entire family can be traumatizing it would be for me anyway, Cas isn't a out of character he just doesn't know how to deal with anything at this moment he will be normal soon. PLEASE let me know what you think so far I know it's not very long and there's not much detail but leave some suggestions for me thanks! if you don't like Destiel then leave.. I don't care.